and i'm here to remind you
of the mess you left when you went away
it's not fair to deny me
of the cross that i bear that you gave to me
you, you, you oughta know... ~you oughta know

be a good girl
you've gotta try a little harder
that simply wasn't good enough
to make us proud...
what's the problem.. why are you crying... ~perfect

we all had our reasons to be there
we all had a thing or two to learn
we all needed something to cling to
so we did... ~forgiven

i hear you're counting sheep again, Mary Jane
what's the point of tryin' to dream anymore
i hear you're losing weight again, Mary Jane
do you ever wonder who you're losing it for.. ~mary jane

i don't want to be a bandage if the wound is not mind
lend me some fresh air
i don't want to be adored for what i merely represent to you
i don't want to be your babysitter
you're a very big boy now
i don't want to be your mother
i didn't carry you in my womb for 9 months... ~not the doctor

maybe spend some time alone
fill up your proverbial cup
so that it doesn't always have to be about you
i've been waiting for your undivided attention... ~front row

i have as much rage as you have
i have as much pain as you do
i've lived as much hell as you have
and i've kept mine bubbling under for you...
i was afraid of verbal daggers and i was afraid of the
calm before the storm and i was afraid for my own
bones and i was afraid of your rejection
i was afraid of your intimidation i was afraid of
your punishment i was afraid of your icy silences
i was afraid of your volume i was afraid of your
manipulation i was afraid of your explosions... ~sympathetic character

that i would be grand if i was not all knowing
that i would be loved even when i numb myself
that i would be good even when i am overwhelmed... ~that i would be good

why do you affect me? why do you affect me still?
why do you hinder me? why do you hinder me still?
why do you unnerve me? why do you unnerve me still?
why do you trigger me? why do you trigger me still?... ~can't not

if i take a break it would make me irresponsible
if i'm elusive i will surely be sought after often
if i need assistance then i must be incapable..
if i accumulate knowledge
i'll be impenetrable
if i am aloof no one will know
when they strike a nerve
if i keep my mouth shut the boat
will not have to be rocked
if i am vulnerable i will be
trampled upon... ~would not come

i wouldn't have feigned needlessness
i would not have discredited
everyone of your compliments
it was your approval i wanted
your congratulations... ~your congratulations