Okay, so this is really just one of those simple, all about me, rambling, read it if you care to learn & find out a lil' about just another person out there pages, ok? I was going to vow not to create one of these at all, cause besides bein' something few are likely 2 read & something that I could easily make very personal, I guess I just like leaving a little mystery to all that. I like figuring out what makes a person who they are, and operate how they do, the disconcerting, not by judging/ stereotyping/ labeling (one of my pet peeves), but more merely thinking, and trying to understand them before I actually know those things. When, you can understand how a person thinks, it's only that much easier to get where they're coming from and be a good friend to 'em. But, there's always more than meets the eye, as you should never judge a book by its cover. I'd hope that you'd have some perception and quick wit to recognize some of what I'm about just from my other pages, without me directly telling you anything. Get the jist of where I'm coming from, yet? :) But, anywayz, I was bored, and decided what the heck, So, deal with this page and love it, okay! Um, err please?!

Name: Well, if you're really, REALLY bright, I'm thinking this one will miracously come to you. =)

Age: Mm... Pretty much old enough to know better, but still young enough not to care. :)

Currently residing: Oregon (where I'm thinkin' summer surely does try to delay itself as long as possible,...what's w/ you Californians?..Quit soaking it up and send some up here?:P) Oregon links (for those interested) - 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34.OR, ME, CT, OH, IN, TX, TN, WA, AUS, ? all havin' cities/towns named, Portland, crazy or what?..Check out my collage tribute to Oregon.

Sign: Slippery when wet? Dangerous curves? Nah, my Zodiac sign is Capricorn. =) (January)

Physical? Umm... of course that exists, but the eyes merely always tell the story, don't they? And I have pretty enchanting eyes.. LOL. ;) But, your opinion/perception would ultimately leave the final thoughts on the rest, not that your opinion would matter, if I don't even know you. I'm the slightly sexy angel-next-door type, said to have a similar Jen Love Hewitt, Katie Holmes, Alyssa Milano type look, (those who thought that must have been drunk) yet one of my own. I'm 5'5", 120, long dark brown spiral hair (now w/ fading blonde highlights) and deep brown, exotic eyes. I wanna get a small tribal heart ? kinda tattoo on my ankle or a belly button ring someday :P

ME? Well,.. in my eyes, and I hope to those that 'really' know me, I am just merely *me*,..fun loving, sweet, shy, sarcastic, down to earth, caring, creative, expressive, thoughtful, open-minded, humorous, quick witted, intelligent, desperately wanting Jen. I have high personal beliefs and standards for myself, but at the same time, I'm a laid back, easy going, calm, dreamy, playful girl. I'm not extra needy, but I do require a lot of focused attention from my "true" friends and relationships.

I am not religiously confined, or rather don't blindly follow any belief just because I'm told it's true. I tend to question everything :). I think we should all have our reasons for wanting to believe there's something bigger in this world, to find a form of faith and hope in something, but I think we should ultimately be the one to explore and decide where we find those kind of outlets of peace and inspiration from. Introducing someone to a new belief is one thing, but trying to force or influence an idea down one's throat is another, we should all discover our own path. I do have spiritual beliefs that make up who I am and how I choose to see the world around me and it means a lot to be that I'm free to discover them on my own. I follow my own code of ethics that are right for me and not someone else's pre-defined notions of what's right. I feel life should be lived by the general common sense value of good morals and beliefs, beyond that it should be up to you to decide how you want to live. Who is to say back in way back in BC when they started gathering this info that they recorded into the Bible, that whoever wrote that stuff wasn't trying to entertain themselves be having at big laugh at the future human kind's expense by writing silly principles and rules to scare people into doing things and saying if they didn't, they would go to hell. Creed is one band who I greatly appreciate for their depth in spiritual lyrics and insights, whether some label them as religious, or not, it's all about perception. I tend to like to study and understand philosophical and psychological ideas behind people's spiritual and life ideas.

If you wanna see me as anything else, ..then see what you must. Though, a lot of us should take a second to elude from the obvious and see what's really there, more often. Many of us determine by stereotypes, on groups, numbers, colors, material things, etc.. but, like I say, .. status things should never be the basis of doing or not doin' anything in life. Personality, style, & whatever else are not based on one mere influence, so why should anyone else be based on one mere trend, bios, or stereotype? Most people don't fall into more than one stereotype anyway. There's *always* an exception in that kinda sea of looking at things, whether you choose to see it or not. You shouldn't let those things stand in the way of exploring dreams or anything else, but we all know that's easier said than done. But, isn't goin' outta your way to fight not being a stereotype just as bad as trying to fight to fit in it? There's too many people who try to hide behind a mask of happiness (or whatever) all the time, even when they aren't. I don't try to do that anymore. Though, I don't like to whine or vent too much about what's bugging me, because focusing on those things doesn't give you a very good outlook. But, I don't need to pretend I'm happy or anything else, when I'm not just for the sake of making other people feel better. Usually, I'm just in a neutral mood trying to figure out how to be me, live, & possibly make my reality a little bit better than it is, whether it happens or not; change is never meant as a bad thing.

The Virtues that mean the most to me: Friendliness, Forgiveness, Self-control, Honesty, Hope, Patience, Kindness, Contentment, Compassion, Devotion

Fav. Qualities in a Friend? Trust, all the way. By chance we meet, by choice we become friends. I only go for true friends who I respect and are always there for me and vice versa. Only thing is it's hard to find those kinds. I don't see the point or benefit in wasting time to be anything other than that and I don't know where these people come from who do.

Fav. color(s)?: Black and purple (damn it, black is a color, a mix of them all, actually =), unless you get into the lil theories about the colors we see only bein mere reflections off an object , so while the color black may be the combination of all colors, something that you percieve as black actually is just reflecting all colors of the spectrum back to your eyes, meaning it has no color at all, or if there was no light, blah, blah, but let's not get technical. Did you notice the colors in the bckgrnd? =) ). My fav. close followers after those are silver, green, pink, blue, & not far behind, yellow.

Fav. Pass Times / Interests? I dig exploring the philosophical and psychological makeup of this world and the twisted people in it, which is probably why I'm a creative soul who loves: Movies, music, art, emo, graphic design, poetry, quotes, writing, reading, fashion, interior design, cars, computers, science, astronomy, billiards, rock climbing, snowboarding, biking, skating, travel, comedy club, games, animals, stargazing, driving, shopping, amusement parks, bowling, entertainment trivia, psychology, philiosophy, hot tubs, pubs, plays, comedy shows, beaches, candlelight & rose petals, walks in misty rain, hockey, basketball, volleyball, badminton, tennis, guys, fairies, angels, hanging out, relaxing, talking to 'real' people, canoing, kayaking, jetskiing, rafting, camping, flying, traveling, beautiful specimens of nature / exotic places also often intrigue me. www.pogo.com, www.acrophobia. But, like everyone, forms of boredom lies within these. ... What type of art? (drawing, colored pencil, airbrushing, painting, stained glass, mosaics, jewelry, scratchboard, tile prints, scrapbooking, comp. graphic/ web design, crafts, machine embroidery, vinyl, mod poge, etc.)

Cool Art Elements I Like:

Checkers,  Diamonds, Hearts, Stars, Paint Splash, Splatter, Swirls, Flourishes, Fleur de leaf, Colors, Patterns, Shapes,
Romance - couples, sihouttes, beaches, hearts, candles, flowers, rose petals, water, rain, butterlies
Travel /Nature / Scenic- exotic places, paradise, cities, beaches, Europe - London, Paris, Rome, Italy, architectural
Nature Elements - water, lightning, wind, fire, storms, rain,
Scenic - Night Sky, Moon, Stars, Sun, Starburst, Sun, Blue Skies, Sunsets
Garden / Flowers - Roses, Irises, Stagazer Lilies, Leafs, Palm Trees, Gates, Lights, Decks, Yards
Fantasy - Sexy faeries, angels, girls, cartoons, castles, dark, gothic, dragons, mermaids,
Animals - Dogs, Cats, Pandas, Eagles, Wolves, Tigers, Bears, Monkey, Penguins, Sea Life
Rocker - Stars, Skulls, flames, dice, guitars, tattoos, spades,  emo,
Drink art - cafes, diners, coffee, cocktails, tropical drinks, tiki, fruit, paradise
Other - Cubism, Tribal, Vintage, Logos, Sayings, Cars, Kids, Country Home,  Coca - Cola bears,

Fav. Books? Horror, mystery, fiction, science, romance, comedy, poetry, motivation, psychology, nonfictoin, quotes, etc. Complete Stories & Poems of Edgar Allen Poe, Stephan King, Dean Koontz (Lightning), Anne Rule, Cacther in the Rye, Hamlet, Chicken Soup for the Soul, Lord of the Files, Flowers in the Attic, The Wind Blows Backward by Mary Downing Hahn, Still Waters by Shirley McCoy, Nutcase by Charlotte Hughes, Confessions of a Crap Artist by Phillip K. Dick, Hp Lovecraft, Nora Roberts, Twilight, Cyber Cinderella, Dead Man Haunt, End Over End, Diane Amos, Twelve by Vanessa Jones, End Over End by Kate Kennedy, Diagonally Parked in a Parallel Universe, Catch-22, Inspirational Poetry, East of the Sunrise poetry '95, Shel Silvestein, MC Escher design books, Frank Lloyd Wright Architecture, John Callahan comic books, magazines, more!
 

Fav. Movies??: I don't have one fav,..umm, I like some varying degree of variety in everything (the spice of life?)....But, among many I liked would POSSIBLY include...,

Action / Drama: Fight Club, Memento, Lucky Number Slevin, The Fast & the Furious 1 & 4, Gone in 60 Seconds, Torque, Saw, Coyote Ugly, The Shawshank Redemption, A Time To Kill, Crank, The Crow, Thin Red Line, Good Will Hunting, Powder, Rounders, Speed, Seven, The Punisher, Ghost Rider, Cocktail, Butterfly Effect, Catch Me If You Can, Italian Job, Pirates of the Carribean 1 & 2, Final Destination, The Plan, The Lookout, The Dark Half, License to Drive, Pay it Forward, Invisible, 8 mile, Derailed, Go, Gia,
Sci-fi: Sin City, Gattaca, Identity, Armageddon, Being John Malkovich, Cube, 13th floor, Minority Report, Underworld, Face Off, Hackers, AI, I Am Legend, I-Robot, Men in Black
Romance/Teen Flicks: Prime, My Best Friend's Girl, Over Her Dead Body, 13 Going on 30, Nick & Norah, Bride Wars, The Notebook, Big Fish, Evening, Here on Earth, Serendipity, Untamed Heart, Hitch, At First Sight, Sweet November, Angel Eyes, Picture Perfect, Wedding Planner, How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days, Loser, Boys & Girls, A Lot Like Love, City of Angels, Titanic, Step Up, Honey, Save the Last Dance, Lucky you, The Breakfast Club, My Girl, Because I Said So, Walk to Remember, About A Boy, Lost & Found
Comedy: Yes Man, Observe & Report, Sex Drive, What Happens in Vegas, Euro-trip, Whipped, 100 Girls, Say It Isn't So, Euro Trip, Deadman on Campus, Reality Bites, Mallrats, 40 Year Old Virgin, Super Troopers, School of Rock, Shallow Hal, Taladega Night, American Pie, Bad Santa, Ice Harvest, Anchorman, Along Came Polly, U Me & Dupree, Cruel Intentions, Airheads, Night at the Roxbury, Idle Hands, Men In Black, Clueless, Office Space, Mr. Deeds, Anger Management, Borat, The Waiting, Deuce Bigalow, The Animal, White Chics, Me, Myself & Irene, Varsity Blues, Sugar & Spice, Girl Next Door, Whole 9 Yards, The Ringer, Baby Mama, New Guy, Very Bad Things, Friday, Christmas Story, Grandma's Boy, Not Another Teen Movie, etc
Cartoon/Kids: Ratatouille, Aladdin, Little Mermaid, Monsters Inc, Fifel, The Gods Must Be Crazy, Indian in the Cupboard, The Ugly Dachshund, Labryinth

Fav. Shows? Mm,.. I TRY not to watch too much tv. I consider very few real favs, but... Prison Break, Lost, Tru Calling, Dollhouse, Dark Angel, Dawson's Creek, Jack & Jill, Fast Lane, 24, Medium, Friends, Survivor, CSI, NCIS, Lie to Me, Fringe, House, Criminal Minds, Burn Notice, Forsenic Files, My Name is Earl, Seinfeld, Grounded for Life, Married w/ Children, Still Standing, 2 & a Half Men, War At Home, That 70s Show, so you think you can dance, American Idol, Survivor, Big Brother, Hell's Kitchen, Biggest Loser, Celeb Apprentice, Rock of Love, Viva La Bam, Bachelor, Rock of Love, Wife Swap, The Osbournes, John Doe, Dharma & Greg, Party of 5, X-files, MSCL, In Living Color, Rob & Big, Family Guy, 3rd rock from the sun, Tales from the Crypt, Wade Robson Project, Monster Garage, House Rules, Rock & Roll Jeopardy, VH1 Pop Culture, RockStar, Crosswords, Next, Dirty Jobs, Deadliest Catch, OCC, Days/lives, Desp. hswfs, Ace of Cakes, MTV, Happily Ever After, Out of This World, Sabrina, Singled Out, Real World, Room Raiders, The Pick Up Artist, too many darn reality shows, dating shows, design shows, sitcoms, dramas, hgtv, crime/mystery/action/drama,  game shows, psychic//fantasy shows, , interior decorating, science, a few humorous adult cartoons, etc.

Fav. Bands? Music is .. my refuge from the storm in life, yes, I'm a bit of a music freak, you could say.I love music,...how it affects/changes your mood, how it's like poetry w/ rhythm, beat, and style, trivia, just everything. It'd be hard for me to exist without it.  I'm so emerged into so many styles, so, not to put in you into a reading coma of misery, but here's a good start to some of what I like.  Here we go... 105.1, 101, 94.7, 100.3. Alt, ROCK, hard rock, 80s, punk, pop, ska, emo, soft rock, techno, r&b.

Music is .. my refuge from the storm in life, yes, I'm a bit of a music freak, you could say. I love music,...how it affects/changes your mood, how it's like poetry w/ rhythm, beat, and style, trivia, just everything. It'd be hard for me to exist without it. 'm so emerged into so many styles, so, not to put in you into a reading coma of misery, but here's a good start to some of what I like. Here we go .. 105.1, 101, etc. Alt, ROCK, hard rock, 80s, punk, pop, ska, emo, soft rock, techno, r&b, oldies, some country. Bands: FUEL, Daughtry, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Third Eye Blind, U2, Eve 6, Everclear, Evanescence, Papa Roach, Three Doors Down, Three Days Grace, David Cook, Hinder, Saving Abel, Switchfoot, All American Rejects, Disturbed, Staind, Our Lady Peace, Buck Cherry, Live, Incubus, Smashing Pumpkins, Creed, NIN, Offspring, Hinder, Finger 11, Hoobastank, Snow Patrol, Gavin Rossdale, Foo Fighters, Amy Lee, Killers, Lit, Theory of a Deadman, The Cure, Depeche Mode, Matchbox 20, Powerman 5000, Nirvana, No Doubt, Sublime, Linkin Park, Maroon 5, Matt Nathanson, Jason Mraz, Shinedown, Crossfade, Tonic, Sublime, Saliva, Puddle of Mudd, Tool, Trapt, Aerosmith, Def Leppard, R.E.M., Bon Jovi, Korn, Metallica, System of a Down, Stone Sour, Seether, 12 Stone, P.O.D., Silverstein, NonPoint, Bullet for My Valentine, Smile Empty Soul, Orgy, Adema, RHCP, Stabbing Westward, Liars inc, Better Than Ezra, Silverchair, Pearl Jam, Filter, Refreshments, Zebrahead, Beasties, Blue October, Feeder, Bush, Owsley, Stir, Alien Ant Farm, DMB, 30 Secs To Mars, Verve Pipe, Prodigy, Garbage, Limp Bizkit, Oleander, Athenaeum, Goo Goo Dolls, Semisonic, Dashboard Confessional, Train, Augustana, Savage Garden, Vertical Horizon, Stroke 9, Enrique, Chris Isaak, Edwin McCain, Blessid Union of Souls, Dishwalla, Sugar Ray, Smash Mouth, Gin Blossoms, Yellowcard, Green Day, Cake, Blink 182, MxPx, Sum 41, Jimmy Eat World, Good Charlotte, New Found Glory, Fenix-TX, Simple Plan, Unwritten Law, The Living End, 311, The Urge, Fallout Boy, Panic at the Disco, Dead Kennedys, 22 Jacks, Goldfinger, Suicide Machines, Ozzy, ACDC, Kutless, Skillet, Katy Perry, Lady Gaga, Rhianna, Gwen Stefani, Michelle Branch, Avril Lavinge, Vanessa Carlton, Jessica Simpson, Ashlee Simpson, Jewel, Mariah, Alanis, Fiona Apple, Christina Aguilera, Britney, J-Lo, Pink, Mya, Beyonce, Sarah McLaughlan, Aaliyah, Shakira, Fergie, Kelly Clarkson, Carrie Underwood, Taylor Swift, tlc, jojo, Eminem, 50 cent,  Ludacris, Soulja boy, Nelly, Usher, LL Cool J, Ginuwine, Kanye, DMX, Tpain, Ne-yo, 2 Pac, Ja Rule, Babyface, Usher, Craig David, Ginuwine, Black Eyed Peas, BT, Daft Punk, Chemical Bros, Tom Petty, Juke Kartel (Toby Rand), Adam Lambert, Danny Gokey, Alison Iraheta, Kris Allen, one hit wonders, etc.ris Allen, one hit wonders, etc.

Fav. Weather?: Sunshine's the best, 'specially on a summer day, then like goin' for a drive or cuddling outside in the dark, dreamy, relaxing, cool, night air. Though, a day of light misty rain, (not the nasty, depressing, pouring, dogs-and-cats stuff) to stay in & read, share a kiss, or just go take a walk is very calming and nice. I'd even say an occasional thunderstorm that beautifully illuminates the night sky, and adds that sense of fear, is also kinda cool. I don't know, lightning just has that mesmorizing fascination that goes w/ it. Snow is fun about once or twice a year, or for the cool sports, but otherwise... I'd go for the tropical side, babyz. :) *smirk*

Fav. Food? Hrm,.. I guess, .....Chinese, Italian, pizza, pasta, tacos, fajitas, grilled chicken stirfry or salad, spaghetti, pasta, fresh breads, fruits, berries, smoothies, slurpies, frozen yogurt, hot chocolate, mocha frappucino, chai tea, sweets, whatever.

Fav. Animals? ..Guys, (RAWR! =)) ...err...Umm,.. pandas, puppies (especially my dachshund and yorkies), kittens, wolves, tigers, polar bears, horses, tropical fish.

Fav. Flowers? Roses, of course, *wink*... stargazer lillies, blue irises, tulips, daisies, sunflowers, & lots more.

Heros? Hmm, my sweetie, my friends, my family, my mom, my pups ....

My Room?  Uhh, bed, dresser, entertainment center, pretty curtains or window scarves with blinds, swirl heart vanity, stereo, tv, lights, comfy stuff, suede lounge chair, pictures, decor, candles, graphic stuff, special reminders of how to live life and things and people to remember. I'd like to graphically/ interiorly design the whole thing into a eye catching mural scheme someday, maybe, but got too much going on and like too much stuff. Check out my style page for some cool rooms pics I made.

Clothes? Yeah,.. I tend to wear 'em .. Fashion Sense? Black, silver, purple, white, red, brown, ... then greens, pinks, blues, and a lil yellow. I like the glitter, glam, sexy, stylin', sassy, classy (but not trashy). A 'lil prep, a 'lil punk, and not without my own charismatic spunk. A lil girlly, original, casual, sophisticated, basic, wild, or even sporty, who says you always have to dress to the "40"? A lil pizzaz to jazz. Plus, some cool, hip, trendy colors and design, but all must hold a piece of me to make them divine. =P There's a total rock star living somewhere inside of me!? Check out my style page for hot celebs, clothes, accessories, and more.

Fav. Dream Cars? Umm, dream carSsss, plural....:P C'mon, too many nice rides.  Check out my car page for pics, cool cars, and more. My top favs are like the Acura RSX, Toyota Celica, Toyota Scion, Mitshubishi Eclipse, Infinit G35, Hyudai Tiburon, newer Honda Accord, but lots more too.

Fav. Career Ideas? Like most people, I'm really not sure where I want that to go. Right now, I'm into the computer fields - graphic design (cd or movie covers, maggazine ads, shirts, posters, flyers, packaging, web design, graphic user interface, construction, etc.). Plus, writing (ads, songs, poems, books, articles, reviews).Other things I'm somewhat interested in: singer/dancer/model, radio dj, photographer, fashion or interior designer, psychologist, vet, biology, forensic science, secretarial, med. billing & coding, flight attendant, fire fighter, etc.

Fav. Quotes? Here are only FEWof some really good quotes from my quote page, more to come ... : "Fear is the only thief of dreams."
"Don't be afraid of the space between your dreams and reality, if you dream it, you can make it so." "People tell you to be yourself...like yourself is some defined thing."- MSCL. "To be yourself, in a world that tries, night and day, to make you just like everybody else - is to fight the greatest battle there ever is to fight, and never stop fighting." -e.e. cummings "We are born into the World, Like a blank canvas. And every person that crosses our path, Takes up the brush, And makes their mark. Upon our surface. So it is that we develop.But we must realize there comes a day, That we must take up the brush And finish the work, For only we can determine If we are to be Just another painting, Or a Masterpiece. -Javan (part of a poem) "Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I may not forget you."~William Arthur "We seem to be going through a period of nostalgia, & everyone seems to think yesterday was better than today. I don't think it was, and I would advise you not to wait ten years before admitting today was great. If you're hung up on nostalgia, pretend today is yesterday & just go out & have one hell of a time." -Art Buchwald "Sometimes, it's easier to love what you have, instead of always yearning for what's missing, or what you *imagine* is missing." "Courage is easy by candlelight. Your faith, I suspect, is in the flame." Death grinned. - Discworld. " I think when you've seen what's real about yourself, (and others) you've seen a lot, and you DON'T need eyes for that." - At First Sight. "Too bad you can't buy a voodoo globe so that you could make the earth spin real fast and freak everybody out." "Madness takes its toll, please have exact change ready."=) Sex is like a rainbow, have a colorful day! *wink* (taste the rainbow, baby..haha) "Dance w/ the devil, the devil don't change, the devil changes you." -8 mm. "We may rise and fall, but in the end we meet our faith together." "Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to a new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same.

Guy 4 Me?

That one guy in that one dream?! Well,.. there's not one certain type of guy I dig, but the following are great traits for someone I'd be interested in to hold. I need  someone that appreciates me for me, faults and all. Someone that doesn't  take for granted the little things and wants to support me and help me become a better person with them. Someone who loves spending time with me and doesn't want everything their way.A generally nice guy who is honest, laid back, "real", down 2 earth, respectful, sincere, sweet hearted, confident but not conceited, caring, understanding, thoughtful, compassionate, expressive, optimistic, intelligent, spiritual, open-minded, deep "comforting" soul who can start or hold a conversation. Someone who just exodes a certain carefree charm and fun personality, who can be a little bit spontaneous, flirty, edgy, romantic, silly, fun, free spirited, and bold yet bashful. Someone who is totally their OWN person, even though they hold my similar interests. Someone who has goals in life and strives to chase down their dreams. Someone who doesn't take for granted what they have and holds the ones they love close to them. My guy would have to be someone with a lot of patience, understanding, heart, & open eyes & ears - to perceive, listen, & express himself. He's the kind of person I feel lost without. He's considerate to others feelings, but not afraid to say what he thinks when it comes down to it. Someone's who not blind in who they are and what they feel. He's someone who truly enjoys just spending time just talking & cuddling and knows most of the right things to say, not just by charm, but, because he's taken the time & pleasure in learning me. Someone who can see through the line of judging to understanding is very refreshing. Someone who's love is greater than their need, (for once the need fades, love was probably already gone). Someone who cares about what happens to me, how my day was, what I'm thinking, or even just hearing the sound of my voice on the other end of the phone.