Catch Me When I Fall

 


     Some people say that I am reckless, but they ain’t right, I am not reckless. I know that I tend to do crazy things, but that is just because I have no fear of getting hurt if I fall, because I know that you’ll always be there to catch me when I fall. You always have been and always will my best friend, my brother – even if we are only cousins.
    Any time that I have been in the slightest bit of trouble you have always been right there to help me out, even at times when I was sure I didn’t need your help you remained behind me, to catch me when I fell. I know my temper tends to be short, and I say things I do not mean, I regret any words I ever spoken in anger to you. I have never doubted your friendship, never doubted that you would always be there for me.
I know I can tell you anything – though most times I don’t have to you always seem to be able to sense what I am thinking – sense when I am in any kind of trouble. You are the only one who has never judged me – never expected more from me. You always allowed me to test my limits and been right there to catch me if I fell. I trust you more then I trust anyone else in this world.
    I always trusted you, believed in you from the day we first met. I can still remember the first time you caught me when I fell – really fell. If it hadn’t been for you I would not be here today. It was such a simple game, so much fun, even though Uncle Jesse forbid us to play it – we did anyway. Even then I was not afraid, because you were there, I never had any fear with you around. It was a fun game- to climb up into the hayloft and swing down on the rope into a pile of soft hay. I was only five and Uncle Jesse didn’t even like me to climb that ladder, he also told us the ladder was old and not safe but we never listened – I guess some things never really change do they? I was going up the ladder for the third, when that old ladder did break. The wooden rung broke beneath my feet, and I held on tight as I could. I wasn’t scared, not at all because I knew you were there to catch me when I fell. I knew you wouldn’t let me get hurt, so I just held on and waited for you to tell me what to do. You told me not to look down, so I didn’t. Even as I was losing my grip I was not afraid – I know you were more concerned about it then I was, I had complete faith that you’d catch me.  When you told me to let go, I did so without a moment’s hesitation, without a thought against it. I felt like I was flying, without a concern. I landed in the pile of hay you had moved, doing your best to provide me with a soft landing, from so many feet up. You were right there to catch me, with no concern for your own safety – I felt so safe when you grabbed me, and we both fell back into the hay, neither of us injured. Of course that is when Uncle Jesse came out, I remember how mad he was. I know I got you in serious trouble, he felt you were the oldest and should’ve done more to look out for me – but he was wrong, very wrong, you did everything to look out for me that day, just like you have every other day.
    You have always been there to catch me when I fell, while remaining by my side, as best friend, a brother, being everything I needed and yet so much more. I know I have never told you how much it means to me that you have always been there to catch me when I fall, but I feel now that it needs to be said, that I need to tell you how much I appreciate everything you have ever done for me.  At times I feel I have done nothing to deserve your friendship, that I get into trouble and just depend on you to get me out of it – to catch me when I fall. You have been there to catch me so many times, it’d take forever to list everything, all the fights I have gotten into, all the risk I have taken. The only times I have ever been afraid is times you have been hurt while “catching” me, afraid that you’d be hurt bad, afraid that those injures would but an end to our friendship. Yet, you have always been my friend expecting nothing in return, except the friendship I offer back. Thank you Luke for everything you ever done for me.
    Please come home, Luke, I miss you more then words could ever began to say, no words could even come close. I need you here, as friend and a brother. I need you here to catch me when I fall. Until you return home safely to Hazzard I will be holding on, holding on until you tell me to let go.

Love Bo.