| ~Nightfall~ ***** Children of the night such a sad tune they write Waiting to rhyme their wicked song A trip without direction, eyes that hold despair Longing to know what went wrong ***** This deadly obsession is torturing me The lies that I've seen and breed within In sad times of madness they long to be free While deep inside the agonies begin ***** This for me is the eve of insanity I'm standing in the line of fire Broken innocence tries smashing through Flames fueling the pain's just desire ***** And still I keep calling, on deaf ears my cries Fall upon dreamed paradise a lie So wade through the slaughter you've made of thy lover To drown in the madness as I die ***** Then come a time on the soul that you ride You'll then know what is to be To cry in vane like a child gone insane And no one can save or set you free ***** The seasons of evil are sewn in their minds And harness the sad fears of woe Love is not the martyr that lives on forever And now it's too late for my soul ***** I'm standing on sanity's too fragile edge Looking down I know that I can't fly Love like addiction is all I can see And it burns on the fuel of shattered lives ***** Don't turn out the lights; there's demons in the night They feed on the fears in us all I'm waiting, I'm craving, Defy till the end I'm over the edge; I'm starting to fall ~Me, 07-05-1998~ |
| ~Let Me~ Let me take your sorrows And make them all my own Let me take your hand And let you know you’re not alone ***** Let me take your love And hide it so very deep Let me give you my heart And know it's yours to keep ***** Let me take your tears And help you wish them all away Let me take you in my arms And hear you say you'll stay ***** Let me take the miles between us And make them disappear Let me whisper I love you And take away the fear ***** Let me lead you Where the moonlit waters call Let us dance together Where all sweet shadows softly fall ***** Let me lead you Through the stillness of the night Let me hold you close And feel the warmth of dawn's first light ~Me, 10-25-1998~ |
| ~Skyler~ ***** You and I together in our lives Sacred ties that would never fray Now I sit here and tell myself lies And die inside more everyday ***** All alone delusions they haunt me Where's that love I used to know It dies inside so very deep within Homeless searching for a soul ***** I’ve sat and have watched in wonder As the colors fade and turn to gray I've seen love but what does it mean Why does it always seem to drift away ***** I had watched our love grow deep So deep in defiance of everyone We let them take us and we let them break us How the damage has been done ***** I have become addicted to the drug To the drug of love you no longer feel The pain from all the things that we said Wishing emotion to become cold as steel ***** Why does no one seem to understand That it's simply love I need It's so hard to keep your faith alive When no one else seems to believe ***** How long I had waited, always wanting Longed for this dream to come true So fast, from no where, it approached me Now I can't believe we're through ***** Time seems to have frozen But still the mind can't be fooled As each day passes I discover Our destiny just can't be ruled ***** Through tears I try to gaze out at fate But still it seems I’ll be forever blind For all that I had ever wanted Is now in the past, long left behind ***** If I had the will to stand and stare In the mirror would I see Just the tears of a fallen hero Looking back with a face like me ***** If I were to stand and scream Would anybody care or hear Will I always dream paradise without you And cry those lonely silent tears ***** A thousand bloody roses bloom With each, a thorn that cuts and bleeds our soul Wishing all the sweet love in heaven Would wrap us so tight and console ***** So now the night and the demons come I'll dream again you can be mine If there's a God he'll hold me tight For tonight I know I’ll dream a lie ~Me, 12-05-1998~ |
| ~Desire Burns~ ***** Sweet seduction screams I can’t pretend to tell you lies The heat that flows through My veins Will eat your love alive ***** Come to Me My wanting one My sweet devil in disguise The will is strong, the flesh is weak I see it in your eyes ***** Your gifts to Me so ripe and lush Those trembling lips, your erotic hush In control, make no mistake What you don’t give freely, I will take ***** You don’t care if I track you down Like an animal that’s on the run Take you tied spread eagle Hear you scream, your lust begun ***** Your eyes they beg hot passion When I writhe and when I tease Hot and wet begins to sting you Oh taste you, will I please ***** Feel the sweet temptation Burn in you buried deep The soul alive, W/we feel it thrive Your sweet meats where I’ll feed ***** Grinding harder, ever faster Desire burns, that’s what W/we’re after Lick your lips, exact your claws Feel it hard and take it raw ***** Come My love, this is no dream Leave your soul at the door as I make you scream Take the lustful hand of sin As O/our sweet ecstasy begins ~Me, 02-14-1999~ |
| ~Never Scorned Enough~ ***** The painted sorrows in My heart In the deepest darkest shades of ebony Rip the sky out from My soul The sky that thunders in and over Me ***** Take Me to the blackness there Hidden safe and forever free To the darkened razor edges of My bleeding faded sanity ***** Black sky, rains down on Me I try to scream, I can’t even speak Black sky, rains down on Me Forever scorned in black deceit ***** Blind My eyes with nights embrace Don’t tell Me that I can not hide A sack cloth veiled across My face In darkened bliss but so lost inside ***** In My corner all alone, I’ll hide Living to lose, while dying to win To suffer the horrors of My mind So soon the nightmares will begin ***** Black sky, rains down on Me Just so much needing My only one Black sky, rains down on Me I can’t go back and I can’t go on ***** Remember the love, before that first caress Eyes closed, held tight, have you forgot Offered, is a Lovers invitation From so far away, wanted or not ***** Will I have your memory Or will it have Me Paint My sky in blazing blue No more blackened ebony ***** Black sky, rains down on Me I try to scream, I can’t even speak Black sky, rains down on Me Forever scorned in black deceit ***** You don’t have to see My heart Just see the black in My eyes They burn into you, forever Mine Blue sky save Me from My dark demise ***** For love and pain, these things insane I’ve come to know them really the same Please show O/our love not to be a lie Used and abused, bought and sold in vane ***** Black sky, rains down on Me I try to scream, I can’t even speak Black sky, rains down on Me Forever scorned in black deceit ***** Black sky, rains down on Me Just so much needing My only one Black sky, rains down on Me I can’t go back and I can’t go on ~Me, 02-06-2000~ |
| ~The Mirror~ ***** Come gaze at me, do you like what you see You could smash the mirror, but still never be free I've seen your past and know all that you are The phantom that watches each painful new scar ***** I watch as you cry, I caress your disgrace We are the conscience that shares the same face If you talk to me, maybe I'll talk to you We'll tell lies together and never be true ***** The plaything of man, in its purest vanity Alive in your eyes, your vision thing of sanity I'll show you again that you can not ever hide The horrors you sanction, that you hold deep inside ***** I laugh at your rage in that cold crimson haze Mocking your sorrows that you bring me each day We are two who are one, they can't see what we are A reflection you cast on your conscience at war ***** They would not believe the things that I've seen Walking the dark edge, I'm all that you've ever been If they knew what I know, it would all fall apart Those deep shameless secrets, till death do us part ***** Your demons relentless, in your dark doors of doom In the shifting madness, blame me I presume I am what you are, I live safe behind your eyes The lover you'd die for, the hate you despise ***** I hear the lonely silence that rings in your ears Laughing in the sorrow, of you and your fears Will I escape your soul, or will you always live as me The true alter ego that's living inside you'll see ***** Your face in the mirror, but you don't understand That addiction to me, take your last stand A delicate dependency, your ultimate chore I'm the face that you see when the face isn't yours ~Me, 07-07-2000~ |
| ~Mercy~ ***** I feel, and hear your sweet seduction roar And I, I feel the shivers the core Resist your infraction, the violent reaction Lust with abandon, with each teasing action ***** Half child and all women, vision fantasy Cast against the moonlight, bathed in ecstasy Pain and pleasure's all yours, ever running wild The prey you're after, lick your lips and smile ***** You are the fuel, look to you to rule Stealing the innocence of those that you fool The souls that drown in your seductive sea Still you will go on, to show no mercy ***** Wickedly and skin tight you move in to thrill Waiting for the right time, you're in for the kill Devilish so sleekly, you know what you do Always tempt the flesh, leaving when you're through ***** I've seen your love, how it scares me a bit To see those dying in the shadow of it The slaves you gave just the air to breathe Your sweet seductive love only the mirror sees ***** You are the fuel, look to you to rule Stealing the innocence of those that you fool The souls that drown in your seductive sea Still you will go on, to show no mercy ***** I hear the cries in the cycles as they turn Another chapter closed in your sweet seductive burn Just another lonely dancer left upon your stage In the darker side of love, to feel the crimson rage ***** To balance your love on that fragile razored ledge Sin in the Garden of Eden, living on sanity's edge Your offerings of reason, the games you put in play The covering of treason, your heart that slips away ***** You are the fuel, look to you to rule Stealing the innocence of those that you fool The souls that drown in your seductive sea Still you will go on, to show no mercy ***** You are the fuel, look to you to rule Stealing the innocence of those that you fool The souls that drown in your seductive sea Still you will go on, to show no mercy ~Me, 07-15-2000~ |
| ~Unity~ ***** All you have to do is reach to touch Me To see those fires rise in My eyes Take your hand and feel My heartbeat That safe warm place where you reside ***** Each day I hold on to watch the hours pass The minutes melt away until you come home For now all I can hold is just the shadow Of My heart that is no longer just My Own ***** Lay down so close and see All that I want to feel Are just you and Me Open your heart to see All that I need right now Is you breathing Me ***** So spread your wings and come inside And tell Me I'm the One your heart needs Let Me hear the words "forever Mine" Pass from your lips as My eyes, they plead ***** Come My love, show and take Me to heaven That place, where I've been so afraid to go Please show Me the way for I'm no angel Entice the bliss within that only you can show ***** Lay down so close and see All that I want to feel Are just you and Me Open your heart to see All that I need right now Is you breathing Me ***** There's only one way, just one thing I need Give Me your heart, give Me your mind Its all truth or dare, and nothing is fair Just let Me hold your heart and make you Mine ***** I'll be there to smile and dry your tears The One to stand forever at your side and fight To hold you tight and wish the fears away The One you'll run to in the darkest night ***** Lay down so close and see All that I want to feel Are just you and Me Open your heart to see All that I need right now Is you breathing Me ***** Lay down so close and see All that I want to feel Are just you and Me Open your heart to see All that I need right now Is you breathing Me ~Me, 08-02-2000~ |
| ~Window~ ***** Reclusive in the ugly in between I can’t seem to live, and I can’t seem to die Still I can’t see through the tears that form To know even the simple reason why ***** There’s a sun, and there’s a moon Still each day the colors drain and meld to gray The crack in the window My only gift To watch an abusive world just drift away ***** I just can’t see, and I can’t seem fight My demons never chose to show Me how Losing My way on the edge of the night The norm embraced, there’s no way back now ***** A laugh while standing at My window I breathe the sweetest of summer breeze The despair in its momentary lapse A child’s gentle laugh beneath a willow tree ***** A smile cracking on My face so scorned The children playing to and fro The remembered reasons of happiness tore For they were Me twenty years ago ***** Thoughts of all days gone, melted by The dreams that I’d given up or failed to be My heart broke then, mothers call to her child Taking from Me what I’d dared to see ***** She ran past Me to her mothers arms She caught My gaze and flashed a smile I knew then that there was still life Her eyes told Me I’d had it all the while ***** A self-abusive recluse looked and dared To open His eyes and look on innocence A New World of sanctuary broad and wide A final end to gray, an end to penance ~Me, 08-06-2000~ |
| ~Lies Eternal~ ***** Sweet goddess Venus at your alter Please bow down and hear our cries How our earthly pleasures falter Of the love that seems to drift and die ***** See the walls of lust, how they entomb us As each piercing sword of scorn divides Take not the passion from our souls By your soft caress, rip from us, our pride ***** For there is a land of no tomorrow Where we pray just to end each day In the darker side of your love's horizon As a life just slowly drifts and drains away ***** There was a time I shivered to her whisper Come and sail on my seductive sea The colors of creation blazing in her eyes Still the fear was real, the fear would always be ***** Hand in hand we walked on water Arm in arm we sailed the skies Each a light storm in the deepest darkness As each storm cast rainbows in our eyes ***** But still change, how it knows its call Just like a sleek thief in the night And so sacred dreams, lay where they fall Tattered and torn, vanished from sight ***** Again to only live in a maze of tangled grace A lost and lonely ship to wither in the storm To chase in vane, the shadows of belief In winters discontent, longing to be warm ***** The wanton promises of spring time Crumbling to frozen lies so very cold How the stars, they refuse to shine The song at an end, the story to be told ***** Sweet goddess Venus at your alter Please bow down and hear our cries How our earthly pleasures falter Of the love that seems to drift and die ***** See the walls of lust, how they entomb us As each piercing sword of scorn divides Take not the passion from our souls By your soft caress, rip from us, our pride ~Me, 10-10-2000~ |
| ~November Remembered~ ***** Try to run away, just don't know what to do Do you feel it's real, could you believe it true The lover’s cards are dealt, held tight by the fool Wagering on sorrow as the one thing for you ***** It's time to grit your teeth and listen for the gun Breathe hard in the runner’s block and kneel And run the race of lovers, that deadly decathlon For this November night the game begins for real ***** I can always still remember November For whom the tears fall, they fall for me I'll never forget to remember November For whom my heart breaks, it breaks for she ***** Does anyone know where the love of God goes When the heartbreak turns minutes to hours When November she warns, of the storm of storms In a shivered discontent, is a love devoured ***** So many lies ago, sand grains as they fall Creations blazing colors seem to fade and drain How we've lost our sight, wronged our final right The tender mask of mercy, hides the face of pain ***** I can always still remember November For whom the tears fall, they fall for me I'll never forget to remember November For whom my heart breaks, it breaks for she ***** Still where are you now, now when I need you What burns where that raging flame used to be Has it gone like the warmth of last summer Forever smothered, lost in winters bold decree ***** Such a bitter sweet love when you're crying When did the raging love become as frozen lies How fragrant the delicate rose when it’s dying Still with the bitter razored thorns at its sides ***** I can always still remember November For whom the tears fall, they fall for me I'll never forget to remember November For whom my heart breaks, it breaks for she ***** How I've felt and feared that harsh caress Of those cold and rough, frail hands of time I've heard the songs that ever softly whisper November remembered, I sing the closing rhyme ***** Now all that remains, a scared face with no place And a name that's forbidden to dare speak of All but for only when, November is remembered A final chapter written, I close the book of love ***** I can always still remember November For whom the tears fall, they fall for me I'll never forget to remember November For whom my heart breaks, it breaks for she ***** I can always still remember November For whom the tears fall, they fall for me I'll never forget to remember November For whom my heart breaks, it breaks for she ~Me, 11-19-2000~ |
| ~Twilight Descends~ ***** There were slight traces in the darkness Of past faces that I could not seem to see The silence, it smashed into a million pieces As the cries came screaming out of me ***** A piercing scream, to see the light of day Fading fast behind the flames of pain Throw a bitter past to the winds of change To let ones heart sail upon the open plains ***** If I were to cry for sanctuary Would you care to hear Would you grant me sanctuary And take away the fear ***** To know of that certain feeling known to all A sweet and wondrous mystic state so very true Just to feel the soft embrace, for once, the call Of chills that embrace the heart and claim you ***** Let a past just fade and be a memory now I’m not quite what I’ve thought before Still I’ve come too far to ever go back now Then again, could I somehow have become more ***** If I were to cry for sanctuary Would you care to hear Would you grant me sanctuary And take away the fear ***** Riding fast and hard across the plains of time In vane, in hope, to find an answer now A lost key to that lonely sacred place where Dreams of the heart, seem lost and never found ***** For only once to be the sane insider Never to be always looking back in wonder To lay those blissful seeds of change To a kingdom far from the rolling thunder ***** If I were to cry for sanctuary Would you care to hear Would you grant me sanctuary And take away the fear ***** Laying waste to the days and nights of sorrow To be that chosen one not lost and never found And have love, the martyr, live on forever On such a hollowed and eternal sacred ground ***** Twilight descends, but I won’t be afraid The sun will follow the darkest night Twilight descends, but I have you here now The past is gone, the future burning bright ***** If I were to cry for sanctuary Would you care to hear Would you grant me sanctuary And take away the fear ***** If I were to cry for sanctuary Would you care to hear Would you grant me sanctuary And take away the fear ~Me, 12-17-2000~ |
| ~Love~ (Such A Many Splintered Thing) ***** If there is this love that no one ever sees The stories told that just couldn't be real How could the heart even begin to believe in Reflections of sad withered truths we feel ***** View of lives, simply like an open book See tales of those sorrowed lonely nights Just open it up now, and then take a look Then close your eyes, hold yourself tight ***** They talk of it as bliss, so wonderful A thing of spender, such a joy to bring Have they ever known of its darker side This love, such a many splintered thing ***** Lies to say that black is really white The world so full of its evil means A moon that's just a blazing sun at night To blind the eyes and steal your dreams ***** There's no escape and so little choice Nothing else to hear and unable to breathe Forever lost in the sound of love's voice A sad obsession that consumes, you'll see ***** They talk of it as bliss, so wonderful A thing of spender, such a joy to bring Have they ever known of its darker side This love, such a many splintered thing ***** See the scars of scorn worn upon their faces From love, the vicious spinning carousel Their hard falls, the loss of social grace It turns so fast, they try to ride it well ***** A ride so very sweet, never ever will it end The arm that envelops, the hand that holds Lie to yourself in the forever lasting sunset So comes the sober morning, the caress is sold ***** They talk of it as bliss, so wonderful A thing of spender, such a joy to bring Have they ever known of its darker side This love, such a many splintered thing * Rage Lusting Debauchery * Sorrow Guilt Futility * Wanting Needing Empathy * Loss Accept Depravity * Take a look behind the eyes, just what do you see Lost dreams deep within, faces that beckon thee Do you hear their cries, so very plain to know Of the shadowed pasts that can't ever be let go ***** Hear the wish for truths clear as black and white As the tears of velvet lies corrupt their sight For the rest of their lives, wherever they go They wear the scars of scorn deep upon the soul ***** They talk of it as bliss, so wonderful A thing of spender, such a joy to bring Have they ever known of its darker side This love, such a many splintered thing ***** They talk of it as bliss, so wonderful A thing of spender, such a joy to bring Have they ever known of its darker side This love, such a many splintered thing ~Me, 01-20-2001~ |
| ~Silence~ ***** The dawn was breaking, when then in the mirror I caught the cast reflections of my own face The fear, agony, torment, that I could see there Of tears on wasted years, gone without a trace ***** After all this time, I still look back in wonder At the cries of the heart still tied and bound The plight of restless dreams all breaking through For that loving paradise, lost and never found ***** The passion, it consumes, still to this day Forever blinded with its blaze of indigo tears Yet no sacred allegiance has been put in play Nor has it been formed to hold off the fears ***** Still every time I see your face I still cry And I long to get over you, just one more time But as the nightmares come, how bad I try to Escape your memory as it holds and confines ***** Silence with your gentle warmth, please comfort me And with my war on love, someday it will be won For now these awful nights will just have to be Then I'll call on you no more, to hold this lonely one ***** And yet I still watch as that precious thing That I so long to hold of its feelings sold Still remains up upon that highest shelf As this child’s tears go forever unconsoled ***** The pain, it lives on, deep behind these eyes To embrace our yesterday, that long ago had died This babe so alone, in a dark and cold abyss And never knowing pain could ever feel like this ***** I'll just remember being held tight in your arms To shiver in the memory of its parting charm For here and now as I reflect, I can only see Only tears of longing as I taste my final destiny ***** Now the music is gone but still I'll carry on With a spirit that's bruised, but broken, never Though I'll never forget, still my heart is set On a new tomorrow where one and I, are forever ***** Silence with your gentle warmth, please comfort me And with my war on love, someday it will be won For now these awful nights will just have to be Then I'll call on you no more, to hold this lonely one ***** For what is gone, is gone, simply lost forever Yet what's won is won, held in its special place Taken out on to wonder at on those special days To cry, or smile upon, yet with a loss of grace ***** A serpents kiss, how it breeds its lonely spawn As the heart, it thunders, in wait for the dawn Bind your strengths together, your heart ever free No kiss or splintered lies, will compromise, you'll see ***** The time has come for me to close these eyes Just to still the harsh cold wind and rain Calming whispers that blow the seeds of hate Leaving dreams embraced that only harbor pain ***** And now it seems, I'm just a stranger to myself I live out a life through the eyes of someone else Yet there is one thing I long for, every single day A wish to miss what's lost, before it went away ***** Silence with your gentle warmth, please comfort me And with my war on love, someday it will be won For now these awful nights will just have to be Then I'll call on you no more, to hold this lonely one ***** Silence with your gentle warmth, please comfort me And with my war on love, someday it will be won For now these awful nights will just have to be Then I'll call on you no more, to hold this lonely one ~Me, 03-21-2001~ |
| ~After The Promise~ ***** As the thoughts weigh heavy, the sorrow invades Silence as the blanket, wrapping me up tight Reality an illusion, as the light it fades Where am I to go just to escape another night ***** The darkness burns on, the light going fast Slipping to oblivion, destination unknown Sanity consumed, as it never seems to last Desperation seeping in its so familiar tone ***** It's the end of the beginning Yet still now I realize The beginning of the end It shines through in your eyes ***** Well the light is gone and the shivers they come Racing to the heart, that only longs to be warm The nights, I've heard are the worst for some When pain sweeps relentless, the essence of scorn ***** Now the phone it rings, afraid of its own sound Enveloping the fears of the heart that’s bound An unfamiliar voice, a call destined not to be The longing goes on, for the voice that owns me ***** It's the end of the beginning Yet still now I realize The beginning of the end It shines through in your eyes ***** There's nothing in this world I would not give In my eyes, you'll see that begging flame For resident mercy in your heart, let our love live Beyond searing words, and crossed swords of blame ***** When I was to sleep, you were to shelter me Drifting, I would drown in your long embrace In love without tears, a kiss without fears All of my reservation, gone without a trace ***** It's the end of the beginning Yet still now I realize The beginning of the end It shines through in your eyes ***** What ever happened after the promise As winter's cold enveloped the summer sun Will it be returned with the springtime That promise spoken when we became one ***** Now it's five am, and still the wait consumes Will I now heed the searing shivers that warn Dawn breaks in its glory, for now darkness entombed It is then and only then, the heart learns of scorn ***** It's the end of the beginning Yet still now I realize The beginning of the end It shines through in your eyes ***** It's the end of the beginning Yet still now I realize The beginning of the end How it shines through in your eyes ~Me, 03-24-2001~ |
| ~Reflections~ ~The Mirror Part II~ ***** Forged and spawned of a bold fire's caress Yet forever, will you eternally gaze upon me Just a quick illusion of a magicians hand A gift to your unyielding manifested vanity ***** I've watched in silence since time began The entity, a thing that lives and breathes Forever essence gazed in reflection to all Your image cast forth, infinitely worships me ***** Far away strangers in this new strange place After forty long years on the desert sand I am what the prophets saw in shining waters Of their bountiful and cherished promised land ***** I've looked upon the faces of betrayed kings And beheld the sour tangled webs they weave Yet still, watched the undressing of queens Looked upon the reek of their will to deceive ***** Your savior, your only one crowned messiah I cried as he did, and watched him crucified There he wept before me in a tarnished glory Still of him, you won't believe why he died ***** A bloody history, in its dark rise and fall In desensitizing blindness you refuse to see The sheer raping slaughter of your fellow man With such pure and precise encrusted cruelty ***** Either for the domination of a fascist state Or just a selfish reasoned capitalistic dream What is past is prologue to your unruly despair Forever, whenever, there are men and the means ***** I've seen the shameful embrace of atomic bombs And one who's hand, it waits in a deep decision To give a world mandate on the state of things As he hopes and prays for a clarity of vision ***** Manipulation rampant on the part of the state Control by invention with such deadly attention Devastating disciples of the New World doctrine With enflaming madness to serve their intention ***** With chaos always in its higher form of order Still with hypnotic charm, I show the reflections The tears of degeneration of a world that bleeds Yet with eternal hope, of a grace in resurrection ~Me, 05-13-2001~ |
| ~Venomous Vitality~ ~Just A Part Of Me~ ***** There's such a dark sinister loathing voice Buried deep, its whispers inside my head There I've witnessed each and every war The sights, and the acrid smell of slow death ***** There, non stop smoking plumes they fill the sky Sickeningly seen, tasted, time and time again Those smoking embers I remember, I question why As a flaming ground swallows up and burns insane ***** Distorting my thoughts in a hateful arrogance And the supposed intent to raise an ability With a scorn inflicted and a thought infected As my long sought desires are lost in futility ***** Lost in those lasting moments of such regret Abolished, cast out within the sands of time In solitude's crush, the anger splitting through Still I seek my redemption, forever asking why ***** Where there is a hell, a hatred to be fathomed Then dwelling there, you shall look upon me If there is an insanity to behold, it's my own With blinded eyes that just forever long to see ***** Is it just a nightmare fought behind my eyes Reflections of some sick manifested dream Dark caress, shadowed hands restrain my cries And silence each and every piercing scream ***** There is a horror that is living, that’s breathing Concealed so very deep down hidden within me There it resides in its such darkened secrets It feasts on the hate of millions, and will always be ***** I've been hell, oh such shameless godless me The one that's been so lost and never to be found Wrapped up selfish tight in my pagan idolatry With a heart so lost, forever tied, and bound ***** Sometimes when I just stare and gaze at me The green-brown that shimmers from my eyes I'm saddened to realize I don’t like what I see In my sheer raping loss as the glory has died ***** Protected, I lay down, seeking in the comfort Of that little warm place where only I can go That one special place where silence will hold me Wrapped up in the sorrow that only I can know ***** Do I serve a lost cause in a frail dry season A lighthouse keeper scorched in the desert sun The lost dreamer, deceiver, cast off in treason In thoughts of a redemption that will never come ***** Have you ever gazed behind your own facade To look upon the despair, or life that you can be Do you see a little love and a little bit of hate Like me, tightly embraced, in venomous vitality ~Me, 09-21-2001~ |
| ~Please Make Me Cry~ ***** If I asked you to please make me cry So that I may again know the essence of me I ask you please, please just make me cry To show me that not only rivers run free ***** Will you please just make me cry To see that I may know my soul still thrives Oh please, please, just make me cry So that deep inside, I still know I'm alive ***** Will you please just make me cry So I know that the cycles still will turn Oh please, please, just make me cry To know each and every desire still burns ***** Will you please just make me cry Just so I can know that I may be repentant Oh please, please, just make me cry To again feel alive, to know I am sentient ***** Will you please just make me cry To give me rhyme and reason to question why Oh please, please, just make me cry For deep down inside, I feel that that I die ***** Will you please just make me cry Free the inner turmoil that begs a release Oh please, please just make me cry Comfort in sorrow to at last grant me peace ***** Will you please just make me cry To at last grant freedom, a strangled dove Oh please, please just make me cry As I once again learn that I too, can love ***** Will you please just make me cry And release a heart confined in cold stone Oh please, please just make me cry Give me intentions to not be forever alone ***** Will you please just make me cry I know sometimes these awful things must be Oh please, please just make me cry Grant me my sorrow so my heart may be free ***** Will you please just make me cry Just because sometimes we really must do so Oh please, please just make me cry Free a black discontent that only I can know ***** Will you please just make me cry Just for one moment, grant your attention Oh please, please just make me cry Do you, will you, hear my wanton desperation ***** I ask of you to please make me cry Like everyone else, I need to be loved too Begging you please, please just make me cry For forever I've longed to be able to love you ~Me, 11-29-2001~ |
| ~Deception~ ***** I'll wrap you up so tight in a loving embrace And convince you that it's for which I stand Waiting in darkened silence to seduce you all Falling to my soft caress as I take your hand ***** Still none has ever known the love of another Without ever knowing the eternal curse of me Lost deep in their sunsets of my forged paradise Just a means to an end, my pawns, you'll see ***** How I am your deception, do you know my name The thing that you fear, a heart searing flame Granting, as the light storm blinding your restraint Wonders of satiation for both the sinner and saint ***** Silently he walks along a lonely street of shame As lights of neon empires cast their careless glow Consumed in numbing wonder of just who's to blame Eyes of strangers probing, a sorrow they can't know ***** Still time and again, he can't help but remember That love that dissipates like the smoke of embers Through glimpses of sanity, wishing of tomorrows Should someone sedate his burning cloak of sorrow ***** How I am your deception, do you know my name The thing that you fear, a heart searing flame Granting, as the light storm blinding your restraint Wonders of satiation for both the sinner and saint ***** She was blind, in love, one step from the edge All her dreams were granted from her wishing well That fleeting glimpse of fame, now she cries in shame Remembering their last sunset, alone she will dwell ***** Her cries in awe of their love raped and sold In their shattered remains, her dreams betrayed The essence of two lovers left silent and cold Her salvation deep inside, silenced and decayed ***** How I am your deception, do you know my name The thing that you fear, a heart searing flame Granting, as the light storm blinding your restraint Wonders of satiation for both the sinner and saint ***** They've lost themselves in my hypnotic charm Love lost, consumed in my mesmerizing grace My lies so velvet soft, I've consumed their will Their hearts drift helpless in my dark embrace ***** Supposed, their magic that would last a lifetime Was the thrill of just the chase worth all the pain Does the dream remain as long as there's a dreamer When hope's the knotted rope to drive them insane ***** How I am your deception, do you know my name The thing that you fear, a heart searing flame Granting, as the light storm blinding your restraint Wonders of satiation for both the sinner and saint ***** How I am your deception, do you know my name The thing that you fear, a heart searing flame Granting, as the light storm blinding your restraint Wonders of satiation for both the sinner and saint ~Me, 02-04-2002~ |
| ~Love Part II~ ~The Machine~ ***** Beyond soft smiles, a deception breeds a vicious spawn To train the heart in velvet lies, an unsuspecting pawn Each a well intentioned warrior, forever dying to believe In a wondrous Siren's song, of her love born to deceive Enter Machine ***** Cast adrift in love's diamond sea, how it whispers to me Enticing silken whispers that dare not be conceived Dare resist the calling, for it's cold and cruel inside The discontent in harmony where sweet misery resides In Machine ***** Possessed, I did not choose the tears they chose me A dark and silent thunder whispers of storms behind my eyes Christened in my discontent and forever destined to be A heart and soul refining agony, a vicious inner genocide In Machine ***** Nightmares, there were nights I was crazy for real Feeling marked from the moment the screams opened my eyes Destitute in my darkness, I swear I just couldn't feel Confusion would laugh from the shadows and whisper lies In Machine ***** Was it all you wished, was it your everything Was it worth you soul, was it joy to bring Was it just a dance, was it a first soft kiss Was it just a chance, was it a loss of bliss Machine Is it sacrilege, is it against the law Is it stalking you, is it leaving you in awe Is it wonderful, is it leaving you bruised Is it just a sin, is it just pure abuse Machine Were the lights down low, were the lies true Were the shadows soft, were the places new Were there others there, were you all alone Were you married then, were there soft moans Machine Did it make you cry, did you give your all Did it make you lie, did it break your fall Did it take your hand, did it smack your face Did it make amends, did it cause disgrace Machine ***** Days eclipsed in mortal fear, the raining down of tears Of the victimized and sanitized, the never to return Disarmed in vicious discontent, of dreams once held dear Forever dammed to an eternal road without any turns In Machine ***** I've seen deceptive might turning day to shivered night As pain caresses disgrace in the dark nights embrace The fires of love misconceived cast a bitter sombre light When another broken victim is consumed without a trace In Machine ***** And so I writhe on a bed of nails, slowly losing control Just engaged in the frenzy of a self destructive dream Nightmares in ecstasy under a razor wired crown of thorns Alone in desperate agony in forms just surreal, I scream In Machine ***** Come bare witness to the feeding, the destructive entity The sights that you'll see when you see through my eyes When lost and consumed in the clockwork of its dependency Is there no escape, no end, and do even the Sirens cry From Machine ~Me, 07-20-2002~ |
| ~Dreamscape~ ***** When I close my eyes The canvas of blackness yields Ambience becomes one with thought Where imagination caresses inspiration ***** Experience giving way to the birth of idea As the subconscious creates its realities Synapses fire, shadows are born Where by the mere act of my thoughts alone ***** Worlds collide in destruction and rebirth Thought creates playgrounds out of universes Immersed in the galaxies of my invention As the darkness begins to give up its secrets ***** Of the black abyss that lives and breathes Places take form, creatures, and faces Kingdoms created, conquered, destroyed As battles commence and wars are fought ***** Lovers live and die and begin anew Not by their own wills, but of mine alone As oceans rise and fall at my creation Then are cast in to the infinity of an altered state ***** And then thought is assimilated, sorted, purged Then as I wake, what gives me a joyful sorrow Is that they will never see what I see When I close my eyes ~Me, 09-20-2002~ |
| ~Angel~ ***** The price it seems so high, just to survive another night As cherished dreams become the sinders born of shame The anger flares again, and it's just so hard to comprehend That deep inside my heart there still burns a raging flame I Need An Angel... ***** And while that unseen candle just seems to whither and die When it's always now or never still the words never come With eyes that say nothing but the language of tears As all the things I longed to dream begin to become undone I Need An Angel... ***** As I played the game; seduction, until the living end Where romance reigns supreme in a self destructive dream Salvation farther from my grasp than I could ever know When none had ever come to still those silent screams Until An Angel... ***** In the ice water cathedral that called itself sanity As walls of loneliness secured me in my deceptive decrees Cast upon the entombing throne that was my desperation Forever lost in that indignation that was everything me Until An Angel... ***** Maybe I needed just a little time just to see things clear And as I refrained, you still remained there holding me Mending my bruised and broken wings to take away the fear As I took the chance at a first soft kiss just to finally see You Are My Angel... ***** So now at last I feel the time is right for you to know Of all the things within my heart I choose to gift to you The instances where I refrained, the things I could not show My salvation, take my heart, I love you through and through You Are My Angel... ***** And just when you lay down to sleep and close your eyes Just when you think that you've nothing more to give Slip onto that spirit wind with your broken wings to fly As a light is born to let you know you once again can live I'll Be Your Angel... ***** And when you hear the thunder and think your sky is falling When your sorrow is so deep that you dare not cry aloud Convinced there are no dreams to still the silent screams Dry your crying eyes as sunlight splits the darkened clouds I'll Be Your Angel... ~Me, 12-13-2002~ |
| ~Angel Devoid~ ***** When the heart, it weeps in whispers from a thousand bloody thorns In the bleeding streams of sacrifice and endless nights of scorn And the forces gather against mortal dignation on every side To caress the desperation as the salvation withers down to die ***** The blissful pleasures over and the anger is now enshrined Still, the dreamer and deceiver remain in the heart entwined All that remains are the cliché words and the tears of retreat Entrenched in the immorality of yet another shattering defeat ***** We only cry in private here, behind the silent screams That separates our sanity from the whisperers of dreams We only weep in secret here behind the shattered glass That separates our sanity from whispers of the past Angel Devoid ***** The loyalty whispers are broken and the lies are now defined As that dreamed paradise of lovers is now abandoned far behind The scorched path of bright self-destruction is now what remains And to break the bitter rusted chains of broken hearts restrained ***** We were once that raging flame, we were everything I dreamed Still, hidden behind the scenes, nothing was ever as it seemed A star fell from the sky that night, fire in its wake; destroyed Consumed and cast into the darkness of the angel devoid ***** We only cry in private here, behind the silent screams That separates our sanity from the whisperers of dreams We only weep in secret here behind the shattered glass That separates our sanity from whispers of the past Angel Devoid ***** The deceptions laid and baited for the approaching of the hour As the gateways to deception come from wanton whispered lies And the thunder begins a vicious roar and the sky begins to fall But I've always cherished the driving rain; no one can see you cry ***** When you feel the raging fire beyond the sweet caress of desire Ask yourself what you believe, question everything you do For when that final line is crossed, sweet innocence is lost And be so very careful what you wish for; it just may come true ***** We only cry in private here, behind the silent screams That separates our sanity from the whisperers of dreams We only weep in secret here behind the shattered glass That separates our sanity from whispers of the past Angel Devoid ***** A million justifications why this should not destroy ones soul Yet, the bleeding heart of insanity remains firmly in control The bridges burning bright behind, the horizon in flames ahead Still, in to the scorn and the strife, the love and pain are wed ***** And tomorrow when the love is gone, will we whore its image on For eyes blinded of circumstance that forever refuse to see As the heart it weeps in whispers from a thousand bloody thorns In those bleeding streams of sacrifice and the taste of destiny ***** We only cry in private here, behind the silent screams That separates our sanity from the whisperers of dreams We only weep in secret here behind the shattered glass That separates our sanity from whispers of the past Angel Devoid ~Me, 05-13-2003~ |
| ~Solitude's Crush~ ***** As the endless time just melts away, consuming yet another day The full-length mirror never lies, but you're too numb to care So you sit there all alone, the voices heard are just your own With a blazing stare through what remains of your hearts despair In Solitude’s Crush ***** I know the pain that takes control, the agony that rapes your soul How when you gazed into their eyes and tried to conceal a stare It seems it's destiny by design, the betrayal that your heart refines When you thought that you'd found heaven, but it just wasn't there In Solitude's Crush ***** In a deception beyond measure from a love that you treasured Another soul's assassin, with just another heart to break Dreaming of a defender to take from you, your sweet surrender You pledge to them your life and that's exactly what they take In Solitude's Crush ***** You thought you'd found your home, it turns out you're all alone And even as the seasons change, the endless pain still remains That special smile you thought you knew, wasn't just for you As the colours gift in greens and blues, but darkness never wanes In Solitude's Crush ***** I know you… I have felt you… I have dreamed you… I'm searching for you… I'm fighting for you… Where are you… Who are you… Reach! ***** I have no doubt that you dream about the way things could be Clear images of black and white, and instances of wrong or right Where truth and love is not something that happens somewhere else Still, if not for the darkness, how would we recognize the light In Solitude's Crush ***** These times you think most clearly, beyond the shades of grey In times of hope and healing, far from the dreams that were betrayed Bind your strengths together, remake your heart that shining gem Don't lose yourself in winters cold or you'll end up just like them In Solitude's Crush ***** When you can no longer cry, and at last your heart can say goodbye Breaking strands that hold to spin the webs of a million screams No more those endless dark tomorrows to forever drown your sorrows Hear the whispers of desires just waiting to bathe you in your dreams In Solitude's Crush ***** With a happiness in place of fear, the last cry of a million tears I'd give the sun and moon and stars just to be right there with you Soothing all that brought you there, everything that made you scared And give half my life to you, to make you see one more day through In Solitude's Crush ~Me, 06-20-2003~ |
| ~Ribbons~ ***** These things invented by the minds of men, and so by them; it breathes A soaring stock, or a second hand Uzi, or the proverbial will to deceive Chess pieces to a corporate lord, as we live and die by their accord And punished in the purist sense; are the rebellious seeds of discord ***** And while the conquered, brilliant leaders of our great Western nations Remain felled; numbed into a permanent state of militant intoxication Then whore themselves to corporate contribution at the expense of citizenry Resist the perversion of indoctrination; they'll never own your destiny ***** These thunder strikes of agony are just so much louder here Lightning's fire and bombings illuminate the raining down of tears I've never fathomed such a loneliness until dwelling at its core So black in its utter emptiness, the deafened silence seems to roar Ribbons ***** We'll encourage free thought, so long as it resides within our doctrines And we'll subscribe to the self-expression, and the singular identity So long as your dissidence is kept within our imposed level of hypocrisy Such is the fanaticism of the instituted New World Order of democracy ***** A world in tatters by our hand, as we feign our self-righteous ignorance In our shattered legacy of horrors, of our destiny that lays infernal Our peaceful illusion that can't last forever, at the expense of others We leave this to our vibrant youth, in which a hope will spring eternal ***** These thunder strikes of agony are just so much louder here Lightning's fire and bombings illuminate the raining down of tears I've never fathomed such a loneliness until dwelling at its core So black in its utter emptiness, the deafened silence seems to roar Ribbons ***** A creed of ever last: Ours is not to reason why; ours is but to do or die Yet, some have come to question the reasoning for our violent displacement Against our programmed Western ideology, we ask the taboo questions of why Still, I must conform to my nation's impositions, or be slaughtered as a dissident ***** I thought that within my training and conditioning, I had it all figured out With these instances of warfare, in a world where we; the right, had no doubt So little did I know that there was a realm beyond that which was only mine Where those whom live enslaved in our servitude, of whose lives we define ***** These thunder strikes of agony are just so much louder here Lightning's fire and bombings illuminate the raining down of tears I've never fathomed such a loneliness until dwelling at its core So black in its utter emptiness, the deafened silence seems to roar Ribbons ***** Yet, "our way of life" is the rhetoric that we are so conditioned to live by The hypocrisy, lunacy, the falsity, and democracy that we so readily cry In a world which must readily abide by our instituted ego of conditions With an artificial rising sun, a breath of fire, delivered by our corporate munitions ***** There was a time that I shivered to her whisper, an echoing voice of raging fire Where my raised impressionism was at a lapse, lost in an instance of desire Just an illusion not to last, as the nuclear suns of home came calling in despair Consuming her raven silk of sackcloth hair, where she wore ribbons there ***** These thunder strikes of agony are just so much louder here Lightning's fire and bombings illuminate the raining down of tears I've never fathomed such a loneliness until dwelling at its core So black in its utter emptiness, the deafened silence seems to roar Ribbons ~Me, 06-14-2004~ |
| ~Revolution~ ***** Round and round and round we go, where we stop, nobody knows Yet, nothing ventured, nothing gained, in the grand scheme of things In all that we see, just know that we are history's witness We forget that we reap what we sew in all the horrors that we bring Revolution ***** They prompt me, don't you dare delay, and order yours today And if I don't dial one-eight-hundred; The universe is ending Never mind the childhood labour, for the non-essentials that we savour Have you ever asked yourself; Are such things worth defending Revolution ***** Of the obscene human tragedy that took place; called Columbine In all that what was said, and analyzed, of sanity's construction Never mind the fact that the parents were employed at Lockheed Martin Involved in nothing less than producing weapons of mass destruction Revolution ***** Still another bombing run to go, but we've rehearsed the scenario If only for the reasoning of a more precise and effective killing Do we also have scenarios for our path of imposed self-destruction It shouldn't be a detriment, we've become desensitized to blood spilling Revolution ***** Still, the bolt is strong, and the key is guarding our priorities War is good for business, my gas toy SUV, and my healthy skin glow Pills and magazines, that's all we need, and what we plan on Cover me in greed, for that's all I see, in our Western freak show Revolution ***** Another inquisition, but don't bring your brain, just bring your money For our leaders of disease, blind treasonists, like some kind of hero Bow to corporate lust, and anti-trust, to their fame and fortune Leave moral at the door, trust in forever more, in their mighty zeros Revolution ***** As now comes the day where they choose to lead, and they make you follow You won't need a thing as they'll program you, and provide it always Never mind your thoughts as they'll dictate them and have you swallow Have you walk the line, and think you're fine, subject to their ways Revolution ***** Peace and war; The painted desert that we watch from so comfy far away Raise a toast to share their pain, as we deem the traits of right and wrong Victory is we, the right, as we tabulate the virtues of our ego As the hidden flame that is our shame, sings the virtues in our anthems song Revolution ***** We scream headlong in disgrace, as we lose face, in world opinion Yes, the towers fell, and we witnessed hell, but there were reasons Were we born where they were born, we would believe what they believe Still, mass-manipulation by the state is never out of season Revolution ***** Regardless of our transgressions, we will forever play the victim Just an innocent, loving nation, with another justifiable war to wage Simply because CNN, the most trusted name in news, has enlightened me so And is it no surprise that we're paralysed in our programmed rage Revolution ~Me, 03-27-2004~ |
| ~Infidel~ ***** You claim that I am an infidel, and with some self reflection I've come to understand the reasoning for those accurate perceptions I question my conditioned education, as it seems to re-write history Written in the vane of the victor, and leaving truth a mystery You call me Infidel ***** So now I'll take just a single moment to hear your point of view Of that hatred that you seem to bestow upon me through and through I was born where I was born, and so programmed in what I believe So, I'll attempt to rise above our capitalist lust and our will to deceive You call me Infidel ***** I am the monster terrorist, the ultimate of your detractors While I didn't have a choice, at least you elected your dictators After they addressed you with what they thought you'd like to hear With rhetoric and broken promises, and that manufactured fear I call you Infidel ***** While I see my people live in agony, and an unrelenting fear Because they dared defy their corporate master, in their poverty of tears And as they watched the wealth of their land transferring to yours Why can you not fathom that, as you slaughter us in your duty tours I call you Infidel ***** And yet, you just go on to blindly obey your corporate ministries While patriot democracy is used as an excuse for your atrocities Sometimes I see your broadcast news, and just stare incredulously At the filtering of content; and the network puppets of hypocrisy I call you Infidel ***** Will you please explain to me; this humanitarian intervention While ten-thousand innocents of my land reside in your detentions Are your Nike's so important that you must exploit the world as you do Or the sweat shop Wal-Mart, Cathy Lee line, that looks so good on you I call you Infidel ***** Are you just so blind to see that we have simply witnessed this all before In Laos and Vietnam, Central America, and the supposed Communism lore Where the banking masters support both sides of our every conflict As the corporate money masters value profit over people; those derelicts They are the Infidel ***** May we stand together, united, as the true terrorists are vanquished Those whom live in blissful ecstasy on the backs of human lives Where war is used as an excuse to fill their bottomless lust for envy As their ivory towers glisten in gold and platinum, and debauchery thrives They are the Infidel ***** You claim that I am an infidel, and with some self reflection I've come to understand the reasoning for those accurate perceptions I'll defy my conditioned education, as it seems to re-write history Written in the vane of the victor, and leaving truth a mystery You call me Infidel ***** I've come to understand that terrorism is just a matter of names When I perpetrate it upon you, it's simply called another war game Still, when you then come to my land, and do just the very same You are branded as a monster brandishing your hell searing flame You call me Infidel ~Me, 05-16-2004~ |
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| Hello, welcome, and thank you for visiting with Me. Writing is something that I enjoy more than almost anything. Throughout My life I feel it has been a blessing to Me as well as a curse. I feel that nothing can reflect the inner turmoil as well as the utter beauty of a persons spirit than the words which transcend from ones thoughts onto that blank white page. This page is dedicated solely to My original poetry and lyrics that I have selected from roughly over the last six year period. Many of them, I am sure, you will see as morbid and depressing. And with some of the others, elation and joy. Such is the case with all things that we encounter as we walk through life. Each and every writing you will see here reflects such manifestations of My life as I chose to see it at the time of writing each one. I had thought of having a brief explanation prior to each poem/song, but have decided against it. Most of the writings displayed here were written more for Myself than anyone else. Also, each of us will always see things in a slightly different prespective. That's what makes writing so very special. We each have our own method of understanding and will form our own conclusions regarding each poem/song. I do hope you find enjoyment and inspiration in the writings I have displayed here thus far. I will be adding to, as well as updating this page as more of My writings are completed. I hope you will return back and visit with Me often. - Venomous Vitality |
| ~Soul's Desire~ ***** A voice that echoes through my heart just like silken dreams The sweet desire in her smile coursing through me like a stream With those emerald eyes holding a secret to only make me whole It's not just the spoken words, but the song inside my soul Soul's Desire ***** I watched the sun come up this morning, and as I remembered That there was once a time that I sought shelter from the light Christened in a darkened night; the gift to wrap me up securely Where that endless string of agonies were hidden far from sight Soul's Desire ***** Where I thrived on painted lies, in my disguise, and my delusions And those times I closed my eyes in that abyss of dire conclusions In that vane attempt to escape myself, but there was nowhere to go There was no rainbow's end; empty and endless was the scenario Soul's Desire ***** The shadowed days where I would ask: Is this all there is for me Bathed in that artificial intoxication to escape the surmounting agony Entrenched in empty promises; the essence of endless deceptions Thoughts relentless, playing over and again, of misery's inception Soul's Desire ***** Then slowly as sensations grasped, I made a lover of a friend In our bond of clinging desperation; each others lives we would defend Our sanctuary of we; I came to realize that I was not the only one Who dreaded the ebony curtain of midnight, and to fear a setting sun Soul's Desire ***** In our mighty falls from social grace, or in shared delusion We hold each other as our hero in such a serene and grand illusion Perhaps to each; we are one, in that we offer unconditional love Forgiveness in sin, rhyme in reason, or just daybreak from above Soul's Desire ***** Then all at once the thunder smiles; the rain delivers a kiss Your heart falls away to your desire, bathed in a sunlit bliss The soul alive, you feel it thrive, a sweet seductive kiss of fire When blinded with your destiny; you find your soul's desire Soul's Desire ***** With a voice that echoes through your heart just like silken dreams The sweet desire in a smile coursing through you like a stream With those emerald eyes holding a secret to only make you whole It's not just the spoken words, but the song inside your soul Soul's Desire Your Soul's Desire ~Me, 10-19-2004~ |
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| ~Asylum~ ***** Nations spooned on the nourishment of fear and consumption In cascading terror, we are blinded in our own assumptions Praising reason in madness for the lightshow and thunder As the rights of countless victims are torn; left shattered asunder ***** Tell me; am I insane, or just so severely misguided In all that I see, and all that's just so short sighted Yet, another mental castrate screams the virtues of reason While the thousands die in the name of another killing season ***** Mother, please hold me tight; show me through this eternal night These means of men; of destruction just so planned Mother, I'm just so scared; this tyranny ripe of despair These ends of men, I just can't understand Asylum ***** Sapping what remains of the identity that lies behind my eyes While you sing me my sedation in your patriotic lullabies Appeal to me with reason, not another God sent killing season Or am I completely insane; will you program me with your reason ***** Fascist play within their meeting of minds; just who's to blame Conceived and contracted deep down within their halls of shame There, they remain immune and sanctified; naked celebrations of The war descending; the peace ascending; moneymaking love ***** Mother, please hold me tight; show me through this eternal night These means of men; of destruction just so planned Mother, I'm just so scared; this tyranny ripe of despair These ends of men, I just can't understand Asylum ***** Another artificial congregation; lies to destroy another nation Oh, paradise where have you gone, as we whore your image on Lost in this false naked grace, as we feign our corrupt disgrace This dream we flaunt, is bleeding raw in misery, and gone ***** Bestow upon thee, blind and unconditional patriotic love As we paint our shame; engrave our names in everlasting blood Monitory Mammon, In God we trust, such is this enduring legacy Still, I can't believe, I can't conceive in this debauchery ***** Soul's Desire, hold me tight; show me through this eternal night These means of men; of destruction just so planned Soul's Desire, I'm just so scared; this tyranny ripe of despair These ends of men, I just can't understand Asylum ***** Armed with a Bible and Coran, we move to take another stand Meditate the hate; we are cast into the abyss of another illusion Take your side: The Hezbollah, Jihad, or the Imperialistic dream Mujahadine, The Gentile Right; our world splits at the seams ***** I'll sacrifice my heart for free, to satiate the vengeance in we Embracing a nightmare's sanctuary, allegiances that never vary Charisma in a leaders charm, the deep decline and race to arms Deceptive doctrines, impassioned pleas; stop the clockwork killing me ***** Mother, please hold me tight; show me through this eternal night These means of men; of destruction just so planned Mother, I'm just so scared; this tyranny ripe of despair These ends of men, I just can't understand Asylum ***** Soul's Desire, hold me tight; show me through this eternal night These means of men; of destruction just so planned Soul's Desire, I'm just so scared; this tyranny ripe of despair These ends of men, I just can't understand Asylum ~Me, 12-05-2004~ |