| Living for Myself, Sleep |
| Living for Myself (Written for my own self impowerment) Feeling lost and lonely. Feeling sad and blue. Feel as though I'm falling, into a hell that is not new. I feel so lost and empty, just a shell of who I am. Afraid to losing all I have, but not sure I give a damn. Can't keep going the way I am. Can't keep living in the lie. I feel such a flood of emotions, can barely contain it all inside. Something has to change soon. Something has to give. I need to find some answers for my soul to continue to live. I have to find my peace now. Need to live and love, to be free. Stop surrounding myself with obligation, and learn to start living for me. |
| Sleep (Not sure why I wrote this but, it's about Cheri) Sleeping off the sound of your voice and the sound of my tears, my dreams only turn to you. Thinking of all of our moments over the last few years. Dreaming of the smell of your hair as it brushes against my body while we sleep. Waiting, in anticipation of the soft of your lips against mine. You bring me to who I am. My thoughts show across my face while you are here. Hard for me to neither hide them, nor do I want to. Read me, tell me your thoughts. All you could ever want to know, you will see through my eyes. Do you see? Can you find it? Through this blue, do you see my love? Through this blue, do you see my soul? Through this blue, do you see my heart? Through this blue, do you see me? Do you see what I want? Do you see how I will go about it? Do you see how I need you? Do you see the pain I am in because of you? Sleeping so that my memories and thoughts of you can be enhanced. Sleeping so that I may live the past hours of my life again and again. Sleeping so that the touch of your hands, the softness of your lips is real again. Sleeping so that I don't realize you're really gone. Sleeping so that my tears don't flow out of my eyes. Through this trance of sleep, I see you clearly, I feel you softly. I can hear your love; I can see your eyes....bringing forth what we both fear but unable to sleak about...until now. Sleeping so that my hopes and dreams are my real life, not my hopes and dreams. Sleeping so that everything is real again. Sleeping to relive life over and over. You bring me to my knees. You bring me to my understanding. You bring me to your lessions. You bring me to my pain. You bring me to my happiness. you bring me to my ecstasy. You bring me to my fears. Showing me your strength over and over again. Showing me your knowledge, showing me you understand. You're kind and compassionate heart. The distance of time and miles are between us. Yet I plan to fill those gaps soon. When the Goddess gives me my go head. When the Goddess gives me my strength back after surrendering to you. When everything comes together again. Turning back to my dreams, There you both are. |