(Written for myself)
No one to run to.
Nowhere to turn.
It's hard to escape,
When your bridges have burned.
I feel so unwanted,
How did I end up alone?
I hear my heart echo,
In this emply place I call home.
Can't seem to escape it.
Can't get a moments peace.
All day I relive it,
My dreams it has fleeced.
I feel the pain mounting,
It's been building for years.
It's hard to stay focused,
Constantly fighting back tears.
I cannot think clearly,
Too many thoughts, too confused.
How do you break the cycle,
When it's your heart you've abused?
(I wrote this after I saw my ex for the first time since we had seperated)
Love on a dangerous road
Taking in a deep breath
Struggling hard to not corrode
Fighting with all my might
Throwing my mind into safety mode
Walking up to you
Pulling you into my tight hold
My intentions to never let you go
Showing that I know how to be bold
(Of course, this is written for an ex)
Lost in commotion, a whirl of confusion covers my head in a never-ending battle with the sea of fate. Every moment of the day I drown in my thoughts for you and the love that you had shown me in the past. Wondering along side of fate waiting for its current to pick me up and carry me along to my destiny. My thoughts are lost with you and your never-ending battles.
Daydreaming of a life I may not ever have and a life which seem so far reached. I turn to pick of the pieces of my past and start to allow the memories of you and I together to overwhelm my heart and mind. Longing to have everything back the way it was and wishing that your precious words would one-day change so that my fate and destiny change. Hoping for this one last change. Hoping for a better understanding.
Wishing each day of my life, to have you next to me as I drift into the land of dreams and there when I awake yet again to the bright blazing sun that reminds me that I am still alive and my dreams are just that....dreams and nothing more.
Praying for fate to catch me and lead me down my path. Longing for the closeness you had once given me and your rough hard worked hands as they move from the soft of my check through my hair softly pushing it away from my face. The need to feel you slowly moving closer to me to lean in for a kiss and yet another chance for you to seal my heart.