Sometimes, when I feel that words are coming to me quickly and I HAVE to write all of them down, I go to my computer sit down and just start typing. Sometimes, at the end of one of those sessions with my computer I've got a great poem, that means something, that's understandable. Sometimes, I just have mumbo jumbo.
These are half-assed mumbo jumbo, half-assed that mean something. So, I decided to share them.
I hope that they make sense to you!
One is just simply called Scattered Thoughts because that's what it is. The other is not named. Enjoy :)
Doing things wrong in my life has been somewhat of a routine. I seem to gather and attract the things that are the hardest things in the world to handle. To gather more and more confusion and less and less understanding has been my life.
You have brought this confusion to me yet again. And yet again, you have taken my heart and stomach and turned them into knots. Bringing tears to my eyes as I think about nights like this before when I had the chance to be in your arms. To listen to the soft stillness of your voice while you whipped my tears and pushed my hair back from my face.
I miss the love that you once gave me. The deep understanding you have of me and the world that I live in. Where are you now? I need you by my side to hold me yet again. To walk me through this anger and hurt that only you can give me, that only you can cure.
Will you come to me? If I get on my knees and beg for your return will you appear at my door? Can I have you in my arms again to have and hold "till death do us part"?
Seeping into this world around me, not allowing things to affect my thoughts I can't help but to wonder. Wonder if there is more to this life than this black hole, this room of quietness that I sit in. I lay down each night on the cold of the room and think. Think about how things have been, where they are now and where they are to go. My whole future ahead of me, not wanting to take a step forward.
I can't move, I can't breathe, and I can't feel you anymore. Touch me, hold me, love me. What have I done? Where has my life gone? Young in my body, old in my mind and heart. Bleeding to feel the truth, the thing that was once there before but what is that? What was it that I felt?
Come to me; tell me to end it all. Come to me; tell me that you love me no longer. Bring me to understand why. I hate you. I hate what you've done and I hate you!
Show me your feelings; show me your thoughts. What do your words mean? Do you really mean them? Speak your mind; follow your heart. Go where this road leads you.
Breathe, allow yourself to breathe. See this through. Follow this until the end.