In Loving Memory of Julian Sinclair

IN LOVING MEMORY OF
JULIAN SINCLAIR
9/24/83 - 4/12/96

This angel touched your hearts
For only just a while
To teach you what it means to love
And show you how to smile

He could not stay for long
For God soon would call him home
But he left behind these memories
To carry with you when you roam

He taught you though his courage
And the strength it took to live
And to see his eyes and smile
Oh, what you wouldn't give

Now your tears of sorrow fall
But through each tear there is a light
For this end is not goodbye
Its only time till you'll unite

For one day the skies will open
And God's hands, they will unfold
And your precious baby will await
For your arms to hold

So till then, hold on
Keep his "legend" in your hearts
And know the journey isn't done
It's only just the start...
~ Author unknown

These are two beautiful and loving gifts for Angel Julian from my dear friend, Carol, mom to Angel Michael.

If Tears Could Build A Stairway

If tears could build a stairway
And memories could build a lane
We would walk right up to Heaven
And bring you back again

No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why

Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know

But know we know you want us
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store

Since you'll never be forgotten
We pledge to you today
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you'll always stay
~ Author unknown

Mom Please Don't Mourn For Me

Mom, Please don't mourn for me
I'm still here, though you don't see.
I'm right by your side each night and day
and within your heart I long to stay.

My body is gone but I'm always near.
I'm everything you feel, see or hear.
My spirit is free, but I'll never depart
As long as you keep me alive in your heart.

I'll never wander our of your sight-
I'm the brightest star on a summer night
I'll never be beyond your reach.
I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach.

I'm the colorful leaves when fall comes around
and the pure white snow that blankets the ground.
I'm the beautiful flowers of which you're so fond.
The clear cool water in a quiet pond.

I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in the spring,
The first warm raindrop that April will bring.
I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine,
and you'll see that face in the moon is mine.

When you start thinking there's no one to love you,
you can talk to me through the Lord above you.
I'll whisper my anwser through the leaves on the trees
and you'll feel my presence in the summer breeze.

I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep
and the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep.
I'm the smile you see on a baby's face,
Just look for me MOM, I"m everyplace!
~ Author unknown

WE DO NOT NEED A SPECIAL DAY

We do not need a special day
To bring you to our minds.
The days we do not think of you
Are very hard to find.

Each morning when we awake,
We know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heart ache
As we try to carry on.

Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know.

Our thoughts are always with you,
Your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly;
In death we love you still.

There will always be a heartache,
And often a silent tear.
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here.

If tears could make a staircase,
And heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you home again.

We hold you close within our hearts;
And there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again.

Our family chain is broken now,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.
~ Written by Connie Dyer, BP/USA, Springfield, IL

I Am Not Gone

I Am Not Gone
by Terri McPherson
Windsor, Ontario, Canada

I am not gone, I am changed.
Have faith and please believe me.
God did not take me away from you,
He split the skies and received me.

Now...

I'm an echo in your laughter,
a reflection in your tears,
an extra thread of strength
to help you overcome your fears.

I'm an added ray of sunshine,
more joy for you to share,
a fragrance of the life you live.
Wherever you are - I am there.

LIGHT A CANDLE

And I will light a candle for you
to shadow all the darkness and bless the times we knew
Like a beacon in the night the flame will burn bright
and guide us on our way
Oh today I light a candle for you.

Seasons come and go and I'm weary from the change
Keep on moving on -- you know it's not the same
And when I'm walking all alone
Do you hear me call your name?
Do you hear me sing the songs we used to sing?

And I will light a candle for you...

You filled my life with wonder -- touched me with surprise
Always saw that something special deep within your eyes
And through the good times and the bad
We carried on with pride
I hold on to the love and life we knew

And I will light a candle for you...
Oh today I light a candle for you.

Below are some pictures from Julian's 18th birthday ~

At home

At the cemetary

The butterfly mobile that his parents got for Julian's birthday.

And below are some pictures from Julian's 21st birthday ~

At the cemetary.

We see Julian in rainbows now.

FRIENDS IN GRIEF

Friends in grief is what we are,
We are so many, we stretch near and far,
But all here have a common thread...
"Your child must come home," God said.

We all know the anger and the pain,
The loneliness and grief we must sustain.
We live daily with this shattered heart,
Broken, bleeding and torn apart.

We send each other words of love,
Encouraging quotes from God above.
What we need is some measure of relief,
What we are is "Friends in Grief."

We help each other, we cry, we share,
We let each other know we care.
We try to offer a bit of relief,
For what we are is "Friends in Grief.

copyright 1998 Jo Ann Boykin ~ Dedicated to Sabina from her good friends, Rosemary and Maria.

With love for Julian
Ann, Laurasmom

"For Julian - You were so very young, and not quite ready to go
But God had other plans for you, which we were not to know
You passed this way just for awhile, and brought with you an angel's smile
Now you wait for that sweet day, when all your loved ones come your way
With Love to you Julian
Happy Birthday Sweet Angel"
Ann, Laurasmom

"Julian - An Angel of Great Courage
Smiling on your way to Heaven
What a Brave Soldier of God you are."
With My Love
Ann, Laurasmom

A small gift for Angel Julian's family on his Angelversary. May God bless and comfort you always.

A small birthday gift for the Sinclair family. May God bless and comfort you on the loss of your precious Angel Julian.
GEOFFREY P. EDWARDS

Dearest Julian

Reading through your site, it was almost like reading about my ANGEL Lee, although older than you, it really took me back.

Lets start with Pooh and Friends, one of his favorites. Then it was cartoon figures, comic books, especially with Spiderman, Batman and the Hulk in them. I had to buy him shirts with all of them on it, then he use to play the Hulk ripping the shirts of, "not the new ones of course" Super Hero figures, his favorite was Spiderman, Transformers, he too collected comic books, still in brand new condition. Music, loved all different kinds. Then there comes the computer, a wiz at everything. Drawing he started very young, and became professional at art/drawing/poetry.

So you see honey, so much alike, if you see him ask him to draw anything for you, he would be happy to, like you too he was smart, a thinker and very funny.

Well it has really been nice talking to you Julian, say hi to my Lee for me.

MY LOVE TO YOU ANGEL JULIAN
Sue-Anne~~~Lee'sMom

Dearest Sabina and ANGEL Julian

Your ANGEL is with you Sabina
He hasn't left you for ever
He is just away for a while
Look up at those stars above
One of them is Julian's
It is his window to Heaven
He see's his loving Mom
He smiles and waves at you
Open your heart Sabina
You will feel him
He is also waiting for you
At those GOLDEN GATES
PLEASE HAVE FAITH

Written By Sue-Anne Aguilera~~~Lee'sMom
MY DEEPEST LOVE TO YOU SABINA