Austyn James Dudley
August 29, 2004 - September 6, 2004
The pure love I felt after you arrived was truly the greatest gift I had ever experienced and I shall always hold on to that special feeling, my little sweet Austyn James. For you have made me a better person and even though I miss you more than words could ever say, I just know you are in a better place and yes, we shall meet again sometime soon.
I love you my angel and shall write to you again soon
Love, your mommy forever
It is so hard to believe another year has past, I miss you so very much. I close my eyes and try to imagine what you look like at 5 years old.
I know you are in heaven and looking in on me from time to time...There are so many things I am doing to get my life in order..I want to not do anything and just sit here and bury myself in misery at missing you..I wanted to not do a thing
but that is not the way you would want it.
I have gotten to the point where I am back to missing you badly. I know we will again meet, Austyn. I will always and forever be your mommy..I believe you
were sent here to me to change my ways in a way and to show me pure love ..
I have never felt a kind of love you showed me, Austyn. Now I know what
it is meant by there is no love like a parent has for their children.
I know you now run and have fun you are not hooked up to all those machines and you are set free..
You were such a brave little boy, Austyn, and so very strong to the end..I want you to know I am so very proud of you my angel boy, Austyn..There is nothing more I would like than to know you are happy, and I know you are I can feel you in my soul..
For I am so very glad you were sent to me Austyn I would not change having you for the world, it was truly a gift.. I love you, my son. I have to go for now, but please know you are forever in my heart and in my soul!
Love, your mommy forever,
Candi
happy 5th birthday in heaven Austyn. i miss u so very much. I have your brother and sister here with us now, i know that u were watching them the day everything came up. i miss u Austyn. I just wish u did not have to go. I want to see u so bad and be able to hold u again. I hope u are being have for ever one there in heaven. i wonder what u look like. just remember i love u Austyn and i miss u so very very much
love, your daddy, frank
I LOVE U AUSTYN JAMES DUDLEY
They say love is blind and you made this true.
I never got to place you in a outfit either pink or blue.
Never rocked you in my arms as you quietly slept.
Not one tear did I get to dry as you sadly wept.
I loved you none the less with all of my heart.
My world crashing down when we were torn apart.
I dream of you wrapped in a blanket of a white angel wing.
The lullaby you hear is the comfort I wanted to bring.
I still hold you everyday the only way I know how.
God doesn't take my love for you this much he does allow.
It is as stong as it would have been if I would have seen you.
After my journey in life is done I will carry my love through.
It will carry me straight to you, you will never be hard to find.
We will be together and I will hold the love that was blind.
Looking into eyes that are mine that show a soul I made.
I will place you upon my chest where you always should have laid.
They say love is blind and you made this come true.
I will place you in an outfit either pink or blue.
I will rock you in my arms as you quietly sleep.
I will dry your tears as you happily weep.
by Micheline Dudley
I am a teen and very loud who loves to listen to music and read
I wonder about my little brother who's birthday was yesterday
I hear my mom and dad cry about austyn death
I see my little brother in my room
I want to see Austyn's face
I am a teen and very loud who loves to listen to music and read
I pretend Austyn is near
I feal sad becouse my little brother is dead
I touch my brother grave stone
I worry about my mom and dad
I cry myself to sleep when i think about Austyn
I am a teenage girl and very loud who loves to listen to music and read
I understand my dad's pain he lost a kid
I lost my nana
I dream about Austyn
I try not to worry about Austyn's death
I try not to cry about Austyn's death
I hope my mom and dad do not split up
I am a teen and very loud who loves to read and listen to music
to hold you, so we will make sure to include those pictures as well.
the streets were strewn with beautiful flowers of every kind imaginable
Angels were talking in excited tones and laughter rang from all around!
Halos were polished to a gleam, Wings were wide and full,
Each angel carried a candle that was lit!
They lined up in rows two by two, it was going to be a wonderful celebration.
Every one was ready the parade was about to begin!
An Angel who was in line and ready to go, glanced over to the park,
And saw a the tinniest angel sitting alone,
his halo was not polished and wings were not unfurled!
And his candle was by his side unlit.
Tears were coursing down his tiny face!
The Angel walked to this tiny little angel and spoke to him:
Why are you not joining in the parade,
the little one looked up at the other Angel, and spoke:
I would dearly love to join in the celebration,
but each time I get my halo just right and my wings spread out
and my candle lit!
My mommy and daddy's tears put out the flame,
because they miss me so very much.
The other angel understood the tiny one all to well,
he gathered the tiny one in his arms and picked up his halo and candle
put each of them in their proper place!
and he told the tiny angel it will be OK
For today is going to be a celebration of love and welcome,
and I want you to say a prayer for your mommy and daddy.
And because today is a special day
I know they will hear your prayer
and find comfort in knowing that you are gone from their arms,
but never their hearts.
The tiny angel began to pray
Dear Mommy and Daddy, I am thinking of you today,
and I miss you very much,
we are having a wonderful celebration today!
And I would like very much to join in.
But every time I lite my candle your tears put out the flame
and I cannot join in with all the others today,
knowing how sad you are without me,
but weep no more mommy and daddy
I am no longer in pain,
and I am here with so many who will look after me
until you are here to do it
I miss you so very much!
And even though you cannot see me or touch me or feel me,
I am with you forever in your hearts!
so weep no more and know we will be together again
and what a celebration that will be
~ Author unknown
Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free.
I'm following the path God laid for me.
I took God's hand when I heard the call;
I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day to laugh,
to love, to work or play.
Tasks left undone must stay that way.
I found that place at the close of day.
If my parting has left a void,
then fill it with remembered joy.
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss.
Ah yes, these things, I too, will miss.
Be not burdened with times of sorrow,
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.
My life's been full, I savored much,
good friends, good times, a loved one's touch
Perhaps my time seemed all to brief;
don't lengthen it now with undue grief.
Lift up your heart and share with me -
God wanted me now, God set me free.
~ Author Unknown
And watched a scene of Angels playing their guitars
It's for you and me and anyone who needs to know
There is a Heaven, a better place not far away...to go
~ Author unknown
We do not need a special day
To bring you to our minds
The days we do not think of you
Are very hard to find
Each morning when we awake
We know that you are gone
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on
Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know
Our thoughts are always with you
Your place no one can fill
In life we loved you dearly
In death we love you still
There will always be a heartache
And often a silent tear
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here
If tears could build a staircase
And heartaches make a lane
We'd walk the path to Heaven
And bring you home again
We hold you close, within our hearts
And there you will remain
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again
Our family chain is broken now
And nothing seems the same
But as God calls us one by one
The chain will link again.
Written by Connie Dyer
From the moment of our birth
We know not the roads we'll travel
While walking upon this earth.
The Tears we'll cry the pain we'll bear
is kept unknown to us
we wake each day to face the world
living in faith and trust
Our shattered dreams, our adversities.
things beyond our own control
can wear us down form day to day
The worries can take their toll
If we are given just one chance
to see what our future holds
would it weaken us beyond belief
or make us strong and bold?
But which among us could deny
if we knew what lies in store
that we would be willing to accept
and to ask for one more day.
Poem written by BTatum263@aol.com
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