Kawaiikunee by Ebony Rose ----------<------------@

Kawaikunee.....
I hate that name. But not because of what it means......it's because He says it. Every time he says it I feel so unfeminine, so worthless....so ugly..........
The whole issue makes me so mad! Before he came, almost every boy I met called me beautiful. All of the boys school would meet me in the morning to get their butts kick just so that I could touch them. Before he came, I was like the town's heroine: Strong, beautiful, and pure. A talented beauty who had to fight off all of her suitors and pine for an unatainable man. But that reign soon came to an end. And we he came, he brought girls who were ten times as strong and just as beautiful with him. But that doesn't bother me as much as it should. The only thing that really bothers me is that out of all of the boys I know, that jerk had to be the one I fall in love with.
Sad isn't it?
The one boy that hates me, the one boy that thinks I'm ugly, the one boy who thinks I'm worthless....is the one I'm in love with. And it hurts so much. Much more than a kick, puch, or slap ever could. And I think he's knows. Why else would he not hit me?He's a martial artist! He can easily block anything I throw at him So he has to know! I asked him this a thousand times and he gives me the same bull: I don't hit girls. He doesn't hit girls?!Ha! If he doesn't hit girls, why did he fight Shampoo? Or Ukyou? Or Kodachi? So he has to know! He has to know that his words hurt me! He has to know that I love him! So why is he making me suffer like this? Do I really have to suffer like this? Do I really have to see Shampoo throw herself all over him knowing that I could never compete with her? Do I have to see him talk to Ukyou knowing that he likes her cooking? Do I have to see Kodachi wrap herself around him knowing I could never do that? Why does this always happen to me? Why do ever time I fall in love with someone they're already in love with someone else? Why do I have to suffer hateful looks from the girls and degrading looks from the boys? I know I'm not perfect, and I know I'm not a saint. I know I'm not as beautiful as Shampoo, or good as cook as Ukyou, or be as rich as Kodachi. But I'm not the ugly, I am trying to learn how to cook, and I much rather have my sanity than be rich! I can be nice if someone lets me! I'm not a cruel, violent person! The only person I ever really fought with was him, and that's only because he insults me! So why can't he see that? Why can't he realize I'm not such a bad person? Maybe....maybe because it isn't true. Maybe he just hates me........
But if he hates me, why does he save me all the time? Why does he fights for me? Why does he try to cheer me up? Or care what I think...... Or......look at me that way? Why does it hurt so bad? I just can't stand this anymore! I just wish he'll reject me so I can greive and get on with my life!But........I couldn't bare that. If he left.....I won't be able to go on.....Damn him! Damn him to hell!!! If he left me I'll be wounded......and this wound will never heal because it's deep in my heart. Only Kami-sama can comfort me know.....

" Akane? "
I lift my head to see Oneechan staring at me. She has a worry look in her eyes. Good ol' Ne-chan. Always looking out for me. " Yes? " I ask.
" Are you okay? " I nod. " I'm fine Oneechan, thanks for asking!" She smiles but the worry look never leaves.

"Could you please wake up Ranma for me? " I muster up my best smile.
" Sure. "
As I walk up to his room, I wonder how ever got into this mess. Two years ago I was your average fifteen year old jr. high student who giggled about boys and clothes with friends. Now I'm seventeen year old high school student who doesn't even see her friends anymore and is pawning for a guy that hates her. Where did I go wrong?
Opening the door, I sigh as I watch him lay on his futon. I might as well enjoy the view while I still can. "
Uhhhh.....kane......ov......ou. " I blink as I noticed him talking in his sleep. He hardly ever does that. I should know, I've watch him sleep at times. I step closer to his bed to listen to what he's saying. "Uhhh.......on't........eav.......me....." I frown. I can't hear him! Bending closer my eyes widened as I listen to what he's saying. " A-akane.......please....don't leave me......I-I love you.....please don't leave....Do you love me? " I rile back in shock. No....this is just a joke......he doesn't love me......just a cruel joke.
" AKANE! NO! " he screams as he shoots up in his futon. He's breathing heavily and sweat pour down his face. I blink when I notice he's crying. He covers his face and starts to sob.
" A-akane....no....."
" Ranma? " I ask. I just can't bare to see him cry. He freezes and slowly turns to me.
" A-akane? "
I turn away. " Kasumi asked me to wake you up......I'll be going now."
" Akane! Wait! " he said as he grabs my arm. I blink and stare at him confused.

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She stares down at me confused. I gulp. Why did I stop her? It's obvious she doesn't want to be around me. i should just let her go.......but that dr-......nightmare......I can't let that happen.......I can't lose Akane....but what if?......What if I've already lost her?.....But I have to know... I have to know if she loves me...........or not........ " A-akane? " She blinks at me. I swallow and muster all of the courage I can. " I-I love you. "

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I freeze. D-did he just say he loved me? Did Ranma really just say that he love me? He......loves... My heart falls when relization dawns. That bastard......how could he? How could he toy with my feelings like that? How could he? HOW COULD HE?

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*SMACK* My head rocks from the blow. My ears ring and my heart falls. She doesn't love me.....she hates me.....she never loved me..... " How could you? " she hisses. My head shoots up. How could I? How could *I*? I'm the one who put my heart out!I'm the one who got slapped! What the hell is *she* talkin' about?
" What hell do you mean? " I say in a half whisper, half hiss. She looks at me with eyes full of hatred and....hurt?
" You know damn well today's April Fool's day! " she screams as she wrenches her arm loose from my grip. " How could you? How could you be so cruel? I know I'm not the best person in the world but I know i don't deserve this!!!!" she screams as she runs out of my room cryin'. I here her door slam and her muffled sobs. Oh my god.....I forgot.......I forgot today was April Fool's day! She must thought...oh god!
" AKANE! " I scream as I rush to her room. I don't bother knocking,Ii know that right now she won't bother letting me in.

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Raising my head from my pillow I scowl as I see him bust in my room. How can he be so cruel? How could he run after me just to see my tears? Gathering all my nager, I outstretch my hand and my mallet forms.
" RAAAAAANNNNNNNMMMMMA AAAAAAA NNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOO BBBBBBBBBBAAAAAAAAAAA-"

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I see the mallet coming towards me. No. Not now. I don't need this now. I have to tell her the truth. I have to tell her how I feel. Sidestepping her blow, I grab her arm and yank the mallet for her hands. " Ka? " she says as she falls foward. I gently pull her arm back so that she falls in my arms. She looks up at me with a mixture of hatred, hurt , and fear. She than struggles and tries her hardest to get out of my arms.
" Akane, stop it. " I softly say. She stops and stares up me. I take a deep breath. I have to tell her this.
" Akane," I say, " please listen to me. When I told you I love you I met it. It wasn't an April Fool's joke, I really love you. I'll never hurt you like that....you mean too much to me...."
She freezes in my arms and looks at me with her wide, beautiful eyes.

" W-what? " I lean close to her face. " I love you, you kawaiikunee tomboy. " and as I say this, I did what I wanted to do to her for so long. I kissed her.

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".........you kawaiikunee tomboy. " And as he said these words, my heart didn't go despair like it usually did. I didn't feel worthless, or ugly, or unfeminine. And you know why? Because, the look in his eyes, and the lips on mine, says anything but.....

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Kua: *wipes tears from her eyes* Ebony: O_o Umm....oookay.....Anywho, how did ya like it? It's my second oneshot so don't hesistate to flame me! You can e-mail me at: ebonyrosepetals@hotmail.com I'll love to here from ya! ~*~ Ebony Rose ~*~