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		Breath of Heaven






	Breath of Heaven Genre: Drama/Sad Rated: G 7-24-00(I know it was early) Summery: A christmas story on Voyager. Janeway and Chakotay are married but Chakotay has passed away leaving Janeway alone and pregnant. Janeway is in her quarters. She used to share with her husband. Memories are coming back as she looks around the room. Chakotay is everywhere she only wishes he survived that shuttle craft. "Chakotay, what am I going to do without you? I need you to be with me." A chime pulls Janeway back to reality. She lets the person inside after she dries away her tears that have fallen. She comes through the door dressed in her starfleet uniform, it's B'Elanna. "I wanted to see how you were doing you left Chakotay's memorial sevice is such a rush." Janeway runs into B'Elanna's arms and cries. B'Elanna places a hand on her back and comforts her captain. "Oh B'Elanna I don't know what to do. How can I go on without Chakotay. He is my life I miss he so very much." "You will, you have before. Now come on over and sit down. We can talk about it maybe it will make you feel a whole lot better." Janeway nods and both walk over the her couch. The next day Janeway and B'Elanna are in Engineering they are working on improvements to the warp core. Janeway suddenly becomes dizzy and sways before she braces herself against the bar surrounding the warp core. B'Elanna sees her sway and runs up to catch her before she falls. B'Elanna takes Janeway's arm and catches her before she faints. "Captain, are you alright?" Janeway looks up into B'Elanna's eyes. "I feel very faint." Her eyes roll back and she falls back into B'Elanna's arms. She eases the captain down to the floor of Engineering and taps her comm badge. "Torres to sickbay, Medical Emergency, two to transport directly there." "Aye Lieutenant, we will be waiting for you." Blue lights appear and a flash they disappear. Within seconds they are both on Sickbay's floor with the doctor hovering over the both of them. "Let's get her to a diagnostic bed." The Doctor takes Janeway into his arms and places her on a nearby diagnostic bed. She is very pale and looks exhausted. "Lieutenant, what happened to the captain?" "I don't know, one minute she was fine and speaking to me. The next minute she called me over to her and said she felt faint. The last thing I saw was her falling into my arms." The docor takes out his medical tricorder and runs it over Captain Janeway. "Hmmm, has she been complaining about being ill lieutenant?" B'Elanna for a moment recovers her memories over the last few days. "I was with her all night she was upset and she was crying a lot. That was surprising since she rarely cries infront of her crew members other than Chakotay. She said she really wanted to have someone to talk to make her calm down a little. We didn't sleep all night we instead talked about Chakotay. But she never mentioned she was ill in anyway. Why?" "She's pregnant B'Elanna, about six weeks, I don't think she knew because she has had so much trouble with her cycles over the last few years I have been treating her. Her ovaries don't release an egg or they rarely do. She comes into sickbay two weeks before she is due for her next cycle last time she thought she was ovulating. She is also over exhausted and with Chakotay gone now she could be indangeing herself and the baby she is carriying. She is bound to have bought of depression." B'Elanna is surprised to hear that Janeway is having a baby. SHe new that if there were two people who were always careful they were them. "What are we going to do? When she hears she's pregnant she is going to become depressed and that's not good for the baby either." B'Elanna places her hand on Janeway's shoulder. "She will need all the help she can get. Who is going to be there for her at this fragile time Doctor?" "I don't know all I know is that if Chakotay were alive he'd be here for her." "Maybe she'll be just fine." "Let's hope so." "I'd better get back to Engineering. Let me know doctor if anything happens. Oh and I would like to be here when she wakes up can I stay in sickbay tonight?" "Yes, I set up a bed for you." "Thank you Doctor." Several hours later B'Elanna is in sickbay again laying on the bed the doctor has set up for her. It is right next to the bed where the captain is laying in a sickbay gown. She hears a groan from Janeway. B'Elanna jumps off her bed and moves over to Janeway and places her hand on Janeway's hand across her abdomen. "Doctor! She's coming too." The doctor approaches the bed and as he gets there Janeway opens her eyes. "Oh, hello Doctor, what happend why and I in Sickbay?" B'Elanna leans over to Janeway. "You got dizzy in Engineering and told me you felt faint next thing I know you fainted in my arms." "B'Elanna brought you here." Janeway attempts to sit up but the doctor pushes her back down. "Just rest, you've been here for eleven hours." "Eleven hours? I have to get back to the bridge." "Not know and not for at least a few days." She attempts to to get up again but this time is pushed down by B'Elanna. "Oh, no Captain, you have heard the doctor besides I think Tuvok can handle the bridge for now he is a vulcan what could he do?" "Alright, Doctor why did I faint? Before I felt dizzy I was great hadn't felt better in days." Doctor looks up at Torres who has her hand on Janeway's which is lying across her stomach. "Captain, your expecting a baby." Janeway os shocked at first but soon she gasps and breaks into tears. She rolls over onto her side. B'Elanna hand falls from Janeway and she remains sobbing. "ARe you sure Doctor, I mean we were up on our boosters." Janeway remains to say as she gasps between gasps. "Very sure, your test came back possitive. The baby is due on Christmas Day." "How far along am I exactly Doctor?" "Six weeks." "What am I going to do?" SEven months later Janeway asked B'Elanna to come see her. Outside a few boughts of depression Janeway has been doing surprisingly well. She still has morning sickness but welcomes it with open arms. A chime comes at the door. Janeway is in her pajama's, her quarters are decorated for Christmas already. "Come B'Elanna." The doors hiss open B'Elanna is also in her pajama's. "You wanted me to join you for the evening." "Yes, B'Elanna, please come in and Merry Christmas." "NOt quite Christmas yet Captain. But same to you too." Soon B'Elanna is inside and both sit on the couch. "You don't mind talking to me again do you 'Lanna?" "No, actually I enjoy your company. With Tom on night duty now I kind of miss talking to him in the wee hours of the morning." "I want to ask you somethin, something very important." "I kind of thought that's what you wanted. Otherwise you wouldn't have asked me to come here in my pj's again. You should see the people stare as I walked down the corridors in pj's and bare feet not that I am complaining or anything. It's nice not wearing our boots and uniforms once and a while." Janeway streches out her left leg on the couch, and shifts position. "I need to have a person with me while I'm having the baby. Chakotay would be there for me but...he died. I wanted I need someone to be my coach during Lamaz and to help me out." "Captain are you asking me to be there for you during the birth?" "Well yes, I mean if you don't mind It could be very educational." "No, I don't mind that is fine. And I'd be honored to be your partner. Maybe someday whey Tom and I have our first child you can be there for me, Tom may not make it." But I must ask a personal request...PleaseI beg you do not break my hand I will need it in Engineering." Janeway and B'Elanna laught in sinc. "ARe you by any chance sickened easily?" "Captain, I am part Klingon, Klingon's don't get sickened." "I should have know. I want you to be the first person, well besides the Doctor and Nurse, to hold the baby. I want you to brind Chakotay's son or daughter to me. And tell me the sex." "As long as you don't break my hand, If you don, I won't be able to hold it. Oh, and one more thing... I will not cut the umbilical cord that is an honor only the father can hold, oh sorry." "Not that is fine you are right, besides the doctor can do that." "Than it is a deal." Yes, of course, now I want you to help me pick out the names we still haven't agreed on the perfect on yet. You and Tom will be the Godparent's so I only bid that would be a good gesture. Wouldn't you agree?" B'Elanna nods. "Yes, fine now I want to be with you from the moment labor begins. I want to be there for every second of this baby's journey to you. Just like Chakotay would have been. I feel it is only right if he has the closest person there for his wife during the birth of his child." "He would want that. And I will let you know at the first sighn of labor." "I will." The END!!! Breath of Heaven I have traveled many mooless nights Cold and weary with a babe inside and I wonder what I have done Holy Father you have come and chosen me know to carry your son I am waiting in a silient prayer I am frightened by the load I bare In a world as cold as stone Must I walk this path alone Be with me know, be with me know Breath of heaven, Hold me together Be forever near me, breath of heaven Breath of Heaven, Lighten my darkness Poor over me your holynes For you are holy Breath of heaven Do you wonder as you watch my face If a wiser one could have had my place But I offer, all I am For the mercy of your plan, help me be stron Help me be, help me be Repeat Chorus Twice MERRY CHRISTMASS, HAPPY HOLIDAY'S One Child, One Day