My Addictions

 

“Let’s eat, drink, and be merry for tomorrow we die.”  This is what I believed before I became a Christian.  I thought it was all over once a person died, so I wanted to get as much pleasure out of life as I could.  As a young teenager, I started going to parties.  There, I met people with the same hunger for instant pleasure as I had.  I noticed that they were pleasing their desires through alcohol, drugs, and heavy metal music.  They all seemed to be having a great time, so before I knew it, I was doing the exact same thing.  I started drinking and doing drugs.  I also bought my own collection of heavy metal tapes.  The weird thing is that the more I fed my desires, the hungrier I became.  No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn’t satisfy myself.  So I ended up having to take double doses of drugs so that it could have the same effect.  This caused me to have several blackouts and I nearly overdosed.  As I continued to listen to heavy metal music, I developed a hatred for authority, but at the same time, I was scared of it because I knew if I got caught doing the things I did, I would be in jail for a long time.  Out of fear, I tried cleaning up my act by being religious, but that didn’t work.

 

Then one day, a college student shared a booklet with me on how to become a Christian.  He told me that my sin separated me from God and that I needed to put my trust in Jesus Christ as my Savior.  At that point, I believed that Jesus died for all of my sins so that I could be completely forgiven and have eternal life in Heaven.

 

Now, I have a purpose in life.  I discovered that there is more to life than just trying to please my selfish desires.  Instead, I now seek to help others, especially in getting to know God.  Drugs and alcohol are no longer a part of my life, as they are unnecessary.  I have also stopped listening to heavy metal music, and instead, I listen to spiritually uplifting music that promotes right thinking about life.  My hatred for authority is gone, and instead, I choose to submit to God‑appointed authorities.  I obey the law as an act of showing my love for God.  When I was a long‑haired rocker, I tried to selfishly get as much pleasure out of this life as I could.  But now as a Christian, I’m experiencing a deep, satisfying pleasure that only God can give as a by‑product of putting Christ first in my life and living for Him.  I’m reminded of what God says in Mark 8:36, “For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world, and forfeit his soul?”

 

M.B.R.