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Sorry for any confusion

I've only seen a few episodes, so this is not meant to be realistic or whatever, it's just my little dream world. LOL

please tell me what you think ;)

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Max stiffened against him, and he knew she had heard him.

"Don't say that," she said pulling away.

"Why not?" Alec asked hurt.

"Because you don't mean it. You couldn't."

"I do, Max. I've felt it for so long."

"Alec, don't be an idiot, you don't even know what love is." She yelled, springing up from the bed.

"I know how I feel Max. I know I can't sleep unless I feel you in my arms. I know how much it hurts me when you're hurting. I know, I would die for you and not even think twice. I know I want to protect you, and take care of you. I know I love you, and no one can take that away, not even you."

"Just forget about me. This was a mistake."

There it was the word he was waiting for. He would have expected it months ago, but not now. Not when they had come so far. How could he had been so dumb? He had thought for sure she felt it too.

"Why so you can immortalize Logan, your supposed first love, from now until eternity? I don't buy it. You're afraid Max, I can see it in your eyes."

"What would I be afraid of?"

"You're afraid because you feel it too. It scares the shit out of you, because you loved Logan and you lost him. I'm not Logan Max, when are you going to see that?"

"You're wrong, I don't love you."

"So I was just a good fuck, is that it?"

"No!"

"Then what?"

"I don't know."

"He's not coming back, Max. Logan is dead, and there isn't a damn thing you can do about it."

"Don't you think I know that? Do you think a day goes by that I don't think about it?"

"Max, you have to let go," he said, wrapping his arms around her from behind.

"It's not that simple," she said, breaking free of his grasp.

"I'm not saying you have to forget. Can't you see what's in front of you? I'm here Max and I'll always be, you just have to let me in."

"I don't think I can."

"Why Max?"

"Logan died because of me, I can't risk going through that again."

Alec gripped her shoulders and forced her to look him in the eye. "It wasn't your fault."

"It was," she sobbed.

"You couldn't have known, he was going to die, Max"

"I should have been there, I could have stopped him."

"Max, listen to me. Really listen. Logan, was his own man, he would have confronted White with or without you. It was not your fault."

"Alec.."

"Stop doing this to yourself."

Alec took her against his bare chest, as her tears fell against his warm skin. "I don't want to lose you," she whispered.

Alec felt an unfamiliar moisture spring to his eyes, and before he could control it, a tiny tear drop landed onto her cheek. She looked up at him startled. For once realizing, his feelings were true, and seeing how much she hurt him, even if she didn't mean to.

"I'm sorry, the words are just hard for me. Once they're out there, people can use it against us, like they did with Logan."

"You can't live in fear Max, it's not right."

"I know."

Alec leaned down, gently thumbing away her tears. She looked at him, and pulled his face down to hers, tenderly kissing away his own moist skin. She kissed the corners of his mouth and took his bottom lips against hers. Quietly, shyly, she mouthed into him, the only words he needed to hear. The world was right again, for them anyway. Amidst the chaos, they lived in a world where none of it mattered as long as they loved.

"I told you." He mouthed back, and she slapped his arms.

Alec deepened the kiss, letting his tongue trail over hers. Expertly, easing her onto the bed, he hovered over her. "I've never felt this complete in my whole life," he admitted.

"Never?" She teased.

"Well, once, but I'm planning on feeling that way again, real soon." He laughed and sealed his lips to hers, as she smiled into the kiss.

THE END