Used
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Ribbon's notes - Had to add Phoe-chan's notes cuz they're so kawaii! ^_^ They're as fun to read as the ficcie! Well..enjoy!
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Disclaimer: Dun own Nagi. Dun own Weiß. Dun own Schwartz. Never have. Never will.
Dun sue. I only have lint.... You want it? O_o uh.. o..k...
Notes: Yet another work of fiction thought up and written during the school day
o.o; I wrote it during English.. there's a lotta fragments and bad sentence
structure ^^;; I think I may have done that on purpose, cos I was mad at the
teacher over something I dun even remember anymore O_o; "HA! I didn't use a coma
properly! TAKE THAT!" ....I am a wierd one I am.... This fic contains YAOI &
SHOUNEN AI!! Wuzzat? Yaoi = guy + guy (+ guy + guy... o.o;) + bed/anywhere else
imaginable + ripping each others clothes off + possible use of lubricant C_c;; got
that? Now Shounen ai is.. take the guys (yes, 2 or more) and + sweet sweet love
^_^;; feelin squeemish? Better leave now...
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Used. It was a feeling I had come to know all too well. I've been used all
of my life, or atleast as far back as I can remember.
During my earlier childhood, I'd let others use me, do whatever they wished.
Allowed them to touch me in ways that violated my dignity. I had learned to hide
away all of my emotions, behind a stone-like exterior, while they had their fun. I
wouldn't let them know my pain. And they'd pay me afterwards, for being a 'good
little whore'. I'd be able to buy food with the tainted money, so I could go on
living my worthless life. Continue to allow others to use me as their sex toy. It
was a degrading life, but I was too afraid of death to end it.
Then he appeared, driving a black BMW. He looked like a respectable man,
wearing a cleanly pressed business suit. At first I thought it would just be
another job. It didn't really matter to me what we did or who I did it with, so
long as I get paid in the end. Instead, he surprised me by taking me back to his
place, where 2 others waited for him. They took me in. Put a roof over my head.
Gave me a bed to sleep in. I felt that I had finally found sanctuary in a place I
could call home. With people I'd be able to call family. That I was finally rid of
the life that haunts my dreams even now. I would have to kill for the clothes on
my back, but those people deserved to die for what they've done.
But it wasn't long before my paradise had shattered. Before I knew it I was
once again being used. In the same way as before. Except, instead of a filthy
motel room bed, it was a bed I've slept in many times before. Instead of a
nameless face, it was the sinister grinning of my own teammates hovering above me.
Night after night, it was always one of the 3, and it was always one of 3 reasons.
They were bored out of their minds. They wanted to hurt God. They just weren't
getting any. After a while, it was a daily routine for me, and I stopped caring. I
was once again hiding behind that stone-like exterior. Refusing to let them know
my pain. Knowing that if they knew, they would have just laughed.
It doesn't matter anymore, though. None of it does. Because the day I had
dreamed of every night since I first laid eyes on you was finally here. You shift
slightly in your sleep, and I can feel you wrap your arms gently around my
shoulders. An embrace I thought I could only fantasize about. Your heart beats
softly against my ear, as I lay my head on your chest. I had found my sanctuary.
With an angel. My savior. In the form of an enemy.
~ o w a r i ~
O_o; dang.. there's a big story gap between the last paragraph and the one before
it.. So who is it? o.o; ano.. I guess I'll leave that up to you c.c;; I didn't
really go into detail about Nagi-kun's lover ^^;;; you want it to be Omi? Fine,
it's Omi! Nagi and Ken more of your forte? Aki, that's Ken in bed with him! @_@;;;
.....feedback anyone? ^^;; *hides in her little corner*
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