"Driftless"

Feathers petruding from pillows
Fluid march of rushing red
Inside your head are dreams
That stab you in the back
A new cavity speaks that of black

Where have I gone in this dream of mine
I went to a place where everything was fine
Red lights meant go and yellow was the snow
All that was wrong I would never know
Everything that was left just wasn't right

I kept walking in this dream of time
Space hit my face and wind shook the chime
Sudden crumble of ground, the sound of clatter
I watched you shine, then I watched you shatter
Nothing is left, nothing is right

After the day of your castaway
In angst and anxious for my own dismay
I got into a fight with the night
and saw the beginning of a dead end
I fell asleep and never dreamed again

Until You walked in

"Phoenix Point"

Analyze my existence, dig your way in
through my soiled soul purpose
that you wish to end
My trifling line on time
You won't find a living reason, don't bother to try
Logic died along with the God of your shallow sky

I could wound you with words
I could unstitch your disposition
I am the source of what you are missing
You are a shower of laughter
Rain on me so painfully
Put you out with the fire
I will take you higher
With intent to let you fall

Remember the times we rejoiced
I was just your crutch
Remember the times we touched
I was just something soft
Now you are on fire
Your burning flesh is making me cough

In succeeding you must first fail
Nothing but frail in your little fairy tale
Give up, give in again
Relax, take a deep breath, get help
Pick up the peacemaker from the shelf
Are you ready to play
Russian roulette with yourself?

"Night Air a Nightmare"

Bury the burning bodies
Let the dirt put out the fire
A sudden disposition
The taste of iron desire
Reprise, blood brings recollection
An era of chained memories
Kill you, kill myself, kill the retrospection

Thoughts falling down on the rain tamed ground
Just waiting to wash me away
In a box I hide the wicked wishes
Alleviation of my thirst for you
We always did tend to contradict
Now I think I am in love
With your blood flow exposure

I don't hate, I'm so full of compassion
Remembrance of the non-existence
I love you so much I'd waste my life killing yours'
I love love so much I would die for it
So it all makes sense?
You'll know when I'm ready to go
I'm right after you

I wouldn't give you the pleasure
Your closure, my serenity
I'd rather see you beg on your knees
Love is suicide
You are a disease

"Pure Murder"

Open your eyes - raise your fist
Taste the blood of this world's slit wrist
Walking through the crowd of indifference
Listen to the sound of the sickness

Feelings mean nothing to the dead inside
Anger will rise as the worlds subside
If we leave there is no better place
We will stand and react face to fucking face

Open your eyes - raise your fist
Taste the blood of this world's slit wrist
Walking through the crowd of indifference
Listen to the sound of the sickness

Axis turning by the night
Flesh burning from the light
Sonic structures speak of sin
The sky is falling down again
Are you ready to fade away?

Open your eyes - raise your fist
Taste the blood of this world's slit wrist
Walking through the crowd of indifference
Listen to the sound of the sickness

You were always praying for weather
Always looking for something better
Nothing in the rain but the shame of pain
Drops fall upon your head
Prepare for the worst
You are better off dead

Living is the price to pay
We are all fading away

"Untamed"

You touch me, you tell me
to make me feel all right
Make me feed myself
with your fake light
To a point I reach a level
Bury you down with the shovel
Tell me one more time, to shut the fuck up
Tell me one more time, I will sow your lips shut
Stitch by stitch you son of a bitch

Engulf you, in return of
all the shit you put me through
Hate you, my will to rise
will eleminate you
I'm not your fucking pawn
I'm not your fucking scapegoat
Better be gone, I'll slit your fucking throat

You touch me, you tell me
you are a fake
Make me feed myself
your worst mistake
Not one will, not one way
Pray to your god that he saves your day

Make things all right, nothing is right
Make things great, nothing but hate
Don't even try, let me be or I'll let you die

Hate you, my will to rise
will eleminate you
I'm not your fucking pawn
I'm not your fucking scapegoat
Better be gone, I'll slit your fucking throat
Engulf you, in return of
all the shit you put me through
Your just a morsel of shit on the bottom of my shoe

"Untitled"

When I die, make sure I burn
Wanting nothing left of me
on these lands to return

Never wanted anything
inside of me to escape
No violence just total silence
Let me walk through this gate

As I wonder with You
in my dream as I sleep
I will tell you all the secrets
that I had to keep
And when you smile
before I drift
Look into my eyes and
accept my gift

Any last words of mine
The sound stands true
my love found a place
Inside of You

"Hold"

i lived, i loved, i died for you
i'm dead, you didn't change
now what's left for me to do
you live, you hate, you live for you
you're alive, still the same
so shallow i can see through

if i knew of words to describe
the guilt that you hide inside
i'd open my mouth and release
the blade to cut out a piece
of what you are, which is really nothing
so why am i wasting my precious time
even bothering to rise again
for a failure to the race of men
hell, i do it anyway, i'd do it any day

i lived, i loved, i died for you
i'm dead, you didn't change
now what's left for me to do
you live, you hate, you live for you
you're alive, still the same
so shallow i can see through

what if i decided to ignore you, decide not to help
what if choices weren't apparent, you think i'd fall
would i just find my hole and crawl, never come back
since second chances aren't pure, i'm very sure
i'd do anything for you, i'm the new rent-a-martyr
take me for granted, i love that, i always come back
i refill the face in the mirror that you lack, yeah
i'm the new rent-a-martyr you ordered, kill me
just to see me come back and kiss your ass, kill me again
hahaha, the whole process gets fun after a while, doesn't it?
kill me, laugh, but this time when you hit the button, nothing
keep pushing and pushing for an answer, you're the only one left
no one to comfort you, when you're inches from your death

you died, you die for the blood i've tasted
you are dead, a new beginning
now i can see, i was just wasted

"shattered"

we all know now, it's all black and white
not what we wanted, what we least expected
you were the one, that told us to hide
and we listened, so now we are infected
i was the one, who told you to fight
you didn't listen, laughed and carried on
there's no one here, no one to guide
don't bother looking, i'm already gone

until you kill the poison pill, hope will further fade away
will you die or keep pressing on and live another day
it's over for good, you have no one left, no one at all
you have no one left, no one at all, it's over for good
you'll just keep spinning around like a clock upon the wall

i only know, what brightness has brought
everything i needed, what i really wanted
i was the one, that always fought
pushed through with a past so haunted
with memories never to be forgotten
it took you away, and i can't bare the theft
memories of you are all i have left

"a poem"

time means nothing when you're living on the edge
i'm on the edge stuck in time of this life of mine
waiting for something worth my while
waiting for a cache of mystery malice to come my way
i've dealt with you so long, hit me all at once motherfucker
when i inhale i don't give a damn about anything
when i exhale i wonder what leaves, a trinket of value, the air
the air holds the content of counter-culture, don't breathe it in, says the world
fuck the world, the world has fallen beyond belief
if the world was you, i'd kick you right in your teeth
hate, what can i say, fate, is what it is, love, a feeling not just a word
when love is just a word then you're safe, when it's a feeling, you better RUN
RUN RUN, then you meet mr. hate, he doesn't care about you either
you find yourself alone in an apocalyptic desert of oblivion, you're nothing
keep thinking you're nothing, slit your wrist, what's the blood of nothing going to achieve
living sacrafices died with the idea of beating fate, dance, dance, fucking masturbate
you're going to hell for it, they tell ya, you believe them, what the fuck are you, just a gullible piece of ash
burnt by the core that you tried to discover, the same core that promised you internal life and happiness
only if you freed him and said those three words, i love you, but he fucked you over, cunt
the same cunt that decided she'd dig her claws of deception into the inner most skin of my heart
she tore me apart, i flooded myself with evil fruit, made me feel normal, but in turn, my nerves were a mere deterioration, rot rot rot rot rot rot rot, all i did for you was decay, divide the months by the days by the hours, fuck the flowers, fuck the notes, i hate you i wish you were alive and suffering like the rest of us..
now you're just a pawn in someone elses game that you think is your own, everyone hates you but you surpass somehow, i don't know how the hell you do it, maybe in the end people like me will prosper
i'm selfish, i care about myself, what's new, let's just die
i'm selfish, i care about you, what's new, what the fuck do i do?
i can't control my rage, everytime i hear or suspect the simplest thing, i am insane, that's all, i love you
love such a deep word, could the love of two beings match that of a spawn and it's source, who knows
i'll find out one of these days, one of these hours, one of these minutes, this very second, hell might freeze
who would believe that? that there is a hell.. shit, we are living in a simulated, environment, a protege of hell
we are just pawns of a never ending plot of pain, suffering, fake fortunes, war... one thing reminds us who we are, the love, what we are, the love, why we don't just kick the chair out from under us and keep hanging, the love..

chapter 3