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| "PEACE" |
| As I child I used to wonder as on God's magnificence I would ponder. I wondered in awe how God created mankind why He would make man in His image knowing he would fall into Satan's vengeance. As I learned about Jesus from my Fathers knee, about God and heaven's security I knew I wanted this Peace. I stilled wandered how God so loving and kind allowed mankind to inherit a nature so vile my heart was not ready as you can see for the miracle of salvation to be transformed in me. I did not think I was worthy of death, I tried to always be good and to do my best and prayed that God would do the rest; as I learned how Christ died on Golgotha's tree so that I could have His Peace. Although I was not sure about salvation, I was taught by repentance towards God and faith in Christ I could escape damnation, and that once done His love would be everlasting. As a small child I wandered about my nature inherit and the punishment that I knew I would merit if I did not bow and repent on bended knee. Would God punish me for a nature inherit against my will? As the days went by I felt insecure still and void of Peace. But heard another say, what do you have to lose? You will feel the heat if you do not choose. I did not want to make that fatal mistake and knew a decision I needed to make. So as a small child I tremblingly pleaded to God above to escape this damnation, and hoped now that I had eternal salvation. But somehow through all this I was void of PEACE. As years went by I began to mask my insecurity with trying to be good. I struggled daily with the task Of trying to do the things I should. Reasoning still I was not so wrong, I sometimes wandered if I really belonged. I'd believed somewhat, but not complete. I had no Peace. One day something happened inside; the seed of rebellion I'd retained as a child welled up in me as I questioned my raising, for my sinful nature I had never surrendered. My world was shaken and I needed constancy in my life, Someone to come and erase all the strife. I heard a small voice say Surrender to Me, and you will know My Peace. Then in love He reached down and helped me to see that He was the constant that could deliver me, that my rebellion was the seed of my guilt growing wild and if I but asked He'd set me free to be His child. I saw sin growing up obscuring my path and that I Was deserving of God's eternal wrath. I remembered He'd given His all for me so that I could have His Peace. Then on my knees in broken repentance towards God And faith in Christ, My eyes were opened, I had new sight. I will never forget the experience as it was not just an assumption, I felt the cleansing of His redemption. I surrendered my will and truly believed I Knew His PEACE. I sought again to be good and true, only this time with hope brand new. I would serve our Holy God above to show others His miraculous transformation of me with everlasting love. I now wanted to serve Him with haste. I would do what I could to show others His grace, how that since I truly believed; He saved me and had given His PEACE. There was a reason now for my actions. It was more than just to put on an air that I was good and okay. I enjoyed living for Christ day by day. I was so glad I had answered the Master's call, knowing I was deserving of nothing and Christ of all, How He had loved me despite my depravity, and delivered His Peace. Alas, though my journey was not over yet, My Savior saw me stumble and wept. But he knew I was His and came looking for me. He reminded me of his life given on that tree, how He is the giver of the air that we breathe and is there to guide if by faith we believe; that He wants us to be able to daily receive His abundant Peace. I remembered that to Him I belong, how He renews daily with His love and grace when I seek His face and turn again in submission. He took me into His bosom To fellowship sweet In Him complete. PEACE. By: Deborah Wheelock |
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