January 3, 2002

hmmm.. yes..  we talk now.. Trust no one! not something i learned today.. my tick tick has begun.. maybe it was there all the time but i couldn't hear it.. now it's so clear and loud.. and without having many meanings...

January 5, 2002 Saturday, 2:16 a.m.

hi, it's abt quarter past 2 in the morning and i just stopped staring at the tv.. having crazy thoughts in my mind.. like.. i really love u.. like.. we r fixing our home.. arguing where to keep the toys n souvenirs u gave me.. u know i'm not as bad as sometimes i act like.. got nothing really to say about it.. cant explain.. maybe i'm scared.. maybe u'r right.. these days it just feels like building castles on sand.. and i need u more than i ever needed anything in my life.. sorry for acting like a kid.. but right now i think i'm .. and a scared one.. mabye we need to be lil kids.. running racing playing hiding seeking wrestling tiring ourselves and then we sleep in each others arms, holding tight.. and when we wake up the thought of parting is nonexistent in our minds.. and we think of new games to play, and we laugh like mad.. :-).. i miss u like crazy.. write plz tell me everything u been thinking.. wat u been goin thru.. if ur problems are just urs..then wat m i doing in ur life? **HUGS**(for 300 hrs) luv u.. (and if it has started to sound a cliche.. then we might say something else wen we feel like sayin it.. i heard someone replacing luv with cheese sandwich.. i.e. i cheese sandwich u.. ah u dun like cheese.....