Genre: Drama (Sad)
Rated: PG
kachinamekenzi_79@yahoo.com
Date: 1-24-00
Star Trek Voyager belongs to Paramount I just borrowed their characters. No pun intended.
I based this story on real life.
Summery: Janeway is dying of a 21st century cancer. She has decided that she wants to spend her last days with the ones she loves. Her VOYAGER family and her own family.
The area is lit up with bright lights . Everyone is there it, is definatelly a hospital. The faces surrounded by her all are from her VOYAGER family. Just they are several years older. The faces of B'Elanna and Tom Paris, with their two children Alexander and Nicole. Seven with her borg eye piece peering into her surrogate mother's eyes. Her husband Harry Kim with theri only child, a little girl Melissa. tuvok stands as straight as ever withoug muc of a tear. Neelix is alone he just couldn't let go of Kes. Holodoc is standing with his movile immiter. chakotay stands next to his wife Kathryn their children hiding behind him. Nathanial, the eldest at eleven, holds his other younger siblings hands. Lauren, the second youngest at only 4 years old sticks her thumb in her mouth, and Makayla at 7.
"Hello honey, I called up every one they came to visit you."
Janeway weakly opens her opsidion ocean eyes. Her face is pale she looks so weak. She weakly smiles and strokes Chakotay's cheek.
"Where's the bby Chakotay? Is she okay?"
"Natalea is at your mother's and she is find although she misses her mom."
"That's nice to hear. Hello everyone has Chakotay told you everything?"
"Yes, we all reced over as soon as we heard. Dr. Sarbin Hasn't told us everything. What is it that you have?"
B'Elanna asks her Kligon ridges rising
"Dr. Sarbin says it's similar to 20th 21st century cancer. But it's only a matter of time until my speech is affected as well as my muscles."
"Cancer, I learned from the humans I assimilated that millions of people died from it. A long and painful death. The disease wan't curable until the mid to early 21st century. It was a horrible disease."
"The treatment faded as the disease disappeared, there isn't knowledge of it in the date base anywhere. We tried the cure they found in 2027 but it failed."
"I'm not ging to die any time soon I hope. Dr. Sarbin said it could take wees to months."
"Why did you call us?"
B'Elanna asks
"I could die tonight and I wanted to see everyone incase that happened. But I don't see Naomi where is she?"
"My goddaughter, is on her way she's bringing James and Katie with hre."
"I can't believe Naomi is Captain of a Starship at only 30. and James he's such a sweet man. He's very lucky to have her as a wife."
"She diefinately followed her dreams. And taht precious Katie, she's just like her mother."
Neelix adds with a proud smle.
"It's just to bad Sam couldn't be there for her when she had her. Death is suc a curse."
'I remmber when Katie was born. Naomi begged the Doctor to let you in the delivery room with James. And you were the second person to hold her. Then the next day you went into labor with Lauren. Naomi and you were roomates for two days." Chakotay says.
"Do you remeber what I did whe I foudn out Naomi was going to call her baby Kathryn Elizabeth Weaver, after me."
Janeway replies with a smile.
"I hate to be a party pooper but Kate needs her rest, we'll come back to see you tomarrow at first light. Naomi, James and Katie shouldbe here."
B'Elanna pipes in from behind
"That's a good idea."
"We will return."
Tuvok adds with his usual bluntness.
"As will we."
Kim added
'I think I'm going to stick around, these doctors put their patients on the back burner. Besides I've taken care of Kate for many years. I feel I should be here until the end."
"I want you to be here. As with Chakotay."
Doc nods
The next night the crew came to visit. Dr. Sarbin is inside talking with Chakotay
"She's growing weaker everyday. I'm not sure how much longer she has to live. Maybe you should call her family and bring her home."
Sarbin tells Chakotay
"There isn't much family left besides her sister and her mother. Her father passed away a long time ago on a Mars mission. She hasn't gotten ober that yet. And the others are hr VOYAGER family. Remeber several years ago VOYAGER was thrown into the Delta Quadrant."
"Yes, I heard about that. You discovered more species there than there is in the Alpha Quadrant."
"It was the most difficult thing Kathryn had to go through, well outside her father's death who she also blamed herself for. It took years for her to accept she wasn't the reason that we got there in the first place."
"How is she now?"
"Some days she has a difficult time with the subject. But she still gets into depressions for days."
"Try to keep her out of them. Weh she is depressed her immune system becoes weakened more thatn it already is. And because of that state now she could get worse before she gets better."
As the doctor finishes a young woman with strawberry blond hair a young child with blond hair is holding her hand. Chakotay turns to the woman and reaches out his arms.
Sarbin smiles and leaves the tow of them alone. She walks into his welcoming arms.
"Naomi Weaver! I'm so glad to see you!"
"Hello Chakotay it's nice to see you too."
"Kathryn is going to be so happy!"
"I hope so. This is...Katie, James is looking arond for a nearby hotel."
"She is a beautful little girl. I can't believe she is four already. Seem s like only yeasterday she was only a few hours old."
"I know, be honest how's Kate?Does she look Sick?"
"Sometimes, Dr. Sarbin has said she's become weaker everyday. He's not sure if she's going to make it any longer. He's recommended we bring her home."
"Can I see her now? Is she awake?"
"Yes, go ahead in."
Naomi, Katie and Chakotay walk in. Janeway is sitting up in her bedroom. The little makeup her family puit on covered her pale face. She smiles as she runs her hand through her hair. Everyone runs up to Naomi as Katie approaches her godmother's children seated on her bed.
"Hello Katie these are our children, Nathanial, Makayla, and Lauren. Natalea is at her grandmother's."
"Children this is Auntie Naomi's little girl Katie."
"Hello."
All the Children say they connected almost immediately.
"Hello. Want to play there are some great toys outside the room?"
"Sure."
As the hugs die down Naomi approaches Janeway she extends her arms to give her surrogte mother a hug.
"Naomi, I'm so greatful you were able to come. How have you been? It's been nearly four years."
"That's what happens when we join Starfleet. I'm fine as I heard you were sick I took a leave of absence from the Armagenon. I wanted to see you so much besides I wasnted Katie to see her Godmother."
"She's a wonderful little girl, you have a very special little girl. You were like that when yo were young."
"You were so curious. You wanted to follow me around so you goy the chance of being 'Captain's Assistant' and you were a lot of fun to play Caudus Caut with."
"With your help, all of you, helped me follow my dreams."
"And now you succeeded. Youbeat me at becoming a Captain."
B'Elanna adds showing a bit of disgust.
"You had potential."
Chakotay remarked
"I just wanted everything to be perfect."
"It was, as well as you could."
"If only I could get out of this hospital, I'm sick of being here. I need to get out!"
Janeway demands
"I am always one step ahead of you. I talked to the Docotor he is releasing you as soon as I sign the papers.
"That's wonderful!"
"Thank you for getting me out of here!"
"We're gong to come and visit you everyday, all of us."
B'Elanna adds with ehr charms
"Come live with us there are plenty of open rooms it would mean a lot to me and Kate."
"Sure."
Gathering up Janeway's belongings and walking out of the hospital the soft music begins.
Testify To Love
All the colors of the rainbow
All the voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
Reaches out to find where love begins
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify
Chorus
(At Home)
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silence
When words are nt enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God aboe
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
(Janeway getting changed and walking with assistance from Naomi and Seven)
From the mountains to the the valley's
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out to offer piece
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to Kingdom come
All the hope in every heart will speak
What love has done
Repeat Chorus
the very next few hours the VOYAGER family has brought in all of their belongsing. Nathanial helped out his family to bring in most of their things. Lauren is asleep as well as Katie and Makayla is looking after her younger sister while she sleeps. Downstairs the family discuss Kathryn.
"How did they find out about the tumors in her brain?"
"Well B'Elanna, it all started when Kate was about seven months pregnant with Natalea. She started having those migraines she use to."
"The ones she had while she was on VOYAGER?"
"Yes, but they were more intense than those."
"She never let anyone know. But occationally I would see her rubbing her temples when she wasn't looking."
"The doctor took care of them. But when she first had hers about eight wees ago. Seh woke up with them. She was in so much pain she had tears in her eyes. The light made her migraines worse. But when she started to get them two or more times a day, the nausea becomes worse as well. She spent mre time in the bathroom then with me."
"What made you take her to the hospital?"
"She had a seizure while she was sleeping, by the time she got over it she didn't wake up I was so frightened."
"That's when you fuld out about the tumors?"
"Yes, I was more concerned with her and the baby and not myself."
"What happened?"
"I stopped eating , sleeping and stopped working. Well just around the house I was thrown in a loop hole of depression. Thank God for Natalea."
"So she's been in the hospital off and on?"
"Most of the time the doctor's gave her a hypospray of pain medication. But her last CAT SCAN the tumors doubled in size."
"That's when you called us."
"I knew she would want to see all of you beofre she died."
"When she dies she wants to be with the ones she loves with her."
A few hours go by. All are in the house. The children went outside in the warm gentle summer day.
Naomi is with Kathryn as well as Chakotay.
Janeway opens her eys.
"How are you? Are you in pain? Do you still have a headache?"
"Relax Chakotay, I'm fine. Naomi how is the weather?"
"Beautiful you should see it."
"I want to go outside. Please take me outside!"
"Sure, let's get your robe. Wouldn't want you to catch anything."
"Okay."
Chakotay reaces out and took her robe from the hook on the bathroom door. He gently lifts Janeway into his arms.
"You are going to love it."
"I'm looking forward to it."
Outside the children are playing with each other. Seven is watching the older children in the swimming pool with B'Elanna. Chakotay places Janeway in a lawn chair as he covers her with a blanket. A few pillows mover Janeway's shoulders and head forward to make her breathing ease.
"It's so lovely."
"Thank you I'll be back later. Naomi will you stay with her."
"Sure we have a lot of things to catch up on."
Chakotay exits and Janeway places her hand on Naomi's.
"Seems like just yesterday you were running to me because you were scared and had a nightmare. Now I'm the one who is scared and hoping that when I wake up it will just be a nightmare."
Janeway tries to hold her tears back but is unable to do so
"My mother was on duty when I had my nightmare and now I am here for you."
"Do you still have the blanket I knitted for you when you were a baby?"
"Yes, But I passed it on to Katie the day she was born."
"I'm going to die soon. I'm afraid my children won't remember me. They are so young. nate will remember and maybe Makayla but Lauren and Natalea they won't."
"Spend as much time with them as possible. They will try to remember and when Natalea grows older her siblings will tell her about what a special and wonderful mother you were. Look at them play savor every last minute of your life with theirs."
"You have grown into a beautiful young woman. I'm very proud of you."
"Thank you for being here for me after all this time when my mother was on duty and when she passed away. You helped me turn into the person I am today. I love ou Kathryn Elizabeth Janeway."
"I love you to Naomi."
The women continue to talk to each other. The children continue to play and swim. Janeway does as Naomi suggested and she savors every last moment she has on this earth with her children.
You Were Loved
(Flashbacks of only Janeway and Chakotay's relationship)
We all want to make out place in this world
We all wnt our voices to be heard
Everyone wants to be someone
We all have dreams we need to dream
But sweeter than any star you can reach
Is when you reach and find you've found someone
You'll hold this worlds most priceless thng
The greatest gift life can bring
You were loved
Chorus
(Present flashbacks last two years)
You wee loved by someone
Touched by someone
Held by someone
Meant something to someone
Loved somebody
Touched somebodys heart along the way
You can look back and say
You were loved
(Flashbacks of crews journey the bad and the good)
You can have diamonds in your hand
Have all the riches in the land
Without love do you really have a thing
When someone cares that your alive
When someone finds there world in your eyes
then you'll know you've found all you need
You'll hold this worlds most priceless prize
The sweetest treasure in this life
If you can look back and say
You were loved
Repeat Chorus
(Flashbacks of children from pregnacy to birth with Janeway)
So many roads that you can take
Whatever way you go
Don't take the road alone
Better you should know
Repeat Chorus
(Flashbacks of everything at once)
Look back and say
You did okay
You were loved
So remember to tell that one
You were loved
Hint:"Beaches" remember that movie that's what I mean.
Note:If you didn't see that movie I highly recommend it rent it today.
Janeway's days are growing fewer every hour. Her headaches gotten worse her motor skills are damaged. She can't hold up her own weight at 100 lbs. She needs assistance to do everything Naomi and the crew are in her bedroom. Lately she's been to weak to get out of bed. Days grow harder for her.
"Hey honey, I love you Kathryn Elizabeth Janeway. Everyone does."
"How are you today Kate?" Naomi asks
"I've been better. It's so nice to have you all here. All of you my VOYAGER children and my family. I love all of you more than life itself. It may get harder for you to see me." Janeway says weakly.
"You'll be just fine. We'll all be fine."
Janeway closes her eyes. Her Children sit next to her. Natalea in her arms feeding She quickly doses off as the officers exit and leave Chakotay with his dieing wife in the arms of love her holds her. Children and all. He knew that this was going to be Janeway's final night. She is going to leave him tomarrow before nightfall.
"I love you Kathryn. OUr children will not forget you. I promise they were lucky to have you as a mother so kind, so beautiful, so loving."
What Do You Say
Her every breath is weaker than the last
And lately when she speaks
She talks about the past
Her husband knows she tiered of holding on
She just looks at him and says...
Janeway
I want to go home
What do yo say at a moment like this
When you can't find the words
To tell it like it is
Naomi
Just close your eyes
And let your heart lead the way
Lets get out of here
OOOH, what do you say
OOO, what do you say
Janeway closes her eyes and her breathing fades. Her family both have tears running down. It was the end of a special era. No one would ever forget. Janewy passed away shortly before sunrise. Her families were there iwth her. This was going to be a time they would never forget.
All Characters belong toParamount except for the children's names' and James Weaver those are mine.
Testify To Love, and You Were Loved belongs to Wynonna
The songs can be found on the Touched By An Angel CD/Cass.
What Do You Say Belongs to Reba McEntire
The song can be found on her So Good Together CD/Cass.