This journal is more a "stream of consciousness" record of events in my life than a recording of day-to-day happenings. The physical events, however important they may be in and of themselves, are often the impetus that leads to spiritual growth through new insights or a different POV (point of view). Comments and discussion are welcomed as I prefer a dialogue to a monologue.
The following are some facts which you may find interesting and which may assist you in understanding (or analyzing) my thinking process:
My sun sign is Cancer. I have a Capricorn moon and my ascendant is in Scorpio. Numerologically, my destiny number is five; my birthpath, three; and my later life number, eight. In Chinese astrology, I was born in the sign of the tiger.
My interests include dreams, re-incarnation, karma, and serendipitous events. I have experienced precognitive dreams and telepathy. I have had one encounter with a spirit...a "ghost." I don't try to explain these happenings nor do I attempt to convince anyone of their authenticity. They just happened...unbidden and unexpected. Eventually, I will include articles about some of these events on my Writings page.
I don't believe all "accidents" are true accidents. For instance, I recently dropped a pound and an half of frozen hamburger on my foot. (Go ahead and laugh. Everyone else has, including the x-ray technician.) At the time of this "accident," I was trying to think of a way to get out of doing something I didn't want to do ("obligation" is a mean taskmaster). Because of the "accident," I was able to gracefully (???) bypass the obligation, but the "non-aspirin pain reliever" bottle and I kept company for a couple days, with frequent visits of the ice pack to minimize the swelling. :)
The past few days have been one long lesson in letting go. Perhaps the most difficult experience for me is letting go of those I love to experience life in their own way.
As a mother, I still want to shield my adult children from what appear to me to be erroneous choices. However, as a spiritual being, I know they have to follow their own path and learn the lessons on that path in the same way I did. I can only be here for them when, and if, THEY need me.
Sometimes, though, being a mother overrides my being a spiritual being and then I need a "spiritual thump on the head" to remind me that I do not own them and that I don't have all the answers. They are spiritual beings, too.
The thump on the head also reminds me that not every decision I made was the wisest; but it was a learning experience (even if the lesson was "don't do it again"). In spite of my mistakes (or because of them), I like whom I have become.
At times like this, I take comfort in something my father said to me when I left home to make my way in the world: "I have taught you what I believe to be right, now it is time for you to find what is right for you. I'm here if you need me."
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