February 8, 1972 - April 29, 2003
Dearest, Dahlin, Tami
Another year passed by and another birthday is here...
Even though you were called back to Heaven, so early, dear
You're loved, celebrated and honored, especially by your Mother..
I've been thinking of some of your best attributes
and traits that made you.....
You, so special and here are some of them,
I wondered if you could have guessed.br>
I really miss those large blue eyes,
that twinkle as bright as any star in the skies.
Your cute way of waving, as you'd see someone familiar
or when you would be leaving our house....
you had 2 special waves...........
different but still very similar.
Your laugh, your giggles, your "OOOH Maaa's"
and your " Oh, I just love you so much!"
I miss the warmth of your tender hugs and the sound of your sigh,
for as you would give your hugs, you'd also, sigh~~~
and then say " I love you,"....
Basically, my dear, I miss you just being around.!
Beautiful, dramatic, loving, sweet, sensitive, spiritual,
kind, tender, warm, huggable,deliberate, sincere, organized,
achiever, mentor, dedication, determination, dependability,
wise, creative, clever, attractive,
Fun, radiant, outgoing, soulful, insightful, honest,
Dad's "Dyno-Mite", faithful, teachable, meanigful, loyal, peaceful, outrageous,
Direct, Humorous, smiling, nurturing, poetic, Aunt, Sister,
'Knothead' (a joke between you and your Dad) wonderful daughter,
my "sunshine" and one of my closest friends.
my youngest daughter, Tami.
Bubba, (English Bulldog) is now 8 years old. ...
but, I'm sure that you are celebrating your Birthday, with the angels in the Heavenlies....
We see Dragonflies all about us, almost daily....
to remind us of the day you made your transition to Heaven's way of living,
I remember how you'd remind me to "look for the everyday, small Miracles"
and to experience them, and I told you I would.
You are loved, honored and remembered on this day of your birth
To those who love you, more then gold you are worth
There are no words to describe the pain that we feel
Our hearts are so broken with no way to heal
Someday we'll come to that place where you are
Maybe beyond a distant star
Where weeping and mourning is no more
And when we arrive please come and greet us
As we enter that heavenly golden door
Laurasmom (c)
I'm remembering your sweet Tami on this day
May the Lord be with you
With Love and Prayers
Ann, Laurasmom
no longer talk with Tami....so, I started a journal "My book of Letters, to Tami"..... shortly ater she went to Heaven......
At first, I recollected what happened to her and my feelings..... And then, it's become a daily thing that I write to my daughter,
about the daily happenings & feelings, as if she's living far away from home. Its been almost 6 yrs now (April will be 6 yrs)
I KNOW I won't get any return letters, but, as a mom....it helps me, just the same.
(Like, Tami would have a 'countdown' to her birthday, starting the day after Christmas~~~and say things like..
"Maaa, don't forget in ___days is my birthday!"
As if I could forget.....Ha Ha.....so, these letters to her keeps my thoughts alive, but on paper.
We Miss you still and always will!
Our hearts remain steadfast in the promise,
that one day we will be together again, and then we will join in the celebrations of Heaven,
also, and rejoice in knowing that then......
No separation will part us, ever again!!
still write to you in my journal each day.....
My words are released to you, with love, in that way.
Everyone loves you and wishes you were still here,
So, please help watch over us
and help me when I need to wipe away my tears.
I Love you!!!!
Loving you now, Loved you back when,
Love you for Eternity!!!
and time will know no end!!!
01-31-2009
Today would have been your 37th birthday
I just don’t have many words to say
We celebrate the gift in God’s blessings of you
But celebrate a sadness of being without you
If I could make a wish for you today
I’d wish for you to be here today
My wish will never come true
For all my wishes is to have you
Happy 37th birthday
May the angels celebrate with you today
I send my gift of love to you
Happy Birthday Tami, I love you
© 16 September 2006 Doyle Alldredge, Revised 2009
2/8/72------4-29-03
I'll never forget the day you were born,
and the tenderness of the day we took you home from the hospital.
Why, I still have the clothes that were worn,
and think of the way your tiny hand would grab our fingers.
Sweetness and innocense of a small baby girl....
Oh dahlin, you brought such a sweet smile into this world.!
As you grew up your smile remained bright,
You would read stories to me and we'd sing;
"You are my Sunshine"...and, you were a ray of Sun ...a beam of Light!
Sometimes, I'd catch you looking at me with your beautful blue eyes,
and then other times, you'd just be glancing at the sky.
You'd talk to me of how you waited to come down to be my girl....
"From Heaven's Angel Nursery."....to live with me in my world.
What a Blessing, a true Blessing, to have experienced the joy of you!
God loaned you to me for a while, so that I could experience the
Love and tenderness that He had wrapped your personality in,
And oh, honey....
And since you've left, your Maaa's heart was filled with gloom,
That is, until I smelled your perfume and felt a sweet presence in my room.
Tami, you are missed so much by your Dad, sister(Angela), niece (Chelsea)
your doggie ("Bubba") and of course, me.
Our lives will never be the same, but we will not forget you dear
Your name, your eyes, your smile, your sweetness we all endear!
This is your Birthday and your would have turned "37"
We always had a "countdown of days" to your birthday and that was fun!
Now, I write to you in my journal of Memories
and wonder how this all came to be?
That all I can do is write to you.....and you're not ever going to be here with me?
It's been 5 years since I've seen you, although we do communicate!
And a piece of my heart will always feel desolate.
And even though, some days may seem cloudy and gray...
"You are my Sunshine", dahlin
and nobody can take that away!!!
Did you have a countdown of days with the angel's ???
I can just picture the angel choirs singing to you today!!!
In Heaven it's only your 6th birthday.....
So Happy Birthday dear,
Your Maaa will always hold you near!
I Love you!!!!
((( Mom ))))
(((Maaa)))
(written by Tami's "Maaa ")
Revised February 8, 2009
Sandra Varner
Today I am 37......
Today is my birthday
Celebrate my life with you
And remember the good times
Not the bad, and do not be sad
Look up towards the sun
And Catch every ray of light
Upon your Cheek
for I am there with you
Today is my birthday
Be happy for me
I lived a short but full life
I had the pleasure of love
And the joy of my family
Do not be sad
Look towards the stars
and catch each twinkle in your heart.
For I am there with you
Today is my birthday
My legacy is you and your life
spend it wisely and carefully
Guard it always
Do not be sad
Feel the wind on your face and in your hair
And know that I loved you
For I am there with you in your laughter
And in your hearts
Today is my birthday
Learn to live again without me
Take my strength with you
For you are not alone
Do not be sad
Feel the rain on your face
Feel all life's treasures, know that you are alive!
At each step of the way I will help you
For I am with you always
Until we meet again
TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!
~ Author Unknown
I remember everything sbout you,
your voice, your smile, your touch,
the way you walked, the way you talked,
the way you looked at me, meant so much!
I remember all the words you said to me
some funny some kind, some wise,
all the things you did for me
I see now with different eyes.
I remember every moment we shared,
seems like only yesterday,
or maybe it was eons ago,
it is really hard to say.
You are gone from me now,
but thing they can't take away
Your memory resides inside my heart
and lights up my darkest days!
~ Author Unknown
Where does Mom keep her memories
In a box worn beyond repair,
Tucked inside are memories,
Ask and she will gladly share
A baby book with pictures galore
Even a smaill lock of baby hair
But still there is so much more
In this box she cherishes and adores
Tattered valentines "To Mommy With Love,"
Papers boasting "Good Work... "Well Done!"
A tiny hand print small and fragile
Blue and red ribbons proudly won.
Macaroni shells that once formed a flower,
A baby picture smudged with kisses,
The first tooth the Fairy spared,
Cards of IOU's and loving wishes.
A scrapbook filled with Mother Day cards,
Made with tender loving care
All are now treasure of her heart
Never will she ever part.
Where does Mom keep her memories
In a special box this precious cargo resides
Reminiscent of days long past,
This box of love is her treasure chest.
~ Author Unknown
They say that time heals and that you will recover, but these things don't occur.
Recovery means to be able to get back what we have lost, or, to be able to return to our lives as we once lived before our loss. These things don't happen for a bereaved parent. Time does not heal, but time does allow for us to be able to learn adjusting to life without our children in it. We learn to live with emptiness in our hearts.
As we grieve, the memories of our love for that child grow deeper and deeper with time, and it is their memory that gives us the strength to carry on. Their lives were treasures on earth, and the world we live in is a better place thanks to their lives and the lives that they touched while on earth here with us.
God bless each and every parent that has a child in Heaven, for to be able to survive and still carry on after such a devastating loss, you are not only a survivor, you are a role model of courage, strength, and perserverence. May your child's memory live on every day and in everything you do.
~Author unknown
Mom & Dad Angela, Kellan & Chelsea
2-8-1972 ~ 4-29-2003
My ANGEL Lee wrote this poem, a very special one,
I would love to share it with you and your ANGEL Tami...
Softness of the skin
Sweetness in the smell
Nectar of the fruit
Tender in the heart
Dancing in the eyes
Uplifting in the smile
Tickle of the touch
Joining in the love
Truth in the speech
Love in the laughter
Primal in the scream
Soft in the whisper
Quick in the mind
Fair in the sentence
Brave in the confrontation
Joining in the love
Graceful in the sleep
Careful in the search
Deep in the sorrow
Strength in the sickness
Giving of thy self
Rich in the health
Kind in the giving
Joining in the love
Written By
Lee Henry Aguilera
Sue-Anne's ANGEL
A friend can hear a tear drop.
(Melissa's devoted Gram, Mary Jo's devoted Mom, and GG to my first great grand child who resides in Heaven with my girls)
Angels Touch
I'm thinking of you on this very sad day. Your Tami was so beautiful and sounded like such a sweet soul.
I know she went straight to heaven. My heart broke for your lovely girl
as it does for mine. God bless you and keep you.
Love
Ann, Laurasmom
In Loving Memory of Laura Ann Kimble
Tami's photo graphics by Linda Rice
HA Logo by RoseMary
My Heart Goes On by Celine Dion
