Gone

by Fira Black-Malfoy
 
 
 

There’s a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
 

Draco Malfoy sighed deeply as he sipped quietly from his goblet of
wine.  He was in his most depressed state ever.  All because of one
person. One person he truly felt he had learned to love. The one person
who had really loved him back for all he was.  The one person who, in
the end, broke his suddenly loving heart.  Hermione Granger.
 

Seems so long ago you walked away
And left me alone
 

Indeed, Draco was alone now.  There was no escaping that fact.
Though it had only happened a few hours ago, to him, it seemed like
an eternity had passed since she left him, he was so depressed. He ran
his hand through his dishelved hair, fighting back tears that threatened
to come flooding down, tears that he’d been forced to hold back all
his life.
 

And I remember what you said to me…
 

“I don’t need you anymore!” she had screamed at him.  Her usually
perfect skin had turned a deep scarlet.  Draco had said she’d always
need him. She was too weak and small to make it out there.  And
that’s when she left him.
 

You were acting so strange
And maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change…
 

Draco had been oblivious to the fact that Hermione was suffering.
But he knew her to be a strong woman, able to deal with the toughest
situations that life threw in her path.  But, and Draco decided he had
overlooked this, Hermione would have told him she was having a hard
time.
 

Was it something I said to make you turn away
To make you walk out and leave me cold?
 

Was it because he had forced her to tell him what was wrong? Was it
because he had screamed at her when she wouldn’t listen?  Was it
because he had told her off for being weak and socially small? Draco
didn’t know.  He wanted to ask her what had made her leave him just
like that.
 

If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here, right now…
 

Draco didn’t know how or where she was (though he had his guesses,
some of which were too farfetched to be possible).  All Draco knew was
that he wanted to find a way to bring her back.  He wanted to find her
and bring her home…
 

Chorus:
I’ve been sitting here
Can’t get you off my mind
I tried my best to be your man and be strong…
 

There were so many things that Draco wanted Hermione to know…He
wanted her to see what he’d done to himself…he wanted her to see what
had become of him a few hours after she’d left…
 

I drove myself insane wishing I could touch your face…
 

Draco leant his head on the wall behind him.  Fighting so many tears
back and thinking about Hermione at the same time was driving him
closer to the edge that he thought that he’d fall right off of it any minute.
 

But the truth remains you’re gone
You’re gone
Baby girl you’re gone
You’re gone
Baby girl you’re gone
You’re gone
You’re…
 

It was a harsh truth, one that Draco did not want to accept just yet.
But just looking around him and then at himself made him realize that
this harsh truth would be the hardest to escape from…
 

Now I don’t want to make excuses baby
Won’t change the fact that you’re gone
But if there’s something that I could do
Won’t you please let me know?
 

Draco once more ran his hand through his hair, closing his eyes for a
while. He wished he could talk with Hermione.  He wanted to know
what he could do to make her come home.  Instead he found excuses
bombarding his brain. He tried hard to push them out.  It wasn’t going
to change anything. Hermione was gone…
 

And time is passing so slowly now
Guess that’s my life without you…
 

His head continued to throb as he was plagued by memories of their
more lovestruck encounters.  Some of them made him smile, but most
of them just made him want to cry out.
 

And maybe I could change my everyday
But baby I don’t want to…
 

Draco was coming to a decision…but was it too rash?
 

So I’ll just hang around find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
 

He should move on.  Malfoys weren’t known to be committed to one for
very long anyway.  Yet another harsh truth for Draco.  He didn’t want to,
as he missed Hermione too damn much, but he knew he had to move on
with his life.
 

Coz I know in my heart you can’t say that you don’t love me too
Please say you do…
 

Draco knew.  He and Hermione had pledged to love one another for as
long as they lived.  What did Draco have to worry about?  He loved her,
and in his heart he fervently hoped she still did him.
 

Chorus…

Bridge:
Babe, What will I do?
If I can’t be with you
Tell me who will I turn to
Babe who will I be?
 

Draco looked towards the gray sky outside.  Hermione had, in her anger
and frustration, told him he was nothing without her.  And Draco knew she
had been right.  She was right about most things.  What now will he do,
who was he, now that she was gone?
 

Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart…
 

Draco wondered if Hermione was thinking of him as he was thinking of
her now…
 

Baby why don’t you see
That I need you here with me?
 

Draco was angry.  Angry at himself, for neglecting Hermione’s needs.
Angry at Hermione, for leaving without understanding his need to be
with her…
 

Chorus…
 

Draco didn’t want to admit it.  He didn’t want to.  He couldn’t but he
had to.  He knew he had to…
 

But the truth remains you’re…