29/11/2002 (Fri)
Performance = f(ability x motivation), Expectancy theory (Vroom 1964). With nearly zero motivation, what will be my performance?
You will only throw your temper to the people closest to you. If you always see me with a smiling face and stable emotion. You are not really close me.
說不出, 畫不來, 寫得明嗎?
:::::: 最湊效的面膜 ::::::
想要臉蛋兒
看上去充滿感情,
感覺滑不溜手,
顯得晶瑩剔透,
就要用世上最湊效的面膜 --- 眼淚
A birthday party ended up with 2 drunken guys, 3 people with serious stomachache, a sink of threw up sweet & sour pork and a 4-hour hearty sharing. My mood changed drastically from highly academic oriented, to deeply sad, to crazily laughing, and last warmly peaceful. It sounds silly and it feels strange, but at least I know I still have feelings on everything. I feel nervous about my school work; I feel loneliness and I feel friendships.
25/11/2002 (Mon)
It has been a decade since someone read me a bed time story, though it's just a hilarious entry from Anne Frank, it reminded me of my dad.
23/11/2002 (Sat)
Doves in Maastricht are mean! They think they are celebrities that pictures of them should not be easily obtained. Immortality doesn't equal to a never-eroded tumbstone, it transfigures into brightly blossom flowers.
"Every passed second is the chance to turn it all over again." --- Vanilla Sky
22/11/2002 (Fri)
Ask me three times and I will sleep in one's room.
21/11/2002 (Thu)
Time goes faster and more enjoyable when you have an accompany for jogging. Does it also apply for life?
I said it myself. I am a person with high uncertainty avoidance. I also said it myself that making no mistake doesn't get you anywhere but the place you started. You might feel defeated when you failed, but you know either you cannot do it or you will improve it next time. For people who always make mistakes, they think of ways to remedy. For people who are always right, they just know how to follow the rules, and get lose when things go off the track. Believe it or not, I said the above things... I am an excellent bull shit-er who knows the recipe but don't know how to make the cake. Stupid!!!!
I don't really believe in wishes, I will forget them far before they come true. When it comes true, I just take it for granted, without acknowledging once I was so dying to make it as a reality. It feels amazing to remember you made a particular wish, and seeing it come true. It's unbelieveable.....
P.S. A Story Of Thumb gives me giggle during class, showing my tutor that I am day dreaming. =p If I would have kept a diary when I was small, I would definitely write as many bad things as Anne Frank did to her mum. Then I would have proofs of how ungrateful I were.
20/11/2002 (Wed)
A city walk with no destination. I see mean sales lady in a furniture shop that has a huge front door with door bell on top. It makes enormous disguisting sound as you enter, as if telling the owner there will be a burglary. A nice lady from Archive Limburg lead us through a door you see in James Bond film and walk us to a modern library inside a hundred-year-old church. I feel like I am in an office of secret agencies. There're huge tomestones in front of you, while modern people wearing ties working behind you. A tiny container for 'My First Tooth' catches my attention. A small baby gift shop features various containers of My first tooth and My first curl. I think I will make myself a container for 'My Last Tooth'. I bet no shops in HK will show their customers the garden, kitchen, workshop and basement of the house!!! We have one in Maastricht. Personal touch is what we want but what we lack.
Don't pretend to know everything when in fact you don't. Don't accuse others of knowing nothing when you are as deficient as they are. --- tingzi
18/11/2002 (Mon)
Are we Asians too timid or we are just being polite and considerate?
Balance theory suggests that: liking is reciprocated. That is, if individual T believes individual B likes him or her, individual T will be motivated to like individual B. (Heider's, 1958)
15/11/2002 (Fri)
The first component of good listening is to withhold judgement and listen nonevaluatively. This is difficult because people tend to evaluate what they hear rapidly (Fiske & Neuberg, 1990), partly by adding mental comments to the message (e.g., whether they believe the communicator to be truthful or dishonest, accurate or inaccurate, etc.; Rogers, 1961).
With probing, the listener encourages the speaker to elaborate, provide additional information, or clarify the meaning (Whetten & Cameron, 1991). With reflecting, the listener mirrors back to the communicator the message as it was heard, thus demonstrating that the listener is attentive, understands the message, and would like to hear more. With deflecting, the listener helps the communicator better understand a problem by relating analogies, examples, and so on. Deflecting can also be used when a comparison, reassurance, or a show of compassion is needed, or to avoid an uncomfortable situation (Whetten & Cameron, 1991).
I am not a good listener today.
11/11/2002 (Mon)
People are shocked as I told them I haven't hugged my mum since I was 10. Yes, I am also shocked by this fact.... Chinese are not affective, but is this the reason for holding back our love? When was the last time you hug your mum? or.. being hugged?
We always mean what we speak, but always forget what we have spoken. So I prefer to communicate in words, one can look back and remember all the promises and faults made. This is the reason why I like writing letters.
Honestly, I am quite satisfied with my drawing of a broken neck, swollen thumb and a will-be bitten ear cartoon.
08/11/2002 (Fri)
"She allows me to hug her in public without drawing back." "When you love someone, say it, and say it out loud. As the moment will pass very quickly." --- My Best Friend's Wedding
07/11/2002 (Thur)
Shame on me... how can I forget and realize it so late... One just disappear silently that others even don't notice it. But whatever the reason, I feel ashame of forgetting you.
06/11/2002 (Wed)
I cannot believe this. People always say, treasure those beside you, tell them how much you love them, coz you are not sure whether they can still hear you tomorrow. I understand this, but I don't do it. I always believe there is tomorrow, there is a better occasion or atmosphere to tell.... but there is no best time to tell, the best time will come when you told.
05/11/2002 (Tue)
Can I cry?
03/11/2002 (Sun)
A morning call at 6:30am just made me sleep even sweeter. It must be enjoyable to be a bus driver if you travel a route surrounded by perfect scenery. Climbed 500 steps to the top of Cologne Cathedral, you would be stunned when you see those huge ringbells and wondered how did they move those things up there. You would also be amuzed by their faith in building such a Cathedral to adore God. So are they praying to something real or not?
Tingzi and the Chocolate Factory: Have you ever had a wafer dipped with freshly made chocolate from a chocolate fountain?? Have you ever seen huge rainbow emerging from a clock tower beside River Rhine?? Have you ever been walking around at 6 degrees with only one shirt??
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