| My Journey Out of Egypt... |
| In early 1998 found myself in the process of regaining 95 pounds of weight that I had lost August 1994 through the summer of 1995 through a well-known weight loss program. I have known for years that my weight was a spiritual problem. When I would express this feeling and understanding of my obesity, my friends didn't really know how to react. So, you see, for me when I found a program that understood and also saw my weight as a spiritual problem, it was an answer to my prayers. Finally, somebody agreed with me. God, not diets or exercise or a list of do's and don'ts, could and would help me lose weight. However, I began the process of trying to bargain with God. I tried to convince Him that I was eating more of the time at the hungry prompts and stopping at full. HHEEELLLOOOOOOOO, like I could really convince Him! Come on, Cynthia, how long have you known God? I know that He is not a God of bargains. He is full of love, grace, and mercy but no bargains. My sins have consequences....that is reality.....no bargains. The good news is that I leveled off without gaining any additional weight of that 95 pounds back. But the bad news is that when I had lost those 95 pounds, I still had a LONG "weigh" to go. I can put together a few good days of obedience in regard to food but Satan knows that he can lure me back to Egypt without much trouble on his part as long as he sticks with food. I was beginning to realize just how serious my food idolatry was. Satan knew that he couldn't touch me with some of the world's other lures, but food -- I'm easy prey. As I am writing this it is late 1998, I am tired and weary of struggling with God over this issue and I am tired and weary of carrying around this weight. Since May 1997, I have experienced a lot of heart surgery, and I'm quite sure I have several more surgeries ahead. (I'm speaking spiritually here, not medically.) I praise God for this program that I found and the principles that I learned from it. He is changing me from the inside out and I can't wait to see what I have "hidden" under all this disobedience. I am absolutely convinced that these principles will completely set me free and that once I give up my stubborn will and choose to obey Him, I will never, never again run to food instead of my Awesome GOD for comfort. Because obedience is key to this journey, I have chosen the name of Obie, short for obedience, for my camel. Together, we are going to crush our idolatry of food and relocate out of Egypt to the Promised Land. Won't you join me on this journey? . By the way....that is me on the left with Obie's brother, Abraham and his owner. |
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| Well....this is probably NOT what Obie, my camel, looks like; however, there are many times when Obie has this look on his face......You see, Obie and I have not exactly taken the express route from Egypt through the desert to the Promised Land.....BUT we are still on our journey.......... |
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| Created 10/00 Updated 07/07/01 |
| My Struggle with Weight Continues, Part 3 This part of my journey begins in June, 2001, when I joined Weight Watchers. |
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