"Saigetsu" ( Time )
Vol. 7
"Hitori Goto" ( Take to myself )
I don't even understand why Hyde called this poem Take to myself...maybe he meant..Talk to myself? I'm not sure.
Vol. 2 " Fictitious"
There's a poem along with this one, but the words are too blurry....i can't even read it properly...so i didn't scan it.
Vol. 20
"Earthlings are mushroom collectors"
This one is sooo cute!!!! it's my favorite Self Portrait of haido ^_^
Vol. 8 " Another Side"
I think this one is taken backstage of Dive to Blue PV
(thanks to Jang for it again!)
Vol. 10
" Temperature"
This one is soooo kakkkoiiiiiii *_* screams~(thanks to Jang for it~)
" I like cigarettes 1999"
thanks to Kin-chan for this self portrait ~~~
"Perfect Shining"
" Do you remember that we played the game together very often? I don't know why...vaguely, always sense of my losing in the middle of the game. Continue to.. I'm driving into a corner. But still expect to win...maybe...maybe not... I tried many things, but lost after all. I'd better stop playing in the middle of the game."
this one is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO KAKKKKKKKOOOOOOOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!
thanks so much to cookie for this one ^^
Old self portrait from 98, CHO KAKKOIII! (haha sorry i think i'm crazy every self portrait i'm like CHO KAKKOII) *** Thx to Akari-san for this cool self portrait ^^
Redrum
I killed someone again today
That car that always disturbs
my peace. I aimed for its driver,
blowing him away with an
invisible gun.
I hate smart-ass adults.
It's too bad for the assailant.
but when some mixed up guy
Has a car accident.
I think " Up Yours", (fufuf many ppl told me now, it means ano, up ur
ass ne..-_-")
Still, in this God-less
world those fucking guys don't always come to no good. <-- (haha..haido
swearing..this sounds so funny.)
That's why I kill people
so easily in my mind's eye,
I don't know how many people
I've killed with invisible bullets.
One day I'll probably be
killed in the same way.
How many people have killed
me?
***Btw, yeah, Redrum is from Stephen King's the shining ( if u read it the other way around it's Murder) but what others told me is that this is supposed to be some lyrics from a band called Redrum, i dunno ^^;
Women and sometimes
men
It rarely occurs to anyone
to take " men " as the subject for a discussion.
They are far too varied.
But " women " is a theme constantly chosen.
both for protest and surprise.
There may be much meaning
in this, as perhaps the
time has come for women to change in order that(?)
the balance between the
masculine and the femminine may be better.
Now may men be the point
in time when thought, unless partnered
by true feeling-feeling
that is as trust-worthy as claer thought-is seen as
destructive. but when
we say "women," whom do we mean?
For women are
usually described as someone would like them to be, or would like them
not to be, but ?? as they
are in themselves. The very world ?? is equivocal, since it may
mean someone is not whom you expect untiring work, or someone ???
and endlessly adaptable.
One thing is certain: a
discussion such as this would not be entered unless there is
acceptance of the fact that
every man and woman is both
masculine and feminine.
This is true physically as well as psychologically,
for we each carry a dual
inheritence. We will only flounder in generalities ???
is agreed that our aim is
to consider the masculine and feminine sides of the woman
and the feminine and masculine
sides of the man.
It seems necessary to discuss
men and women together, as they are in a reciprocal relationship,
and..i can't see the last
line..: P
ehm..i dunno how to comment
about these 2 "poems"
because..well it makes sense
but then i guess haido's still..haha
not too good at using the
right eng to tell what he really meant?
(i mean he know what he's
talking about?)
but somehow some of his
choice of words are so good! I don't think
someone that's not good
at eng would use those words, but i thought haido's
not good at eng.......so
where did he learn all these??
So what i think is, actaully
he didn't write these, but copied from somewhere else :P
Because some ppl told me
that they saw these before ( but dunno where )
Making a model dream
Following the dream in the white world
Breaking and following
Still breaking and following
... There is nothing
**Special thanx to Aurora
"Co-existence"
one of the earlier self portraits, No.4
KAKKOII!! desho? ^^
My body is constructed of...the flesh is gold bread, blood is silver wine.
They are bound in freezing atmosphere and nimbuses. The time may
come when people will control the weather in near future. The truth is
revealed before a great promise. Now, you have no more time to hesitate to...
(haha looking back, seems
like most of my comments for self portrait is : KAKKOII!!!!!!!!!*screams*.
I guess i just couldn't help it...i notice this problem myself too but
>_< haha can i think of a better word? )
"deep sleep fish" special thanx to Cat ^^
Vol. 27 (special thx to Take for the scan~~)
Freedom lies for within myself
you reside in a given room
you reside in the given order
glorify your determined freedom
to the mind of an idler
to the mind of fools
glorify your determined freedom
like a tamed dog...
most handicapped being
true freedom lies for within myself
through the act of natural instinct
through the act of wilderness
Vol 28
Let's go to the playground, pretending not to notice. Pretending not to know,
pretending not to think. Just because it's a sunny day. Because I'm up early today.
Even the scent of this new playground is nostalgic. Something, seeped out of my and
gave me a warm feeling. No big deal, it's just a bit of fear. See, I can walk on my
own with no one's help. WHAT A SHAME!! You just don't get it. Let's just take a longer
way to go home together. Just because it's a sunny day. Because I'm up early today.
Vol.29
Vol.30
vol. 31
wonder if hyde made this himself??
or haha dipped his face in the plaster stuff? ^^;
Vol.32
Vol. 34
***Special thanks to Pare san.***
A traveler jouneys around the world carring a bag with a hold. It is impossible to bring back the items around. Shuffle the precious and non-precious items. What left over is only the path of your life.
Vol.35
um, missed out vol. 33 , anyone got it and would like to send to me? ^^?
Vol.43
hha gomen i missed like so many previous ones..i'll try to fill up the
gaps later ^_^ gomen ne :P ( if u have it and would like to contribute
then its great >:D ...plz mail me ^^; )
This following poem was originally written in English. Ehm...there were a few words that doesn't make sense, but his english is already very good ^_^ !! ( I think it has improved?) Haido sama ganbatte kudasai ! I LOVE THIS POEM!! It is really quitemeaningful i think.
Devil's Soul
Well, do you know the answer?
You adore distruction
You love conflict.
You love pleasure. You love blood.
There's no use pretendid
to be a hypocrite, (i think he meant pretendING)
I can see right through
you
If you are happy, then everything
else being destroyed
Is just part of the fun,
isn't it?
You don't know who you are
dealing with
You just can't help showing
how right you are, can you?
The truth is you adore
distruction
You love conflict.
You love pleasure. You love blood.
However, there's no need
to feel sad
After all, that's the way
you were created.