The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid
the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats,
walked
down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. Then she
settled
in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg.
It had been a year since Susan, thirty-four, became blind. Due to a
medical
misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly
thrown
into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. Once a
fiercely
independent woman, Susan now felt condemned by this terrible twist of
fate
to become a powerless, helpless burden on everyone around her. "How
could this have happened to me?" she would plead, her heart knotted
with
anger. But no matter how much she cried or ranted or prayed, she knew
the
painful truth her sight was never going to return. A cloud of
depression hung
over Susan's once optimistic spirit. Just getting through each day was
an
exercise in frustration and exhaustion.
And all she had to cling to was
her
husband Mark. Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all
of his
heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair
and was
determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed
to
become independent again. Mark's military background had trained him
well to deal with sensitive situations, and yet he knew this was the
most
difficult battle he would ever face.
Finally, Susan felt ready to
return to her job,
but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too
frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive
her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the
city.
At first, this comforted Susan
and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so
insecure
about performing the slightest task. Soon, however, Mark realized that
this arrangement wasn't working - it was hectic, and costly. Susan is
going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself.
But just the thought of mentioning it to her made him cringe. She was
still so fragile, so angry. How would she react? Just as Mark
predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus
again. "I'm blind!" she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know
where
I'm going? I feel like you're abandoning me." Mark's heart broke to
hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan
that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as
long as it took, until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what
happened.
For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all,
accompanied Susan to and from work each day. He taught her how to rely
on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she
was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the
bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat. He made
her laugh, even on those
not-so-good days when she would trip exiting the bus, or drop her
briefcase. Each
morning they made the journey together, and Mark would take a cab back
to his
office. Although this routine was even more costly and exhausting than
the
previous one, Mark knew it was only a matter of time before Susan would
be
able to ride the bus on her own. He believed in her, in the Susan he
used
to know before she'd lost her sight, who wasn't afraid of any challenge
and
who would never, ever quit.
Finally, Susan decided that she was ready
to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she
left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus riding
companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, his love.
She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate
ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday.. Each day on her own went
perfectly, and Susan had never felt better. She was doing it! She was
going to work all by herself!
On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was
paying
for her fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure envy you."
Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all,
who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to
find the courage to live for the past year? Curious, she asked the
driver, "Why do you say that you envy me?" The driver responded, "It
must feel so good to be taken care of and protected like you are."
Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, and asked again,
"What do you mean?" The driver answered, "You know, every morning for
the past week, a fine looking gentleman in a military uniform has been
standing across the
corner watching you when you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross
the
street safely and he watches you until you enter your office building.
Then he
blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one
lucky lady."
Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't physically see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was lucky,
so
lucky, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she
didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light
where there had been darkness.
God watches over us in just the same way. We may not know He is present. We may not be able to see His face, but He is there nonetheless! Be blessed in this thought: "God Loves You - even when you are not looking."