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~*~
Chrissy rested her head on top of AJ’s chest and thought about what had
just happened. I can’t believe we just did that. I can’t
believe AJ and I…holy shit, I can’t believe how amazing that was, she
thought with a grin. Her head was swimming with thoughts of the past
hour. Do I feel bad? Do I feel happy? What? Chrissy
closed her eyes and all she could see or feel was AJ kissing her.
The thought made her stomach get full of butterflies and made her want
to scream out with giggles and delight, just like a twelve year old.
She sighed and looked at AJ. His eyes were closed and he looked so
peaceful, she stared at him a little more and thought more about the events
that had just happened. It was true she had been attracted to AJ
right from the start, but now he was her friend and what was this
going to mean for their friendship. Sex changes everything,
she thought. Chrissy sighed deeply and decided she’d sleep on it
and see how she felt in the morning. Things always look better
in the morning, she thought as she closed her eyes.
AJ
woke up early. He found himself naked with a mass of Chrissy’s curls
just laying in a heap on his chest. He smiled at the memory of last
night, running his hand through her hair and twisting some strands
around his long fingers. He ran his hand down her bare arm that was
laying across his stomach and she stirred a little. AJ didn’t want
to wake her, but he had to go to the bathroom. He gently lifted Chrissy’s
head and arms off of him and placed her on the couch. He grabbed
his boxer shorts that were laying on the floor and quickly slipped them
on. AJ swiftly made his way to the bathroom and closed the door quietly.
He stopped and looked at himself in the mirror. AJ gave a smirk to
himself and turned on the water faucet. He splashed his face with
water and dried off. He stared at himself again, this time with a
heavy heart. All of the sudden, a crushing wave of guilt washed over
him. You dumb fuck! You slept with Chrissy? I’m
fucking in love with Maria, but I slept with Chrissy. I didn’t even
really wanna sleep with Chrissy, at least, not until we were actually doing
it. Fuck Maria! . She broke my fucking heart! Shit, why am letting
her do this to me? I probably messed all this shit up with Chrissy
too. AJ shook his head and stood in front of the mirror
for almost a minute. He began to pick at the sides of his thumbs
and bite the inside of his cheek, a nasty habit he began when he was a
little boy. He finally went to the bathroom and made his way back
out to the living room to put his clothes back on quietly, grabbing
all of his clothes and quietly going into a corner of the living
room to put them on.
Chrissy woke up and saw that AJ wasn’t on the couch anymore. She looked around her and saw that he was in the corner trying to be as quiet as possible about getting dressed.
“Morning,” she mumbled as she got up and threw on her shirt from last night and walked past him and into the kitchen, not making eye-contact with him. AJ mumbled a “Morning” too and quickly pulled on his jeans. Chrissy fumbled around in the kitchen making some coffee. She opened up a drawer to hunt for a pack of cigarettes. She pulled a pack out of the drawer, found a matchbook and lit a cigarette. AJ looked into the kitchen.
“So, you do actually own some of your own,” he said. Chrissy smiled at him and walked over to the coffeepot, pointing at the coffee and raising her eyebrows toward AJ. He nodded no.
“I really gotta get home,” he said. AJ began to stand up when he patted himself down. "Shit, where are my keys?”
Chrissy poked her head out of the kitchen and pointed to the table. AJ saw them and picked them up, placing the keys in his pocket and nodding towards Chrissy. She nodded back and he started to leave. AJ got to the door and turned back around towards Chrissy.
“Later,” he said.
“Later.” AJ nodded his head and walked out the door, closing it behind him.
~*~
"Nothing's fine I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I am cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor..."