The Final Decision
By Lisa Ann Sorlie
There I stand beside a draw of destiny.
My head spinning of thoughts
of how to ease my intense pain.
I slowly pull out the draw
so my eyes can fixated on what lies ahead.
In the stillness of night spinning with despair
I stand next to the draw of destiny.
Will I live or die?
The bottle full sure to do the trick
looks so inviting.
So easy to swallow and ease the agony.
My mind racing with thoughts
So easy to reach for the bottle.
AS reach for it I am stunned
and taken to my knees my
heart suddenly blessed by God’s Grace
I decide to live by God’s faith.
I rid myself of the bottle
As I know my final decision to live.
Will be tested with struggles
but with faith in God and His Grace
Living will be the victory for me.
For believing in Him
is a solid foundation in living
this thing we call life.
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I chose to write this in red as it is written with my heart’s signature. Despite my severe depression and setbacks.. I can still live a good life with the Lord in my heart and I near His side.
To all those who contemplate or think of suicide there is another bottle in the draw of destiny and that my friend’s is Faith in God.
This poem is a result of an action that occured on the night of Thanksgiving when I once again was tempted by the draw of destiny. Yes, I was lucky I was stopped and solely by God’s Grace. There go so many before us whose cries were not heard or known. TO them this poem is dedicated.
If you wish to email me and share thoughts or struggles, please feel free to do so
my email is: LSorlieLAS@AOL.com May God Bless all that struggle with the final decision. Lisa
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