Because I won't be Broken

By: Quatre Raberba Winner (Quatre-Chan/Onna-Quatre)

It had been three years since the Christmas party and Allison Lowe's death.

Merin is very lively though. I've been wondering who is more energetic; her or Duo, but then again Midori had been like that at times.

WuFei and I were getting into bed. As I got under the covers he had asked me a question. I looked at him, "What did you say?"

"I said how did you get your magic?"

"I don't want to talk about that.. ."

WuFei sighed, "I understand, but you said your past no longer bothers you. Besides, you know sooner or later Merin is going to ask and I have a right to know too."

"If I tell you, you can't interrupt me."

He nodded.

I sighed, "All right then.. ."

*Flashback*

I had been taken in by the Gundam scientists. At that time, I wasn't aware of what was to come.

I was only but an infant and they took great care of me until I turned five.

I was playing in my room with my stuffed animals and that's when I first met Dr. Odine. He acted at first to come off as a friend and grabbed my stuffed panther.

"Lina, how would you like to help me and the other scientists?"

"How?"

"Well you'll have to come with me and see."

Not knowing any better I left my room with the mad scientist. I followed him down the hall and into the experimenting room. Dr. Odine picked me up and put me on the table.

I looked around the room and saw Dr. J, Prof. G, Dr. S, Instructor H and Master O staring back at me.

Dr. J walked up to me and pushed me into a laying position, "Just stay still.. ." he signaled Master O to come over.

The large bold man raised his fist and hit me continuously. I screamed louder and louder until I was knocked unconscious.. .

The next day and the day after that were the same as the last. Nothing had changed much in that time, but when I was seven I met someone new.

I sat in the mobile suit hanger, holding ice to my jaw. I watched the mechanics build and take apart the machines. I scanned the room and saw a girl with blue hair and a short green braid.

She walked passed and looked at me. She looked at my face and almost winced when she saw my jaw. She shrugged and walked away.

It was lunchtime and I sat in the cafeteria by myself, until I saw the blue haired girl again.

She looked at me, "Can I join you?"

"Whatever.. ."

She sat down and gave me a small smile, "My name's Midori. What's yours?"

"Lina."

"How long have you been here?"

"Years."

She chuckled, "Can you say more than one word?"

"Yes."

"What happened to your jaw?"

"Nothing.. ." I put my hand over my mouth.

"Are you okay?"

I got up from the table and ran towards the door. Not even making it to my destination, I fell to my knees and started to heave my barely finished lunch onto the floor.

"Are you all right?!" she ran towards me.

I shook my head as more of my lunch came up.

She knelt down beside me and helped me to my feet. Avoiding the puddle of vomit she helped me out of the cafeteria and into the infirmary.

We walked in and Midori looked at the doctor, "Little help."

The doctor looked up from her paper work and gasped, "Lina.. ." she got out from behind her desk and ran over to me, "They did it to you again, didn't they?"

I managed a slight nodded.

"Go lye down."

I walked away from the blue haired girl and walked into one of the rooms.

"This happened more than once?!"

"Keep it down. You must be new if you didn't know about that."

"Yeah, I just got here today. What's going on?"

The doctor sighed, "She's been going under a very strange experiment. And if Dr. J and Dr. Odine have their way, you'll hear her tonight."

"What are you talking about?"

"She screams. And she does so because they put her through so much pain. And it pains me because I can't help her."

Midori arched an eyebrow, "Why are you so close to her. I thought the people here had no real connection other than the fact that we work together."

"Let me tell you something about Lina. Her parents are dead and she was brought here when she was only a baby. These geezers didn't raise her at all, I did and now they are using her as some kind of lab rat. And if you're not careful this could happen to you as well. I suggest you leave before it's to late."

"I'm not leaving. I have something I must take care of. This may sound weird, but can I talk to Lina?"

The doctor went into the room that I had gone into. She stepped out and nodded to Midori.

Once the green-eyed girl entered, the doctor left the room.

Midori sat in a chair beside the bed, "Hey before I ask you the most important question, what's that woman's name?"

"Emeralda Uzuki." I sat up and looked at my companion, "What's your other question?"

"What did they do to you?"

I shut my eyes and clenched my hand into a fist. I had to find a way to avoid the question and the only way to that was to punch her in the face.. .

She fell out of her chair and rubbed her swollen jaw, "What the hell was that for?!"

"Darkness beyond twilight.. ."

Emeralda ran into the room and calmed me down and gave me some medication that put me right to sleep.

She helped the blue haired one to her feet and out of the little room, "What's your name?"

"Midori.. ." she winced at the pain in her jaw.

"Well Midori, you just got your first lesson about Lina. Don't ask her why she's sick or anything."

"Okay.. . But what was that 'Darkness beyond twilight' thing."

"It's a spell, one of the most powerful ones at that. And when she uses any thing like that they hit her until she does it right."

"I don't understand.. ."

The green haired woman sighed, "I'm sorry I've said too much, please leave."

Midori nodded and walked out of the room. She walked down the hall and into her room and laid down on the bed, "I know I just met you Lina, but I'm going to get you out of here. I promise.. ."

Later that night; I heard Emeralda talking to Dr. J and Dr. Odine.

"Dr. J, you can't do any of those test right now. She got very sick during lunch and came to me. As the person who raised her I can't allow you to harm her."

"Miss Uzuki," Dr. Odine stepped behind her, "we were the ones who had brought her here in the first place.. ." he injected her with a tranquilizer. "And there's nothing you can do about it."

He and Dr. J walked into the small room. At the sound of their footsteps, I awoke from my slumber; to see Dr. J right on top of me. I looked into his eyes, "What are you doing to me?!"

"You have to be punished.. ." Dr. Odine had a slight grin on his face.

"But I haven't done a thing!"

"Yes, you have. You came in here. You were supposed to stay away from everyone and you failed."

"I.. ."

Dr. J slapped me in the face and ripped my shirt open, "You have no right to talk." He moved my jeans down a little and started to caress the birthmark that was near my right hip, "Your birthmark is quite interesting. The angel wing could mean you are the angel of hope and the bat wing could mean you are the angel of death. I wonder what else I could find on you." He moved down lower.

I was getting very angry. I never did like being touched. I ignited a small ball of flames in my palm, "Get off me you old goat!" I fired the fireball and managed to burn off his right arm.

"You little shit!"

Dr. Odine hit me in the back of the neck and knocked me out. He turned to Dr. J, "Do what you want with her for the night."

"With pleasure.. ."

* * *

The next morning I awoke in the infirmary well aware of everything that Dr. J had done to me.

I got off the bed and put my clothes back on. Emeralda walked in and looked at my with a worried look, "I'm so sorry Lina. I know that this wasn't first time I've failed to help you.. ."

I glared at her, "Just leave me alone." I walked passed and shoved her as I did so. I wasn't really mad at her. I was mad at my self, mad because I was so weak I couldn't defend myself.

I walked into my room and saw Dr. Odine and Prof. G waiting for me, "What do you want?" I asked.

"You'll see.. ." Prof. G pulled on my arm and yanked me over to the bed. He pushed me down and tied my wrists to the headboard.

"What the hell do you geezers think you're doing?!"

Dr. Odine grinned madly, "We didn't get a chance to experiment on you last night. So," he pulled out a syringe, "we'll do it now." He put it in my arm.

I screamed and Prof. G had hit me across the face, as if my face didn't have enough bruises.

Dr. Odine and the mushroom-headed professor continued their assault until I forced my self into unconsciousness.

A few hours later I regained consciousness. I sat up and looked at my clock; 1:24pm it read. I got off my bed and walked towards the cafeteria.

I entered the lunchroom and bought my food. I scanned the room and spotted an empty table. I sat down and started to nit pick at my food.

I watched the people chat and eat with their colleagues. If they can eat with who ever they want, why can't I?

I then saw the blue haired girl from yesterday. She sat at a table by herself. I sighed and stared at the tray of food; I guess she's no friend of mine.. . I thought she was different from the other people, other than Dr. Uzuki. I guess I'll never know what a friend is.. .

I then felt something on my shoulder. I looked over and saw Dr. J's new metal arm gripping my shoulder.

"After lunch, you are to meet me and the other doctors in simulator. Is that understood?"

"And if I don't?"

"You'll have to pay the consequences.. ."

I growled at him. With anger running through my vanes; I picked up my tray and smashed in the doctor's face. Before he could recover, I ran out into the hall.

I was stopped by two of the other scientists, Instructor H and Master O. I stopped in my tracks, knowing that I was going to get hurt either way, I gave up and went with them quietly to the simulating room.

I stood still as they prepared me for my day's training. I looked around the room and watched Prof. G pace back and forth as he explained what I was expected to do.

"You will be using your newly discovered power. We didn't expect you would be able to use it on your own free will this early on, let alone using it against one of us."

I looked at me feet and sighed, "Why not? With the way you guys treat me, you're lucky I didn't kill you.. ." I mumbled.

"What was that?" the old scientist with mushroom shaped hair walked up to me.

"Nothing.. ."

He took his hand and roughly raised my head, "Don't tell me nothing. What did you say?"

I didn't respond in words, instead I spit in his face.

"You little brat.. ." he slapped he in the face and punched me in the stomach.

I fell to my knees and looked at him with hurt eyes. He looked down at me and kicked me in the face.

"Now," he started to pace again, "this maybe a simulation, but your magic will have affect. Fair warning; if you screw up, the simulation can hurt you as well. Do you understand?"

I got to my feet, "Healing.. ." a blue light swirled around me, "light." After the light vanished, all my bruises had disappeared.

Prof. G once again slapped me, "I didn't say you could heal yourself. Now get ready!" he and the other quacks walked into the booth that overlooked the simulator.

The scene in the room changed to the day Heero Yuy was assassinated. I heard Dr. Odine's voice come over the intercom that was in the room.

"You are to kill the man who killed the leader of the colonies."

I nodded and started to patrol the area. I wasn't comfortable with killing someone that was just a simulation, I wanted blood. The blood of these men that had taken me to hell and back.

I stopped in the middle of the simulator that was now simulating a huge crowd around me and began to laugh maniacally. I couldn't help it, this whole thing was stupid and I was going to put an end to this madness.

I began to cast random spells and hitting anything and everything I could. After my fit of madness I looked around the simulation and saw that I had killed everyone in sight. I then fell to my knees and collapsed on the floor.

When I woke up, I saw that I was in the infirmary. I looked to the left of my bed and saw Emeralda sitting next to me.

"Lina, what are you trying to do?"

"I was trying to kill myself."

"I know things here are bad, but you can't give up."

I sat up, but she immediately laid me down again, "Why not? All they want me for is to be their lab rat and I can't take it any more! My life has no more meaning.. ."

"Don't say that. Everyone's life has a meaning, you just have to find it."

"And my purpose is to be a lab rat?!"

"No.. ." she sat me up and took me into her arms, "you will find a reason for it. It may not be today, but you will find it. I promise." She lay me back down, "Try to get some more rest."

* * *

Not much had changed since that day, except Midori. I had always found it odd that she didn't talk or spend time with me. When we met, she was very kind, now I assume that was just an act.

I thought I was the only child in the lab, so why is she here? I often wonder what caused her to come, but now I'm sure I don't want know.

I'm sitting in my room in front of my computer. I was hacking into some of the employees' profiles. I was reading Midori's and found nothing out of the ordinary, except that her point for being here was to become what Dr. J had put as "the perfect soldier".

I sighed and shut down the computer. I got out of my chair and lay on my bed. I took my stuffed panther into my arms and looked into its plastic gold eyes, "I guess you're my only friend.. ." I held it closer to me and did something I hadn't done in a long time. I cried.. .

* * *

I awoke the next morning. I had cried myself to sleep the night before and my cheeks were stained with tears, my eyes were red as well.

I took a shower and then immediately went to my computer. I turned it on and began to do some research on my combat level.

The doctors had planned every, training I was supposed to go under. Today I was to fight another person in the simulator, but I wasn't aware of who it was.

It had been two months since that dreadful day in the simulator and I hadn't seen Midori since. I had assumed she may have left, but no one could be too sure with her.

The door to my room opened and Dr. S walked in.

"Lina, you are wanted in the simulator."

I sighed and nodded.

"What's wrong?"

I looked at him. His face showed a lot of concern, "Why do you care?"

"You are a person, not just someone who we experiment on. That's what Master O, Instructor H and I truly believe. But you need to cooperate with us before you end up dead. Okay?"

I nodded and followed him out of my room.

I stood in the middle of the room, while the scientist went into their respective area.

"Lina," Instructor H said over the intercom, "you are to find your opponent within the simulation. This is a real person so you can hurt them, but they can hurt you as well. Do you understand?"

I nodded and started to search the simulation for my enemy. The room had begun to simulate a valley of mist. It was something that looked like it was out of a fairytale.. .

As I walked through the simulation I felt something rack against my arm. My arm bled slightly, but I ignored it. I turned to see where that had come from and when I did so, I became face to face with my enemy; Midori.. .

"Looks like I found my enemy.. ." she smirked.

I looked at her, "You're my.. . enemy?"

"You've got it. The scientists wanted to see how I would fair against their ultimate weapon, and by that I mean you." She fired her gun again.

"Protect!" a shield of light formed in front of me, "Midori, listen to me. I went out of control once and I may do it again. I don't want to hurt you!"

The mist became thinker and I could no longer see her in front of me, then I felt something against my back.

"You should know that talk is cheap and never let your guard down to your enemy.. ."

After all I had been through with the old geezers, this was going to be the hardest thing I've had to do. I moved my elbow back and hit the blue haired girl in the stomach.

I turned around and looked into her green eyes, "Looks like you underestimated me." I held my hands out, "Flare Arrow!"

She dodged the move and the arrow hit the back wall or to those in the simulation, a tree.

"Death.. . Destruction.. . Massacre.. . I will kill you.. ." I had a distant look in my eyes. I was aware of what I was doing, but I couldn't stop myself.

Midori aimed her gun at me once again and fired. I grabbed the oncoming bullet and crushed it in between my fingers.

"How.. ." Midori gasped.

I walked towards her, "You are unworthy of fighting me.. ." I stopped and held out my hand, "Ultima.. ." a green blast was released from my palm.

Midori was hit dead on and then collapsed onto the floor. The simulation ended with me as the victor, but for me it was an empty victory.

I looked at the girl lying on the floor in a puddle of blood. I ran over to her and knelt beside her, "Midori?"

She opened her eyes slightly and looked at me. Her eyes were more painful to look at than her torn body.

I put my hands over her, "Recovery!" a white glow started to spread over her. The injuries were still bad. I couldn't stand the sight I was seeing, tears began to sting at my eyes, "Recovery!" the glow became brighter.

Once the glow disappeared, Midori had fallen unconscious. The tears I tried to hold back streamed down my face, "I'm sorry.. ."

The scientists came down from their booth. Dr. J had taken Midori out of the room to take her to the infirmary. Prof. G walked up to me and grabbed the collar of my shirt and made me look him in the eyes.

"Look what you've done. It will take us months to repair this room."

"Don't you even care about Midori?!"

He slapped me across the face, "No I don't care. I never said you could heal her."

"You never said you couldn't either!"

"Listen, I don't care what happens to her. If she dies we can get another person to experiment on." He let go of me and stormed out of the room with the other scientist close in tow.

I fell to my knees and let the rest of my tears fall, "Yeah and if she died, it would be my fault. All my fault.. ."

* * *

Not much had happened in that time. Midori had spent over a month in the infirmary and then she just avoided me all together. The only time I saw her was when we were to fight each other, although now our matches end in a tie.

Needless to say, Dr. J, Prof. G and Dr. Odine were not pleased with me. The more I failed, the worse they treated me.

It had been over a year since my last psychotic episode. I'm now lying in the infirmary. The scientists had begun to inject me with different kinds of chemicals and my body was rejecting it; just like it had done the day I had first met Midori.

I could hear faint footsteps approaching me. I assumed it was Emeralda. The light in the room became dim, I quickly opened my eyes and when I did I was greeted with a pair of Prussian blue ones.

He backed away from me when I sat up. I looked at the boy; he was holding his wrist out fear. I guess he thought I was going to hit him for coming in.

I turned my gaze away from him and began to cough repeatedly. I ran off the bed and into the bathroom.

I heard the faint footsteps again; knowing it was that boy.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

I simply shook my head no, then I began to cough up some blood. I looked at the brown haired boy out of the corner of my eye. He seemed very frightened. I turned around and he gasped as he saw a trickle of blood make its way down my chin.

He ran away from the bathroom and quickly returned with Emeralda.

The female doctor looked at me, then at the boy and sighed, "What were you doing in here Alden?"

"I don't know.. . But.. . but I didn't mean to make her sick.. ."

I opened my mouth to say something, but ended up spewing blood onto the floor.

Emeralda looked at me, "Are you going to be okay?"

I nodded and faced the toilet.

"I'll be back in a minute." She turned to face the boy named Alden, "Come with me." they walked out of the room, but I could still hear them.

"I really didn't mean to make her sick. Honest."

"It's okay Alden, you didn't make her sick." She put some ice on his black and blue wrist, "She has been sick for quite a while. I really don't know what's causing it, but then again maybe I do."

"I don't get it."

"I can't tell you. All you need to know is that this little incident wasn't your fault. Now Dr. J would like to see you."

At the sound of the name "Dr. J" I gripped my head in between my hands and began to scream in pain. I let my hands fall to my side and stood up and looked in the mirror. My eyes had that distant look in them again.

I made my way out of the bathroom and saw who thought were Dr. Odine and Dr. J. I lit a small ball of flames in between my hands.

The green haired woman looked at me, "Alden, get out of here.. ."

The boy nodded and ran out of the room.

"Lina.. ." she stepped forward and shook me by the shoulders.

I blinked for a moment and then looked at her, "What's wrong with me?" I looked in my hands and saw that the fireball was gone.

"I don't know. Maybe the experiments have gone to you mentally as well." She took me into her arms, "They won't do any experiments for a while or at least I hope, but I'll always be here for you.. ."

She pulled away from me and led me back into the small room.

* * *

It went on like that for quite sometime. The experiments on me became more lethal. I went out into the back of the lab with Dr. Odine and on occasion, Dr. J.

These two had tried to teach me new spells and even tried to get me to summon, but I refused. And when I did they beat me physically.

When I was ten they had tried to program the knowledge they had tried to teach me. It was painful, my screams echoed through the dark halls of the lab.

The door to the room was open a little. Trying to forget what they were doing to me, I looked out the crack in the door only to see the Prussian blue eyes of Alden.. .

His face had shown more fear than mine had within the whole time I was here. I pleaded with him with my eyes to help me, but he made no move to do such thing. Instead he ran away; part of me knew he did the right thing, but the other half wants me to have him go through the same.

Dr. Odine had seen me looking out the door. And as my punishment for it; he had slapped me and put electrodes on my head. It was his why of making me learn my lesson and to learn what he wanted me to learn.

Trying to ignore the pain, I shut my eyes and let my favorite song at that time enter my mind. The song "Breeze".

Two years after that I was to go into the simulator again, but first I was to meet with the old scientists.

"Lina," Dr. J walked over to me, "you've done a great job so far. But now we would like to complete sorceress look."

He took me by the hand and into the bathroom. He pointed to bag that was sitting on the toilet, "Since your name is 'Lina', we decided to base your outfit on Lina Inverse. Except the colors are a little different. Now get changed so we can go through your training." He walked out of the bathroom and shut the door behind him.

A few minutes later I emerged and I was wearing a purple and white shirt, purple pants, and aqua band around my chest, a black belt with and orb that was to increase my powers on it, white boots and gloves, a black cape with and amulet in the center and a black bandanna around my head.

Dr. Odine looked at me, "No come. From this day forth you will be a 'slayer' of the human race. The angel of death." He walked away.

At that moment in time I didn't know what he meant by that, but I was sure I would find out soon enough.

I was now in the simulator and my opponent this time was non-other than Alden. Needless to say he lost, but I felt bad; well at least part me did. The other part was laughing. I guess I've really become detached.

A few months later Midori had come into my corridors while I was working on my computer.

She had told me something happened to Alden. Her voice was rather harsh, but her eyes showed that she feared for his life and that lead me to believe that she had a crush on him.

After a long debate, I agreed and helped him and her as well. Maybe I'm not as far-gone as I made myself out to be.. .

The next day I left L1 to go with Master O to L5. Once there he had showed me what I was to obtain. It was an ancient scroll that belonged to the clan of this colony.

I accepted the "mission" to retrieve the scroll from a small temple close by.

I made my way to the temple without a sound and stopped to look at my surroundings. I saw a boy with short black hair that went down to his shoulders.

I stared at him for a few moments. This was the same boy I would later on know as WuFei Chang. He was practicing his katas, so he was pretty much distracted which was a good thing for me.

I walked into the temple and in the center was the scroll. I picked it up and unrolled it then read what it had to say. It was spell, but I refuse to use for now because I didn't have one of the things required for it.

I rolled it back up again and ran out of the temple, but when I did so I collided with the black haired boy.

He looked at me, then at the scroll in my hand, "Give that to me."

"No."

"You are not apart of our clan, it doesn't belong to you. Give it."

"I told you no.. ." I held out my left hand, "Dark Mist!" a big patch of black fog surrounded the two of us.

I started to run, but the young martial artist was right in front of me with his sword in his hand.

"I told you to give me the scroll."

I took the scroll and put it in my belt. I then took out the sword that Master O had given me, "Let's duel. Last one standing gets the scroll."

He nodded and we started to duel. We matched each other; each blow I had given out he blocked and vice versa.

"WuFei, the elder wants to see you!" a young woman called as she ran towards us.

I glanced at her, then at the person I was fighting. He was distracted by the person coming over. With the opportunity open; I sliced his hand and ran over to the girl and put my sword to her throat.

I looked at the Onyx eyed boy, "The scroll is mine or she dies.. ."

"Where is your honor? The only way you are getting that scroll is if defeat me with no distractions."

"Fine." I slit the woman's throat.

"What was the purpose in that?"

"Distraction." I held the sword in front of me.

Our swords clashed and we were fighting the second round.

"WuFei!" another woman called.

The voice was coming from behind me. I ignored it, but I couldn't say the same for my opponent.

He looked behind me, "Merin, get out of here."

She continued to run towards him.

"Didn't you hear me woman, get out of here!"

Seeing he was distracted once again; I brought my sword back and stabbed him right through the left side.

I pulled it out a minute later and looked at the Chinese boy's blood on the sword, then I watched him fall to his knees, "I won." I laughed and ran away from the fallen boy.

* * *

After that whole ordeal I went back to L1 and Alden told me Midori had left. I shrugged it off and hid myself in my room.

Later that night there was a knock at my door.

"Come in."

The door opened and Alden walked in. He shut the door and sat down on my bed, "What's wrong Lina?"

"I almost killed someone on L5.. . I didn't mean to, I went into another psychotic episode. I couldn't help it.. . I never wanted this." I buried my face in my hands and started to cry.

Alden moved closer to me and took me into his arms, "It's okay, Lina. I know how you feel. But with Midori gone we'll need to be strong so one day we'll be able to see her again.. ."

"Alden, I thought growing up was going to be fun. You know? I thought I would have lots of friends and have my first kiss.. ." I pulled away from him and blushed, "Pretty stupid huh?"

He moved a little closer and brushed his lips against mine for a sweet and gentle kiss.. .

He pulled away. I looked into his bright blue eyes, "What was that for?"

"We may never have the chance to do things in our lives that we want to and I think a first kiss is something that everyone has the chance to experience."

* * *

A year had passed since that day. I was now in front of all six geezers. They were making some kind of deal with me.

"Lina, if you do this we will send you to earth with your complete Gundam Rain. You will have no restraints here. You will be free to do what you wish." Prof. G looked at me and smirked.

"But I can't. I just can't fight him like that. It's not fair."

"Then you'll never be free.. ." Dr. Odine said as he and the others walked away.

I had one hour before I was to meet them in he back of the lab. My whole life I've dreamt of being free, but now the only way I have to obtain my freedom is to hurt the only person who understands me. Could he be my friend.. .

* * *

The hour had passed and I was standing in the back of the lab with Dr. J, Dr. Odine and Alden.

Dr. J looked at the two of us, "You two will fight each other. Keep in mind this is not a simulation, if you get hit it will hurt. Take your places."

We nodded and moved to face each other. The two scientists put themselves a safe distance away from us.

I looked at Alden with quivering blue eyes, "I don't want to hurt you.. ."

"Don't cry.. ." he whispered, "I know how feel, but if we do what they want then they won't harm us."

I nodded and got in a fighting stance. If I do what they want, I may end up killing you.. .

We received a signal from one of the old men and we began fighting.

At first it was hand to hand, then I started in on my magic. At that time he took out his pistol and started firing. One of the last bullets he fired lodged it self into my right arm. I fell to my knees and gripped my shoulder.

Dr. Odine glared at me, "Do it or I'll kill you myself!"

I shut my eyes. I could feel another psychotic episode coming on. I can't explain how I did it, but I got the bullet out of my arm. I healed the wound and got to my feet.

I put my hands over the jewel on the front of my cape. A strange red glow appeared around me, "Legendary fire and destruction, I call upon the power of the lord of all dragons.. . I pledge my alliance to thee of whom who has more poor to shatter the heavens.. . Bahamut, heed my call and annihilate those before me.. ." I opened my eyes and looked at Alden, then moved one of my hands away from the jewel, "Mega Flare!"

The sky became dark and a loud screech could be heard. In a mater of just a few seconds, a large dragon appeared over head and fired three bursts of energy at the Japanese boy.

I turned around and started to walk towards the building, not even looking back at the injured boy on the ground. All I knew was that a small red glow went back into the orb on my cape.

* * *

Two days later I sat in the cockpit of my mobile suit. I was given no orders, but to go to earth. I had wanted to see Alden one more time, but I knew I would regret it if I did, so I just started up my Gundam left to go to my destination, the earth.. .

Once there I wondered around. I didn't stop until a half a year later. That's when I met one of the vilest men of all, Chris Walker.

I was practically in the middle of no where when he approached me.

I looked at him out of the corner of my eye, "Who are you and what do you want?"

"My name is Chris Walker. I'm the commander of a local organization. I heard you could use magic in and outside your mobile suit, is that true?"

I stood up and looked at him, "Maybe. Who wants to know?"

"I could use someone with your talents on my team. By the way, what's your MS made out of?"

"Gundanium."

"I have a Gundam as well and so do my niece and one of my best soldiers. Will you come and work for me?"

Not really knowing or caring about what I was just about to get myself into, I agreed and went with him to the Blood Fang HQ.

We walked in and he took me to the conference room to meet who was soon to be my partner.

I sat down and looked at Chris.

"Hikaru, this is a new soldier I have recruited. You will treat with the respect she deserves." He looked at me, "I never got your name."

I thought for a second. Then remembered what Dr. Odine had said to me the day before I had left. He had told me not to use my real name, but to use a code name that he had given me.

"Ame." I replied.

"Well then, Hikaru. Show Ame around and Ame I would like to see you in the mobile suit hanger at 6:00pm sharp."

I nodded and he walked away. I stood up and followed the girl named Hikaru around the base.

Time passed very quickly and I was now standing in the hanger with Chris. He walked me over to one of the MS.

"This is Hikaru's Gundam. Chi Gundam is one of the best MS here, but it lacks some power."

"What does that have to do with me?"

"I went into the system of you Gundam and saw that it has been programmed so you are able to use magic. Hikaru my not have that power within her blood, but she could have it in her machine if you program the cockpit."

"Why should I do that?"

"Because Ame, with all that power you two will be more efficient in all your missions to come. What do you say?"

I saluted, "I'll do it right away sir."

He nodded and walked out of the hanger and left me alone with the MS.

* * *

Later that night there were many different sounds flowing through the halls. I got out of my chair that I had been sitting and shut off my computer.

The data on it had shown that there had been some intruders. Still being in my armor I decided to investigate this whole matter.

I made my way silently down the hall.

"Are you sure we can get his niece with out someone knowing we're here?" One of the men asked.

"Of course."

"Why are we after her?"

"Ransom. She's worth a lot of money and we'll cash in."

"No you won't."

"Who's there?" one of them asked as he looked around.

I stepped out from behind the corner and looked at them, "You don't belong here."

One of the intruders took out their gun and started firing at me while the other one made his way to my superior's niece's room.

"You think that will stop me.. . think again." I moved out of the line of fire grabbed one of the knives from his belt. I stood behind him and held it to his throat, "Never underestimate your enemy.. ." I slit his throat and he immediately fell to the floor in a lifeless heap.

I knelt down and retrieved the second knife from the body and then made my way down the hall to find the last goon.

I heard a scream come from one of the rooms and quickened my pace. Once I made it to the room I saw that the intruder had taken Chris' niece captive.

I stood a few inches behind them, "Put her down.. ."

He looked over his shoulder and smirked, "I see you managed to get passed my partner."

"He's dead and if you don't put her down and leave you'll share that same fate."

He dropped the girl on the floor and fired his gun at me. I moved quickly, but quick enough. The last bullet in his gun lodged it self into my chest.

I heard footsteps coming my way and no sooner had I heard them Hikaru and Chris had blocked off the hallway.

"Let my niece go!"

Before he picked up the girl he reached for something in his back pocket.

"I don't think so.. ." I held the knife in front of me and sent a surge of ice magic through it, "Say hello to my Nitro Dagger!" I threw the knife.

The knife was right on target and went through the man's heart. I fell to my knees, "I guess I am the angel of death.. ." then I collapsed onto the floor.

* * *

The next morning I awoke in the infirmary. I looked at my surroundings and saw Hikaru sitting next to me.

"Chris was very impressed with your performance as was I. As a reward Chris got this laptop." She pointed to the table beside the bed.

"How long do I have to stay in here?"

"Until the wound is completely healed. Chris wants you in top condition. He also liked the title you gave yourself right before you passed out."

"What did I say?"

"You called yourself 'the angel of death'." She looked at her watch, "Well I need to go to a meeting, I hope you recover soon." She got up and left.

Later that day I had decided to work on my new laptop when the girl I had saved the night before came in.

"Hi." She walked over to me and sat in the chair next to the bed, "Thanks for saving me."

I saved the document and closed the laptop, "It was nothing."

"My name is Kawa. What's yours?"

"Ame. Kawa if I my ask; what are you doing in place like this?"

"My uncle took me in when I was little. I used to live on L2 in the Maxwell Church after my parents were killed."

"Do yourself a favor and leave before you get yourself into anymore trouble."

She sighed, "But I want to fight alongside my uncle. Ever since he took me in that has been my dream."

"That's a pretty sad dream."

"Excuse me?!"

"Don't freak out. Everyone needs a dream, but take it from someone who has been in battle almost her whole life. It's not all it's cracked up to be. You're really kind Kawa, but that will be your downfall if you go on the battlefield.. ." I sighed, "If you go into combat you'll miss out on a lot, like friendship. I know what it's like, I have no friends.. ." I hung my head.

"What?"

"I only had two friends, but one had flipped out and totally changed the day after we met. Then one day she left. The other one I had, I left for dead. At the time of my departure from L1 I had heard that he was still alive, but I left him behind. So now I'm alone, just like I was when I was baby."

"I know what you're saying, Ame. But I'm going to follow my dream."

I sighed again, "Then I'll protect you. We have to protect your kindness. Without that the whole world would be covered with nothing but blood.. ."

* * *

After that I had become one of top assassins in the organization. In the year A.C. 195 I was given the order to kill the Gundam pilots.. .

*End of flashback*

WuFei stared at me in shock, "I had no idea you went through all that.. . And I didn't think you would bring up that fight on L5."

"Why? Because you were beaten by a woman or because the woman was me?"

"A little from column A. A little from column B."

I smiled a little, "But do you see why I don't want to talk about it that much? A lot of my memories are bad.. ."

The Chinese pilot moved closer to me, "Then we can make new memories.. ." he started to kiss my neck.

The door opened a little bit and a bright blue eye appeared on the other side, "Mommy, Daddy.. ."

WuFei pulled away from me and looked at the door, "You better have a good excuse for being up."

"I had a bad dream.. ."

I smiled at my daughter, "Come here."

She walked into our room and climbed up onto the bed with her stuffed Nataku in her arms. Once in the bed she curled up with WuFei and shut her eyes.

We smiled at each other and shut off the lights.

Later that night the phone rang. I picked it up and no sooner had I done that I hung it up and got out of bed.

"Where are you going?" WuFei whispered.

"That was Heero. He said he got a call from someone for us to bring our Gundams to L1."

"I'll go with you.. ."

"No stay with her." After I had gotten dressed I left the house and climbed into Rain and took off.

* * *

Not long after I had arrived on L1. I landed my MS and saw Heero a few feet away me, "Heero!"

He turned around, "Glad you came."

I stopped in front of him, "What's this about?"

"I got a phone call for you and I to come here with our Gundams. I couldn't risk getting the others hurt, but I knew I couldn't do this alone. So I did as told and called you."

"But every time we're on L1 Midori's with us. Are you sure she wasn't summoned as well?"

"Yes, it was just us."

"Alden? Lina?"

We turned to face the direction the voice came from. Our eyes lit up as we saw the person.

"Emeralda.. ." I gasped.

She walked over to us and smiled, "It's good to see you again." She put her arms around the two of us for a small group hug, "I'm glad you two made it through all your endeavors alive."

I felt tears run down my cheeks as I hugged the person who could be considered my mother. I looked at Heero and he was doing the same thing I was.; crying with tears of joy.

I had always thought I was alone and I'm sure Heero must have felt the same, but I know I was wrong. These two people I held in my embrace were part of my family.

The End

Quatre-Chan: *jumps up and down* "I finished!"

WuFei: "Quatre-Chan, what have I told you?"

Quatre-Chan: *stops jumping* "That sleep is my friend.. ."

Trowa: "And what haven't you been doing?"

Quatre-Chan: "Sleeping.. . But I'm not tired."

Duo: *sings* "Go to sleep, go to sleep. Or Heero will kill you.. ."

Quatre-Chan: *falls asleep on the floor*

WuFei: *picks her up*

Quatre-Chan: "Feedback. No flames, just feedback.. ."

Heero: *whispers* "Please send our chibi writer some feedback by sending her email at Quatre_Chan5@hotmail.com."

Hee-Chan: *climbs on Heero's head*

Duo: "GET OFF OF HIM!!!!!!!!!" *knocks Hee-Chan off*

Quatre-Chan: *wakes up* "Hee-Chan!" *jumps out of WuFei's arms*

Hee-Chan: "Duo knocked me off again.. ."

WuFei: *glares at Duo and Hee-Chan* "Look what you've done! She was actually asleep!"

Quatre: "I'll handle it. Duo take Heero to your room." *looks at Hee-Chan* "Will you leave them alone if I give you Pocky?" *holds out a thing of Pocky*

Hee-Chan: *eyes light up* "POCKY!!!!!!!!" *grabs the pocky*

Quatre: "Quatre-Chan, if you go to sleep we'll do the disclaimer."

Quatre-Chan: *goes to sleep on the floor*

Trowa: *whispers* "She doesn't own GW, Lunar, Xenogears, FF8 or anything else she may have used."

Quatre: "We'll see you at the next fic.. ."

(*****Author's Note: Emeralda Uzuki is a combination of two names from Xenogears. Citan Uzuki and Emeralda. I have so much trouble with coming up with names, so it was onto the player's guide! Like the G-boys said I don't own squat! Well that's all, see ya next time minna-san!*****)