Can't Find the Words

By: Quatre Raberba Winner (Quatre-Chan/Onna-Quatre)

I watch the person that I have fallen for watch the TV in our current safe house. The war has become more lethal in the past few months.

Unfortunately the other Gundam pilots had missions elsewhere and that left me with Duo Maxwell. It wasn't that he wasn't a good fighter or pilot, but he was just.. . I sigh to my self at the thought that I had just had.

Duo, you say you fight to get the smiles back that the people had lost. But what about your smile? Will your beautiful smile fade if we lose?

The longhaired American turned and faced me, "Hey Heero, you want to watch some TV with me? or do we have a new mission now?"

"Hn." I walked away.

I went to my room and sat in front of my laptop and checked my mail for any orders, but found nothing. I sigh again, why is it that I can't tell him how I feel? I know it's not because he'll be disgusted with the thought of a boy liking another boy, so why can't I just tell him?

"Hey Heero, I've had it."

I look up and saw those beautiful violet eyes, "What do you want baka?"

"Stop calling me that! I'm not as stupid as you think I am. We are supposed to be working together and you treat me like I'm an incapable newborn child! Incase you haven't noticed I'm a Gundam pilot as well and I wish you'd treat me like one!"

"Is that all?"

"No! I won't shut up until you realize that I am not helpless and stupid."

"Hn."

"Fine, be that way!" he ran out of the room slamming the door behind him.

"Duo.. ." I shut down the computer and followed him.

As I approached his room I could hear the faint sounds of crying. I poked my head in and saw the tears that he swore he would never shed. The only thing that hurt worse than watching those water droplets fall was knowing that I was the cause of it, but why would he be crying because of me?

"All I wanted.. . was for.. . us to be.. . happy. Like Quatre and.. . Trowa.. ." he wiped away his tears, "Boys don't cry.. ."

He feels the same way I do?

"But you're so.. . damn cold and.. . heartless.. ."

The only reason I have a heart is because of you. Maybe I should say that to him. I step in and look at the boy in front of me, "Duo."

He looks at me with tearful violet eyes, "What do you want?!"

I open my mouth to say what I felt, but that never came. All I said was, "Hn."

He turned his back to me, "Thought so."

"Duo.. ." I approached him and put my arms around him like I had dreamed of doing for so long.

"Huh?"

I just held him, figuring that my words would just betray me. I also felt that I had no right to say those heartfelt words.

But maybe one day I will be able to break the ice that has cased my heart and find a way of saying 'ai shiteru'.

The End

Quatre-Chan: "I was bored. Don't ask.. ."

Quatre: "Yet another sappy 1x2 fic."

Trowa: "Yep." *looks at the chibi ryu* "I thought you were a 3x4 fan?"

Quatre-Chan: "I am, but.. . but.. . eep!" *hides behind WuFei*

Heero: "She owns nothing. Maybe she will someday, but not now."

Duo: "Send Q-Chan some feedback be sending her email at quatre_chan5@hotmail.com . Also send your requests there." *smirks like a fool*

Heero: "Why are you smirking?"

Duo: "She might get a request to do a 1x2 lemon."

Heero: "Oh."

WuFei: "To do the requests you must do the following; 1} parings can only be 1x2, 3x4, 5xMerin or 5xher. She will try to do lemon/lime and non-con."

Quatre-Chan: *glomps WuFei* "Ja ne, minna!!!"