Heart of Ice and Love with a Warm Touch

By: Quatre Raberba Winner (Quatre-Chan/Onna-Quatre)

(***** This fic is dedicated to my best friend Hee-Chan.*****)

I was created for one thing and one thing only and that was for war. I sit in the living room of our current safe house. The sounds of laughter and anime could be heard from up stairs.

Leave it to my braided baka to make that much noise as a signal for me to come to bed. If I was in one of those cartoons I would have sweatdroped.

I save the document on my laptop and turn off the machine. I set it down on the coffee table and walk into the kitchen. I pour some ice tea into a glass and make my way up the stairs.

Once I got into my bedroom a pair of sleepy violet eyes greeted me.

"Heero, want to watch Bakrestu Hunters?" he yawned.

"No more anime for tonight.. ." I turned off the tape and TV, then waited for my lover to protest, but to my surprise he didn't. He just lay down and shut his tired eyes.

"Heero?" he said half asleep.

"Yes?"

"I love you.. ."

I smiled a little as I watched him fall all the way to sleep after his statement. I turned off the light and went back down stairs. I once again turned on my computer and started to type.

Ever since I was very young I had kept some kind of journal. Weather it be on a computer or in a book, I still had the record of some days events.

As I look back I can see how I have changed, for better or worse I wonder. The days I had spent being trained was only a piece of me that I had lost. My humanity really started to leave when I was but a child.

I learned how to kill from a man who supposedly was my father, by blood I guess he was that man, but I'm sure that a father is supposed to teach his child what was right and wrong. I guess he found nothing wrong with killing people.. .

I guess that's the way people see me as well. I am the perfect soldier, no feelings, and no emotion. That's what Dr. J wanted, a soldier who had no fear of killing or being killed. But to his dismay, I have emotions, they just choose not to appear when in the presents of others.

Duo, how could you love someone like me? Someone with a cold heart has no right being around someone as beautiful and kind as you are.

You call yourself Shinigami. Yet when I look into those violet depths that I get lost in, I see a boy with hopes and dreams. But why are you with me? I could shatter those dreams and break your spirit. Could you really live like that?

I really doubt it. I check my email and find a message from the one person that has touched my heart.

It says; I know you have problems letting out your emotions, but that doesn't matter to me. Once this war is over, you and I will continue our lives as one. No matter what you say or do, my love for you will be there to comfort you when you are in pain as will I.

Heero Yuy, the name of someone you died for no reason, but also the name of the person who is so close to my heart. I know I am a person who is way too different from you, but that's what I find so captivating. You don't care if you get hurt as long as I am safe, but the only safety I feel is in your arms.

People say your heart is covered in ice, but I know that's not true. From time to time you let your guard down and I can see that ice melt away. I have a strong feeling once this battle is over you will become the person you once were, but promise that I will still be apart of you.. .

I'm rambling again, even though I know I'll see you in our bed, but I needed to get this off my chest. I know what you're thinking and the answer is because you give me a reason to live.. . Your love is all I need to survive.. .

I love you, now and forever.. .

Duo

I couldn't believe my eyes. He had actually known what I was thinking. He was truly amazing. I turned off my computer, put it on the coffee table and dashed up stairs.

My koibito was still asleep and from the looks of it, he seemed to be eating his pillow. I chuckled and walked over to him.

He cracked open an eye and looked at me sleepily, "Heero?"

I smiled at him and took his hand in mine, "Yes. And you are my love and my reason to keep on living.. ." I moved closer to his lips and kissed him.

Arigato Duo-Chan. For making me open my eyes and seeing what lies before me after this war.

The End

Quatre-Chan: "Short and cute, yet again."

Duo: *sniffs* "That was so beautiful.. ."

Heero: "Feedback and requests should be sent to her at quatre_chan5@hotmail.com ."

Quatre: "Rules for requests are as followed; 1) parings can only be 1x2, 3x4, 5xMerin or 5xher. Lemon/Lime and non-con she will do the best she can."

Trowa: ".. ."

WuFei: "We won't ask. Well that's all and thanks for reading."

Quatre-Chan: "He's so cute.. ." *sighs happily* "Ja ne minna-san.. ."