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Melodies of Life

By: Quatre Raberba Winner (Quatre-Chan/Onna-Quatre)

{Quatre}

I wonder aimlessly through the colony. Rain started to fall on my shoulders, but I didn't care. The gloominess of the weather and the ache that pulled at my heart just made me more miserable. I stop in my tracks and look at the sky, raindrops hit my face and the way they seemed to stream down made it very hard to see the tears that I have been shedding for the past few months.

"Trowa.. ." I whispered. My tears came at a much faster pace as the memory of me letting the best person I could possibly know float into the nothingness. "Please.. . Oh Allah, please let him be alive.. ."

Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark,
For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart.
To weave by picking up the pieces that remain.
Melodies of Life-Love's lost refrain.

{Trowa}

I change out of my clown costume and stare out the window of my trailer. I have a strong feeling that I am supposed to be somewhere and with someone.

"Trowa?"

I turned to the sound of the voice and saw my sister, "Hi, Cathy."

"You seem troubled, is something wrong?"

"Tell me, am I supposed to be somewhere else?"

"What?"

"I feel that I shouldn't be here. I think I should go."

"Trowa, you're staying right here."

I packed a small bag and threw it over my shoulder. I looked into my sister's violet eyes and could see that she was on the verge of tears, I approached and wiped the moister away, "I'll come back, just as soon as I find out who I am and who holds my heart." With that I left.

Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why,
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye,
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold.

{Quatre}

I hadn't realized how long I had been standing there, but it really didn't matter. My heart was still filled with sorrow. Even if I do find Trowa, will he forgive me?

I wondered into the park and sat down on a drenched wooden bench. I closed my eyes and what awaited me was one of the best memories I have.. .

*Flashback*

We finished our duet and lowered our instruments. I smiled at him, "You play so beautifully, but how did you know that song? I made that up when I was a kid."

"I'm not sure. I think we just think the same."

"Yeah, uh where did you learn how to play the flute?"

"Don't remember, but music is one of the only things I can appreciate in a world like this."

"I know how you feel.. ."

He looked at me and for the first time when I looked into the emerald orbs I could see a gentle person. "Uh.. ."

He walked closer to me and placed his hands on both sides of my face and leaned closer. Before I could even comprehend what was happening, our lips had touched.

When he pulled away he blushed, "Sorry, I shouldn't have done that.. ."

"No, it's okay." I moved my right hand to my lips to make sure they were still there.

My new comrade moved closer to me and took me into his arms, "I.. . I like you and I couldn't.. ."

"Don't say anything.. ." I returned the embrace, "I know what you mean.. ."

*End of flashback*

I wiped the new tears away. Trowa, I know but you can't leave me. You just can't.. .

In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me.
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name.

{Trowa}

I walk around the colony. Moister clung to me, but I kept moving. I could feel something in my heart saying that the person I was to be with was near.

In the back of my mind, I can hear the faint sounds of a flute and a violin. I stop in my tracks as a memory hit me.

*Flashback*

I held a blond boy in my arms. I look down at him with a small smile on my face, "So what do you call this song of yours?"

"I never gave it a name.. ." he's says quietly. He lifted his head and looked at me with shinning aquamarine eyes, "You name it. And whatever you decide, that will be that. After all, it is our song."

"Throbbing Harmony."

"That's a good title, but why did you come up with that?"

"Because, this is the first time I've felt this way and I'm sure it's because of you.. ."

*End of flashback*

"Throbbing Harmony.. ."

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes, on and on.
Melodies of life.
To the sky beyond the flying birds-forever and beyond.

{Quatre}

I continue to watch the happy times flash before my eyes and the more memories I saw, the more I wanted to take my life out of guilt.

But I knew Trowa wouldn't forgive me. I smile at the next memory that came to me. The time when we were on our way to the New Edward's base.. .

*Flashback*

"Hi, so we meet again!" he turned to face me. his eyes quivered, for the reason those emerald orbs moved so uncertainly I was not sure, "Funny we ended up at the same destination."

He put his hands on his hips, "I'm doing this alone."

I mimic him, "So am I, but what if we help each other?"

"Don't think so.. ." he turned around and walked off.

"Two's always better than one!" I called out.

*End of flashback*

"That was such a bad second impression.. ." I muttered. I pulled out a silver chain that I wore around my neck. I smile at it sadly, "Trowa, you gave this to me thinking that it would protect me, but it looks like the half that I gave you was a curse.. ." More tears came and I have finally given up wiping them away.

So far and away, see the bird as it flies,
Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky,
I've laid my memories, and dreams upon those wings
Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings.

{Trowa}

Who is this person that I am supposed to be with? Soft blond hair, aquamarine eyes and a gentle soul. Could he be an angel?

I think again and see his face as he says the strangest fraise; "Two's always better than one." My eyes grow wide as another memory came my way. Of the two of us in a hotel room.

*Flashback*

"This room is rather expensive."

"Nonsense. It's the safest place for us to hide out until our mission."

"But still.. ."

He ran over to me and threw his arms around my neck, "I'll admit that I purposely spent the extra money to get this room. As stupid as it may sound, I wanted it to be romantic.. ."

I looked at him and smiled, "The only romance I need is from your heart, little one."

"Trowa, call me.. ."

"I have no right to call an angel by its real name.. ."

*End of flashback*

I took out the chain that I wore and looked at the charm, "That angel gave me this?"

In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me?
Was it fate that brought us close and now leaves me behind?

{Quatre}

I can just picture those beautiful eyes, and very rare smile. I know if he was here he would say, "It's all right, angel." Or "I love you, please don't be sad."

But how can I not be? It's my fault that I may never see my soul mate again.. . I stood up from the bench and started on my way once more.

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes, on and on.
Melodies of life.
To the sky beyond the flying birds-forever and beyond.

{Trowa}

I walked into the park. It was truly amazing how many people were out in such bad weather. As I continued to walk forward someone had run into me.

"I'm sorry.. ." he looked up. As he looked at me I could see that he'd been crying and it looked like he was going to again. "Trowa?"

"Yes, who are you?"

"Trowa, you don't.. ."

I looked him over and then I noticed a similar necklace that he wore. I looked at mine again and then I turned back to the blond in front of me, "Quatre?"

"Oh, Trowa!!" he swung his arms around my neck and sobbed into my shoulder. "I thought I killed you.. ."

I moved my hand over his back in a circular motion. Now recalling what had happened. I saved Heero and sacrificed myself for him to open his eyes. "Shh.. ." I soothed.

"I can't believe you're here holding me.. ."

"I will continue to love you and hold for as long as I live."

The clouds started to part and the rain had ceased. He pulled away from me and looked into my eyes, "I love you.. ." he moved closer and pressed his lips against mine.

Now I know why my heart was telling me to leave. Quatre is my soul mate and I am his. We are one and I swear that I will be by his side forever.. .

And if should I leave this lonely world behind.
Your voice will still remember our melody.
Now I know we'll carry on.
Melodies of Life.
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts,
as long as we remember.