Understandings: Body, Mind and Soul

Part 1

By: Quatre Raberba Winner (Quatre-Chan/Onna-Quatre)

I couldn't explain what I felt in my heart the day that this happened. In all the time that I had known the person I had fallen in love with, I could sense that he wanted to understand everyone he met.

He affected the lives of many. When he met someone that was different in the sense of, I guess you could say physical sense. He would always try to figure out a way to understand, just talking to the person wasn't enough, he had to "research" the whole complex. And every time he did so, it always ended up in a strong friendship/bond that had been made between him and the other person.

It amazed all of us. Duo was always asking him how it felt to be close to someone who couldn't do certain things. And in his mind and to a lot of people, Duo a.k.a. Shinigami knows and can do all. Well I guess Heero would be the only one who would really be able to know THAT information.. .

But now it has been two months and my blond angel is still in the same condition. Perhaps I should start from the beginning.

*FLASHBACK*

It was a typical Friday afternoon, well typical for us being Gundam pilots that is. Quatre had recently met a new student at our current high school. To a lot of people's dismay, the student was blind.

The blond Arabian walked her, yes the student is a her, home everyday since they had met, but since this is supposed be the beginning, we won't go into that.

Quatre walked up to the student and saw that she was looking for something that she had dropped. "Excuse me?"

She pulled her head up and moved her hand around to see where the voice was coming from, "Could you step a little closer?"

He did so and felt the girl's hand on his ankle. Quatre knelt down, taking the hand in his, "Are you all right?"

"I'm fine, but I can't seem to find my books. Someone rudely pushed by me and said something along the lines of, 'Sorry Miss, but I'm late for a date with my lover and if I'm not there in another five minutes, he's going to kill me. And this time it will NOT be a threat!!' And then he ran off."

"That sounds like someone I know.. . But at any rate let me help you." He moved slightly and picked up the books that were only a few feet in front of them. He helped the girl back to her feet, "Here." He gave her the books.

"Thank you. Can I ask your name?"

"Of course. I'm Quatre Winner. What's yours?"

"Kirei. Kirei Tenshi."

"Nice to meet you, Kirei. Um, would you like some help getting to wherever it is you are headed?"

"That would be helpful. I'm heading back to my house. Which is only a few blocks from here. My tutor must be there by now. My mom usually picks me up, but today she was called into work early."

"Have you ever walked home before?"

"No, my mom thinks it's to dangerous to walk home without being able to see.. ."

"Well let's get you home then." He slipped his arm through hers and walked along side her.

15 minutes later.. .

They walked up onto the girl's front lawn and ahead of them they saw a boy their age with black hair that was tied back into a tight ponytail.

Quatre smiled, "WuFei, what are you doing here?"

"You know Wu-Chan?" the girl questioned.

"Yes he knows me, Kirei." The Chinese pilot got off the front steps and approached, "We live in the same house."

"So, Quatre is one of your four friends?"

"Yes."

Quatre kept his smile on his face and once again asked his question, "WuFei, what are you doing here?"

"Isn't it obvious? I'm her tutor."

"Why and how?"

"I know how to read Braille and I'm in most of her classes so her mother called the school and they asked if I would help her."

"Let me guess, you did it for justice?"

"Don't forget about the honor. Kirei is a smart girl and in my opinion she doesn't need help, except when it comes to doing reports. I should actually spend my time helping Maxwell study for his exams."

"That would be the truth. Hey WuFei, why don't we take her back to our house and let her meet the others?"

"That could be interesting.. . Maxwell's stupidity, Barton's silent persona and Yuy's suicidal ways, yeah this should be fun."

The girl giggled, "I'd love to meet the rest of your friends."

"All right, but don't say I didn't warn you.. ."

"What do you mean by that? The guys and I know how to behave in front of company."

"I'll believe it when I see it."

The girl's giggles became louder. The two boys looked at her and joined in the laughter. Once they had calmed down, WuFei had written a quick note and left it on the door for Kirei's mother.

They walked almost 45 minutes before they had arrived at their current safe house. Quatre opened the door and let his female companion step in.

"This place seems to be very elegant and beautiful.. ."

"That it is." The Chinese boy said as he stood be side her, taking her arm to guide her around.

The two pilots brought her into the kitchen and there was the first out of the three other boys she was to meet. Quatre stepped forward and greeted his friend, "Hi, Heero."

"Hn." He replied as he typed on his laptop.

"Heero, we have company.. ."

The Japanese boy looked up from his typing and saw whom Quatre had been referring to. "Who's that?"

"Her name is Kirei." WuFei spoke up, "She's been the one that I have been tutoring."

"Oh." He got of his seat and extended his hand to the girl, "My name is Heero Yuy." He waited for a few seconds and became annoyed when their guest didn't except his greeting.

"Heero," Quatre said in a soft tone, "She can't see."

"She's blind?"

"Yes.. ."

"Don't let my disability bother you. Heero was it? Could you step in front of me?"

"All right.. ." he stepped a little closer to her and then she felt his face. He was surprised at her sudden action, but then relaxed and let her try to get a mental picture of him.

She smiled, "You are very kind, regardless of the ice you keep around your heart.. ."

"How could you get all that with just a mental image?" he questioned.

"When you see pieces of artwork, you can see the inner beauty and passion. I can sense that you need to keep yourself closed off, but.. ." she moved her left hand to the Wing pilot's chest, "When I feel your heartbeat, I know that you are human and crave the contact that has meant everything to you." She lowered her hands and smiled.

"I'm going to go back to my report now. It was nice meeting you, Kirei."

The two boys walked out of the room with Kirei right beside them. They carefully walked up the stairs to the second floor of the safe house and stopped in front of one of the doors. The aqua-eyed Arabian knocked on the wooden object in front of them, "Duo, you in there?"

"Yeah, come on in.. ."

The door opened and they stepped in. Duo lifted his head to see his two friends and a girl that clung to WuFei's arm. His violet eyes grew wide at the sight of the girl, "Oh my god!" he stood up and ran over to her, "I am SO sorry for earlier today. I was running late and now my lover is pissed at me for being late.. ."

"Duo, right?"

"Yeah?"

She held out her hands and started to feel around his face. Like that of his koibito, Duo was startled by the unexpected touch. He relaxed and sighed, "I'm really sorry for being rude.. ."

"I sense that. But I also feel that you are very kind, but bouncy." She moved a hand away from the American's face and put it behind his head, "Nice braid. I get the feeling that it means a lot to you."

"Yeah, it does.. ."

She smiled, "But the most important things you'll keep in your heart."

"Yeah."

She pulled away, "Before they take me to meet the last of this group, my name is Kirei."

"Nice to meet you."

"You too." They walked out of the room and headed down the hall again. They stopped in front of another room and once again the blond knocked on the wooden object.

"Trowa? You there?"

"Yes, come in angel."

The blond opened the door and smiled happily as he did so. He saw his Latin lover on the windowsill with his flute in his lap. "Trowa, I'd like you to meet Kirei Tenshi."

Trowa rose from where he sat and approached the girl, ".. ."

She moved closer to the Heavyarms pilot and put her hands to his face. He jerked a little and looked at Quatre for help.

"It's all right Trowa, she won't hurt you."

He nodded slightly and tried to block the haunting memories. The girl gently moved her fingers along the boy's face, picturing his features. She smiled, "You are very kind, just like Quatre." She felt his hair, "And you have a bang that falls over one eye. Which leaves a lot more mystery to you, but only those with key to your heart will learn the rest of that mystery.. ."

She pulled away. Trowa stood there speechless, what she was saying was true and the one that held the key to his heart and soul was his blond angel.

WuFei smiled at his two comrades, "I'm going to take her home now. The note I left said that we'd be back within an hour and a half."

"It was nice meeting you. All of you.. ." She left the room with the Shenlong pilot.

That night, Quatre and Trowa were curled up together in their bed as the moonlight shown through the lavender curtains. Trowa could swear that if the moon shown on the blond just right that he would look like the angel that he claims not to be. As the moonlight made its way around the room, the Latin boy tightened his grip on his lover for the fear that his god would take him back to the heavenly place.

"Trowa, wasn't Kirei nice?"

"Yes, well for the two minutes I saw her."

"I want to understand."

"Well, you see you brought her in here and every 60 seconds is a minute.. ."

"Not that!" he hit him in the chest playfully.

"Then what?"

"Kirei. I want to know what she goes through."

"Why don't you just ask?"

"Because, if I did that would be rude. Besides I need to know what it feels like."

"What do you want to do?"

"I would like to be blind for the weekend."

"Come again?"

"I'm going to tie a bandana around my eyes, and require the assistance of my friends."

"All right, we'll try it tomorrow then."

"Thank you."

"For what?"

"For being the best person I could ever love.. ."

The green-eyed pilot lowered his lips to the other boy's head and kissed the baby soft blond hair. They stayed in each other's arms and fell asleep.

The next morning came rather fast for the blond pilot. He smiled at his lover that lye next to him, "Trowa," he whispered and shook him slightly, "wake up. You need to help me."

The Latin pilot opened his green eyes and looked at the Arabian, "What time is it?"

"7:30am."

"Okay." He sat up and retrieved his clothes from the dresser, "Do you still want to go through with this?"

"Yes, very much. Are you backing out of helping me?"

"No. It just feels weird. The thought of you not being able to see hurts me."

"I'm not really blind, it's only for the weekend." He moved closer to Trowa and kissed his cheek.

"Quatre, I don't have anything to tie over your eyes. You might want to ask Duo."

"All right." The aqua-eyed boy quickly got dressed and dashed into the Deathscythe pilot's room. He giggled a little as he looked at the couple.

Heero was lying there normally with the exception of the fact that he was holding the end of Duo's braid and Duo was in the process of falling off the bed while talking in his sleep. He appeared to be saying; "Hey Heero, I want pie. Give me pie. Give me the pie and you can take me.. ."

The blond again giggled and approached the bed. He shook Duo slightly, "Duo."

He opened one violet eye, "What.. . I want sleep now.. . I was having a nice dream."

"About pie?"

"Kind of. But it's what we DID with the pie. Man, I love pie."

"I get it. Um, I need to borrow something."

"Something kinky or something normal?"

"Normal. I need one of your black bandanas."

"Oh, why?"

"You'll see."

"Okay." He sat up and attempted to stand, but plopped right back to the mattress, "Uh, give me a minute, Q." he rolled on his side being very careful not to hit Heero's hand that held the chestnut hair. He leaned closer to the Japanese boy's ear, "Heero.. ." he said in a rather annoying feminine voice, "Come and kill me.. ."

Heero started to jerk and released the hair. The Deathscythe pilot sighed in relief that his lover didn't wake up.

"Now, lets get you that bandana." He walked over to his dresser and bulled out one of many black bandanas. He handed it to the Sandrock pilot, "Here ya go."

"Thanks. I'll let you go back to sleep now."

"Nah. I'm hungry now and" he walked back over to the bed and kissed Heero on the lips. The Wing pilot opened his eyes slowly at the first sign of Duo's lips touching his, "it's your turn to make breakfast.. ."

"I know." Heero groaned as he sat up.

Quatre smiled at his two friends and then headed back to his room. He walked in and showed Trowa that he had gotten the item in question.

"All right, I'll ask again, are you sure?"

"Yes."

The Latin boy nodded and took the piece of cloth from his small lover. He placed it over Quatre's eyes and tied it in the back, "Can you see?"

"Not at all."

"I see."

"That's the point, I can't."

Trowa chuckled. He could easily sense that Quatre was trying to make him look at the positive side.

"Okay now Quatre. Before we actually try moving around the whole house like this, lets start small and walk around the room."

"All right."

The uni banged pilot moved and stood in the doorway, "All right. Move your hand to your left and down."

He did and felt something soft, "Is this the bed?"

"Yes. Now take a few steps forward." He waited until the blond was done moving, "Bring your hand forward."

Quatre nodded and set his hand on a hard surface, "The dresser, right?"

"Very good. Now, come to me by following the sound of my voice."

Again Quatre did as requested and once he stopped his movement, he felt strong and warm arms around him. He smiled, "I love you too, Trowa.. ."

The green-eyed pilot placed a gentle and loving kiss on top of the soft platinum locks, "Lets go down stairs for breakfast."

"Yeah. Guide me, okay?"

"You have nothing to fear." He took the blonde by the arm and led him into the hallway.

"Trowa, I feel steam on my face."

"It's just WuFei taking a shower."

"Oh. I never realized how hot he has the water.. ."

Trowa again chuckled at his lover's comments. "Quatre, do you want me to walk down the stairs with you or guide you."

"Guide me."

"All right. Let me go down the stairs first." He quickly made it to the bottom and looked up at his lover, "Okay. Take your right leg and bring it down, slowly. Also take your right hand out and grab onto the banister."

Quatre slowly stretched out his arm and grabbed the banister, then brought his foot down. He continued the process until he too made it to the bottom.

Trowa took his angel's hand and kissed it. Quatre giggled, "Can we go to the kitchen now?"

"Yes."

They walked into the next room, the smell of fresh pancakes and bacon filled the air. Heero was standing in front of the stove making the last batch while Duo sat impatiently waiting for his breakfast.

Trowa brought Quatre over to the table and sat him down. Duo quirked an eyebrow, "Hey Q, why is my bandana around your eyes? That is unless it's a very kinky reason, then tell me later."

"It's nothing like that. I wanted to know what Kirei felt like so, now I'm blind."

"That's not a very bad idea Winner." The Chinese pilot said as he came into the room. He sat next to Quatre and looked at him, "Are you planning on telling Kirei about this?"

"Maybe. I don't know, do you think she would get offended if I did?"

"Hm.. ." WuFei pondered the question for a brief moment before speaking, "No, I don't think so. She told me that she wished that 'normal' people could try and understand what she and others like her go through. I think she would be flattered that you went through all the trouble doing just that."

Duo smirked, "Are you jealous that Q thought of doing this and not you?"

"What are you talking about Maxwell?"

"It seems to me that you a thing for Miss Tenshi. Which means since Quatre thought of doing this little experiment that he'll get the points and you'll be sitting there on the curb."

The onyx eyed boy blushed, "Excuse me, I do NOT have a thing for that girl!!"

"Then why are you blushing, Wu?"

"I'm not!!!!!!!" he turned a deeper red.

"Yes you are!! Heero, look at WuFei and tell me that he's blushing."

The Japanese pilot turned around and looked at the red faced, Chinese boy, "Yeah, you're blushing."

"See, told you."

"You have a three second head start."

"Wha?!"

"1.. . 2.. ."

"EEP!!!!" he got up from the table and started to bolt.

"3." WuFei got out of his seat and proceeded to chase the American all over the house.

"Trowa?" the blond questioned.

"What?"

"Is the food done?"

Heero, over hearing the question brought a plate over to the Arabian.

"Smells great Heero."

"Arigato."

CRASH!!! SMASH!!! CLANG!!! THUD!!!

"It sounds like they're killing each other.. ."

"TAKE IT BACK!!!!"

"No, it's true and I don't lie, so can't!!"

SMASH!!!

"I'll give you one more chance, take it back!!"

"No."

"You asked for it." he reached behind him and grabbed Duo's Sotsugyou M tape, "Take it back or I'll throw this down the garbage disposal.. ."

"~NNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~"

"Well, what's it going to be. Taking it back or your beloved fan sub tape."

He pouted, "I take it back.. ."

"That's better." He threw the tape onto the couch and walked back into the kitchen.

"Cheater.. ." the braided boy muttered.

The weekend went by rather quickly and the five boys were back in school. Quatre couldn't wait to talk to Kirei and tell her what he had discovered. "Those who are plagued with eternal darkness can see more than those who take the gift of sight for granted." He kept that fraise in his mind the whole day, but also through that whole day no one had seen Kirei.

"WuFei?" the blond asked as he approached his comrade, who was lying on the couch.

"What?"

"Did you see Kirei at all?"

"No. She might have been sick. If I don't see her tomorrow, I'll go to her house and check on her."

"Okay.. ."

"Are you all right?"

"Something just doesn't feel quite right."

"Try not to think about it."

TBC