As my family awoke the morning of October 20, 2002 I looked down upon them from heaven. My mommy was the first in my room. I know I scared her, I am sorry mommy. She carried me to the living room where my daddy was crying for help. My big sister Kaylah was also there. As my mommys tears fell upon my face I tried to tell her that it was time for me to go back. But I guess she couldn't hear me. Kaylah was on the phone with someone, and daddy ran outside. He too was crying. I didn't mean to make them sad.
An ambulance came and a lot of people I didn't know. They took my mommy and my body to the hospital. I heard the doctor tell mommy he was sorry. She cried even more. Daddy came to the hospital too. Then I saw all of my grandparents, my aunts, my great-grandparents; I tried to say hi and tell them that I love them, but no one could hear me.
I quietly sat by my mommy's side as everyone held my body and cried. It made me cry too. He told me that it was time, and I thought everything would be okay. I didn't know how much me going Home would hurt my family. I asked Him to let me go back, but He said I couldn't, that He needed me.
After everyone left the hospital, some really nice man took care of my body for a few days. He even called my mommy and told her I had passed from Sudden Infant Death Syndrome.
Then my family and I went to a beautiful place where my body was. I was dressed in a black and white suit that was very soft that mommy brought to the funeral home. The bed they put me in was very warm and soft. A lot of people came and they were all crying too. There were beautiful flowers all around and pretty music playing. It really was a special day, I just wish I could have told everyone how sorry I was for hurting them.
I continue to watch over my family. I really miss being in my mommy and daddy's arms. I miss everything about them. I know they miss me too. When they cry for me, I cry too. Michael, Rita, and I do play together sometimes, and Kaylah talks to me alot. I try to let them know in my own ways that everything will be okay. I do hope they know that I will always be with them and that I will always love them. |
