Kienan was always a good baby. He was easy to please and loved to laugh. He and his big sister had the most adorable laughs, no matter what my mood was, they could always make me smile with one of their laughs.

Kienan started developing into a handsome little boy. I always said he would be a heartbreaker with the girls. I just didnt know that it would be my heart that got broke. He was so loving and caring and he loved to cuddle. I'll never understand how his father could say that he never really loved him. How can a parent not love their child?

    After being separated for a little over 2 yrs, my children's father and I got back together. I thought I was doing the right thing, but I couldn't have been more wrong. The following information is taken right from the court papers. This way it can not be said that I lied or exagerated.

-On April 8, 2000, At approxamately 5pm Kienan supposedly fell down a flight of stairs, hitting his head. Thomas did not seek medical attention. (he later told me that he might have pushed him.)

-At approxamately 7pm Thomas tripped and fell on Kienan. He was gasping for air and Thomas noticed several bruises on his abdomen. Unable to console him, he pushed Kienan with all his strenght causing him to fly across the room, into the arm of a recliner with such force that his feet flew off the ground. Thomas again did not seek medical attention. (he again later told me that he punched my son as hard as he could in the stomach for pretty much no reason at all.)

-At 7:45 pm While getting Kienan readyy for bed, Thomas noticed that both his head and abdomen were bruised and he was still gasping for air. He again refused medical attention.

-While Checking on him at 8:42 pm, my son was not breathing and Thomas finally called 911. He arrived at the hospital at 8:54pm and was pronounced dead at 9:50 pm. At the hospital the following conditions were observed.

_Echymosis to the forehead, outer pinna left ear, inside outer aspect of right ear, anterior left hand, left wrist and right anterior right wrist. Echymosis ereas were noted on the anterior abdomen. The scrotum was edematious with hematoma and echymosis. Echymosis was also noted on the lumbar buttocks region. The autopsy found cause of death to be blunt force trauma to the abdomen. It was ruled as a homicide.

Thomas had been beating on my son all night and had some of the lamest excuse ever heard. He was charged with 2 counts of second degree murder, but was able to plea, which satisfied one count. I'll never understand how this is fair, because while the man that my son was supposed to be able to trust and look up to was slowly beating the life out of him, where was his chance for a plea bargain? Thomas was only sentenced to 18-35 yrs which may satisfy the system, but will never satisfy me.

I gave my children a kiss that night expecting to come home from work to see them safely lying in there beds. I told them I loved them and thank god My son said it back to me.(for the first time.) I had no idea what kind of monster my husband could be or that I would never see my precious baby boy alive again.

The next time I saw him, was when the doctors were working, trying to bring him back. His pulse came back for one brief instant, As if to say goodbye mommy. His little body was just too broken and bruised. I cried and screamed for him to come back. I even rocked him for awhile after, but he was gone. It tore my heart out to leave the hospital that night wiothout one of my children.

For his funeral I was able to give him most of his favorite toys, Including a picture of his sister, but I will never be able to give him his favorite blanket. It was taken as evidence and it breaks my heart to know he has to go without it. So now I sleep with it for him.

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE.... LET'S STOP CHILD ABUSE NOW.... TOO MANY CHILDREN ARE DYING AND TOO MANY HEARTS ARE BROKEN.....