Part
11 of Deep ^__^… but before you start, there is some doubt in part 10 I must
clear up first. I say Totchi realize he had fall in love with Kaoru, telling Die
about it during the break up… this break up refer to the second one (the final
break up), the one in the special version. It not the first one where Die ditch
Totchi in part 1!!! Sorry if I had cause confusion. ^^;
Deep, deep
Part
11
Shinya
had left with Die after they had finish doing the paper work. He had not been
talking much since he had his conversation with the bassist, since he realize
that Die had decide to broke up with Toshiya because the bassist told him that
he is in love with someone. Die gave up because he did not want to compete with
Kaoru, his best friend?
All
sort of worried starts to overcome Shinya, he begin to think toward the worse
part. Believing that Die had choose him because Toshiya does not want Die
anymore. Thinking Die is taking him as a substitute of Toshiya? Wanting Shinya
because Toshiya had rejected him?
Toshiya
and Kaoru was the only two in the studio after the others had left. Toshiya was
busy keeping his belonging preparing to go home with his mind wondering had he
forgotten to tell Shinya something? With his mind occupy, Toshiya did not see
the ‘busy’ Kaoru whom was acting funnily behind him, trying to find some topic
to attract the bassist attention.
“
Opps…! I didn’t tell him that Die does not know whom the person is!!” Toshiya
exclaimed out of a sudden referring that he did not tell Die the person he love
is Kaoru. “ Hope he won’t tell Die about it.”
Toshiya
was blushing. He was wondering what would happen if his bandmate knows he is in
love with Kaoru. Thinking whether they would make fun of him, somehow wishing
that Kaoru and him will… but then he hope Kaoru would not know about it. Toshiya
was changing his face expression from shy, happy to many others, looking like an
idiot.
Happily
smiling, Toshiya make a quick turn hitting his bass hard right at Kaoru injure
arm. Well, he did not expect Kaoru
to be standing behind him.
Kaoru
did not give out a sound, his eyes were widening looking at the bassist and his
head was sweating.
“
Are… are… you okay Kaoru!?” Toshiya was almost speechless. “ I’m so sorry… I’m
didn’t know you are behind.”
“
I… I’m alright…” Kaoru pretend to be not in pain. “ But I think practice will be
cancel tomorrow.”
“
I… I will inform the others.” Toshiya sweatdrop.
Later
the same evening, Toshiya and Kaoru had dinner together since Kaoru was unable
to cook for himself; he invited the bassist to join him to dinner. They were
enjoying with one another accompany until they met their vocalist in some pub.
Toshiya was the first one to spot Kyo whom was sitting alone in the corner, whom
seems to be in bad mood.
“
Kyo.” Toshiya yelled the second time before he was given a
replied.
“
What?”
Toshiya
and Kaoru both look at one another, with surprise. Kyo was really in VERY bad
mood according to the reaction he had given them.
“
What’s wrong with you?” Toshiya asked concern.
“
Nothing.” Kyo replied and stand up, picking his bag up. “ I’m going back.”
Toshiya
look at Kaoru, at Kyo then back to Kaoru. “ I think I better follow him back!”
Toshiya said to Kaoru who agreed. “ Bye!”
“
See you!” Kaoru was left behind alone, somehow part of him was cursing Kyo for
ruining his chance to be with Toshiya but anyway, he was still concern on what
going on with Kyo.
Toshiya
enter the apartment behind Kyo, the later was heading straight into his room.
Toshiya wanted to stop him but before he could say something, the vocalist had
already slammed the door close leaving a daze Toshiya standing
unmoved.
“
Kyo?” Toshiya slowly open the door.
No
replied from the vocalist.
“
Kyo??”
Still
no replied.
Silent…
“
Kyo…?” The bassist was getting a bit of impatient.
No
replied again…
“
You are such an nuisance.” Finally, Kyo had spoken. “ Come
in!”
A grin was spot on the bassist face, he
quickly slip into the room and right onto the vocalist’s bed, taking a place
beside Kyo who was lying straightly.
Kyo moved his body slightly to let the bassist rest his longer
body.
“
What wrong with you?” The very first question asked when Toshiya lay
down.
“
Must I really tell you?” Kyo pouted. “ I don’t think so!”
This
time it was Toshiya pretending to get upset of what Kyo had said, thinking Kyo
will give in to him. Kyo laugh a little knowing the bassist trick, using a
pillow he throw it at the bassist who immediately fought
back.
After
a while, they lay back on the bed, exhausted. They laugh together suddenly,
thinking of their childish act.
“
Toshiya…” Kyo call suddenly; sound serious. “ You and Die, I mean you two were
together… before?”
Toshiya
nodded, suddenly remember of the past. “ Why?” He asked
uneasily.
“
What are you when it come to sex?” Kyo asked. “ I mean your
position.”
This
question seems to have surprised the bassist. “ Mmm… I’m always at the bottom.”
Toshiya was blushing this time.
“
Ever since you start doing it with Die?”
Toshiya
nodded again.
“
What make you think you prefer at the bottom?”
The
question was getting too much for the bassist; Toshiya face was already red. He
was quite open when it comes to the topic of sex but when they question was on
him; it was totally a different thing to him.
“
It nothing to do with prefer, it just a kind of natural to me to be the ‘woman’
when we start doing it. I mean we will know well what position we will be, if
you are not sure of it, you will properly end up arguing for the rest of the
day.”
Kyo
giggle, that what he and his lover had ended up that day.
“
Why are you laughing?” Toshiya asked puzzle. “ Why are you asking me this?”
Toshiya
finally realized why Kyo was asking him so much about the ‘position’ matter.
After a long persuading, Kyo finally give up and tell the bassist about it. Kyo
and his lover had just argue over the matter earlier on at the pub, that why
Kaoru and Toshiya had found a VERY bad mood Kyo alone
there.
“
Don’t you dares tell the others about what I had asked you!” Kyo find himself
regret for telling the bassist about it when he see how the bassist was
grinning. “ Or I throw you out of my apartment!!”
“
Okay! I promised!” Toshiya said and
slowly get off the bed, walking out of the room but leave his last sentence
before closing the door. “ But you can’t blame me if they ‘GUESS’ it
themselves.”
Kyo
throw his alarm clock toward the closing door, cursing the bassist.
The
practice had been cancel throughout the whole week due to Kaoru injured arm. On
the very same day where the news of practice cancel was announced, Kyo was
nowhere to be found. Properly to what Toshiya had thought, Kyo would be spending
his week with his lover figuring out about their
‘position’.
Kaoru
in the other hand had used his injure arm as an excuse, asking the bassist to
stay with him so that they can discuss about their work. But Kaoru did not
expect all his hope was ruin when Shinya and Die appeared together with Toshiya
at his apartment.
“
Four man living together in an apartment!? Ugrr…” Kaoru
muttered.
“
Huh? What are you saying?”
“
Nothing…” Kaoru answer, putting up
a smile.
Shinya
was the only one who was keeping very quiet. He had been watching over his lover
and Toshiya all the while without their notice. His doubt was still occupying
his mind, making his mind to think wild.
Does
Die still love Toshiya??
Die
smile at Kaoru and Toshiya when they joke about something, but in Shinya eyes,
all he sees is his lover smiling sweetly at Toshiya. Die happen to pass a can of
drink to the bassist with Kaoru passing the bassist some cracker, but Shinya had
see it as Die and Kaoru trying to win the bassist
attending.
I
know! I know he love Toshiya more than he love me!!
Shinya
heart was screaming. His heart was fill with jealousy toward the bassist, he
mind had goes wild until he felt pain in his hand, he found himself breaking the
cup he is holding in his hand. His blood was already dripping down when he came
to realize it as his band members was holding up his hand and asking whether is
he alright.
What
am I doing!? What am I thinking about just now!?
Shinya
felt frighten at himself suddenly. He realized he was not himself just now; his
mind was seemed to have been control by something else. He was so frighten… what
going wrong with him? He was scared. Tears was formed in his eyes, he was so
scared of himself suddenly.
“
Shinya, you will be alright!” Toshiya say concern when he see the drummer
crying.
Shinya
stare at Toshiya blankly. The
bassist was busy treating Shinya’s wound with care. Toshiya had cares so much
for him, how can he have the thought of hate toward the bassist?
Struggling…
Unknowing…
Confusion…
What
wrong with me? Didn’t I already know how frightening jealousy could
be?
To
be continue…
By
Tsmrhara
[4/5/2002]
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Poor Shin-chan starts to think wild again! ;;__;; Die days of suffer coming
soon!! Hee… Hee… Hee… >__<