Deep, deep…
Part 4
Die was happily preparing dinner and waiting
for his lover to arrival. The drummer had call him
earlier on saying that he will be coming over. It had been a week since he last
spends his day with the drummer.
And it was entire the bassist fault.
Feeling annoyed suddenly upon remembering
this. He just wants his lover to spend more time with him instead of Toshiya.
But it was our fault isn’t it Die? We have to make sure
Toshiya will be happy before we enjoy our own happiness.
Die pouted. This is what his lover had told
him, he had agreed at first due to the pleading from Shinya but he never
thought that thing will ended like this. A few months had passed but… when will
the bassist be happy?
What if he remains unhappy for his
entire life? Do you intend to accompany him forever?
Shinya stood outside the red head apartment.
Having deep thought, he was in turmoil. How is he going to tell Die? Telling
him that he had agreed to be the bassist’s lover?
Afraid.
Dilemma.
Pain… Sorrow…
It was my retribution.
Die put down the last plate of dish on the
table, he look at the clock then at his watch, making sure that the time is
right. He was wandering what taking his lover so long to reach.
Again, he pulled back his hand when they
were about to reach the doorbell. He just cannot understand since when he had
become such a coward to face the reality? Finally taking a deep breadth, he stretch out his finger again.
The doorbell rang. Die immediately rush to
the door and open it. His mood lightens up as soon when he saw the drummer.
Without waiting for another minutes, he pulls his
lover to the dinning table.
“ You cooked all this?” Shinya asked in surprise.
“ Just for you, my love!”
The lovers sat down to have their dinner.
Chatting, laughing just like any other time when they are together. The smile
on the drummer face, the grin from Die when he make
fun of his lover. It was just like the pass, yes like the pass when they are
happily together but this feeling is only what Die is thinking now.
Shinya was smiling as usual but deep in his
heart, he was crying. The red head is treating him so well, he even cook for
him and he know Die is learning cooking just for him because the red head wants
him to eat more so that he won’t be that skinny.
“ Shinya?” Die called again wondering what he’s lover was
thinking about.
Shinya regain his attention, Die was looking
worrying at him. The drummer take a deep breadth, he know he have to take out
all his courage now before hurting more people or ruining the whole band. But
will the band be fine if I…?
“ Die… actually I …”
The music was loud, peoples were dancing
madly at the dance floor, and some of them were making out at any corner they
could find. Pairs and pairs of lover hugging, kissing, laughing, teasing one
another and all these was making the bassist sick. He had come to the bar an
hour ago since Shinya left. He thought he needs somewhere that is noisy to cure
his loneliness but he was wrong. Maybe some beer will help but still it isn’t
working.
He knows what he needs. He needs someone who
is willing to accompany him. Who will that person be? Shinya?
Die?
After having a few mug of beer, the bassist
was feeling a bit of tipsy. Instead of feeling much better, he felt worse now.
The alcohol was making him more frustrated. He felt bad, he is feeling worse, and
he is feeling painful, not because of the alcohol but his heart. He felt bad
because of what he had done to Shinya and he felt painful because he was
shrugging between what is right and wrong.
Die should be responsible for all!
Shinya is the one who snatch him away!
But Shinya cares for me. He is not
acting, he really care for me. I can feel it!
Toshiya covered his face with his hands. The
question was shrugging in his head again! He felt like crying, he wants to give
up his revenge, he wants to but why can’t he stop?
“ Someone help me…” He muttered out softly, tears dripping down
his chin.
“ Toshiya?”
The bassist’s heart skips a bit when he felt
someone tapping on his shoulder and calling his name. He quickly wipes his tears
away and turn to face that person who he already knows
who is it from the voice.
“ Kaoru-san.”
The leader takes a sit beside the bassist
and orders a mug of beer. He had noticed the bassist’s eyes, he knows Toshiya
had been crying but he decides not to ask anything. He remember the red head
telling him that he had broke up with the bassist so Kaoru assumed that it must
have something related to the red head.
“ You’re alone?” Toshiya asked, trying to find a topic to talk
about.
“ Not until just now.” Kaoru answer, feeling relax as the
quiet atmosphere finally breaks down. “ I’ve been
throw behind by Die just now after he receives a call from don’t know whoever.”
The leader tensed up, realizing what he had
mentioned just now. He notice the bassist quieting
down again. Toshiya stared at his mug of beer, he know whom that person who
called Die.
“ YOU WHAT!?” Die exclaimed.
Shinya took a few steps backward and stared
at his lover. The red head look so frightening now that drummer was afraid he
might dash to the bassist’s apartment and killed him. Instead of what the
drummer was thinking, Die took a deep breadth and order Shinya to sits down
followed by him. He lowered his voice noticing that his lover looks frighten.
“ Shinya, you can’t do this. What do you think I dump Toshiya
for? Because I wants to be with you and now you telling me you’re going to be
his lover until he found someone he really love!?”
“ I know but it all my fault so I …”
“ So you decides it without discussing with me.”
The drummer looks confused now. He
understands what his lover was trying to say but he had promised the bassist
and he does not want the bassist to get hurt again. Shinya clutched his hands;
he had make the promised and he does not want to break
it.
“ Sorry Die, but I have decides to follow what I had promised
Toshiya.”
The red head narrowed his eyes.
The drummer keeps quiet.
“ FINE! Then do whatever you want!” Die speaks up suddenly and
walks into his room slamming the door behind him.
“ Die…”
He’s angry, of course he will. Stupid Shinya, you
deserve to be treated like that.
Shinya tried to stop his tears from dropping
but failed. He cleared the dishes on the table, the dishes that his lover had
cooked for him, the dishes that shows him how much Die
love him. Now he had hurt two people instead of one.
Toshiya!! Yes, you’re the main causes and I had to
settle the problem by myself before that silly Shinya do something foolish.
Kaoru opened his eyes and stared around at
the unfamiliar environment. This is not his bedroom neither is it a familiar
one, so where am I? The person who is sleeping beside him stirred his body and
brings him back to attention. He stared at that person, his eyes widen and he
sits up instantaneously.
“ Great…!” Kaoru mumble.
To be continue…
By Tsmrhara
Kaoru: Great!! ^__^ I’m out! Thanks to
reader who request for me to appear!
Author: Beg for feedback! @_@
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