Deep, deep

( Special Version )

It’s time for you to choose

Who you love…!

Shinya runs away like mad.

Die did not go after him.

[“ Die, go after Shinya.” I said. ]

[“ It’s no use, he won’t listen to anyone now, you should know.” He reply.

What Die said is truth, although it’s not a long time I know Shinya but I know he is the type of person who will not listen to anybody when he is angry. If you try to talk to him at this time, you will only end up with a worse result.

Shortly then we realize we are left together alone, standing facing one another, looking at one another. Our face redden, our smile follow by then we start laughing at our silly reaction.

Maybe it was now that I finally realize my feeling… Die will be a good friend to anyone or at least for me.

It feels so nice to have his accompanied.

Always thinking that it was love, therefore at the time he left me…

I have mistaken the sadness for pain.

People used to say: ‘one can know whether it is love or like is by knowing the pain. If it is love, you’ll feel the pain but if it is like, you’ll only feel sad!’

When he left me, I feel sad!

Yes, I feel sad when Die left me but I did feel the pain only that it was not for Die.

The painful feeling…

The day I woke up alone in an unfamiliar hotel room, which supposes to have two of us.

I know I was with him that night, but he left me alone in the next morning.

I didn’t know why he left me alone, until now there was still no explanation because he thought I don’t know about it.

Why I have not realized at that time, I was feeling pain… so painful in my heart.

When did I start loving him?

Kaoru…

“ Toshiya, are you alright? What are you thinking about?” Die asked looking at me who was staring deep into don’t know whatever.

I looked at him again; I give him a smile and nod my head. He seem to feel relief, maybe he was worry that I was badly affected by the incident earlier on. So I was now sure of my feeling toward Die, how should I tell him now? I was about to fall back to my thought again when I felt Die holding my hand.

“ Sorry Toshiya, for everything.” He said.

I can see the sincere in his eyes. He was truly sorry about everything this time. Anyway, I know I would not blame him anymore.

“ I accept your apologize and this will also be the last time. I hope there’s no need for another time.”

He finally let out a smile from his heart. A real Die’s smile that I have not seems for a long time.

“ So what do you intend to do next?” I asked.

Die let go of my hand.

I know he would and that’s what I wanted.

“ Do you believe what I had said just now?” Die finally speaks out. “ You have a place in my heart.”

I nod my head.

“ Shinya had say the right thing too, how could I said I love him if I also love you at the same time.” He continues. “ But the fact is that I do love both of you, I may be unfair to tell you this but I have to.”

“ You will choose Shinya.” I cut into Die word.

He smiles. He knows I will guess the right thing.

Our laughter follow by, and that’s will be an ending of our love and hate. When we realize or when we know what we should do, thing will always lighten up for us. We have know well, when the next day arrival, we will become friend – real friend.

“ One last time…” both of us said almost at the same time.

Die gave me a hug, which I hug him back tightly. Our lips meet and our last passion kiss ended shortly.

“ I love you…” Die said softly beside my ear. “ I never say it to you when we were together, so let it be the first and last time.”

“ I like you…too”

It will always be a time for you to choose who you really love…

I slowly walk to the lift, Die following behind me. “ So what do you intend to tell Shinya?” I asked while pressing the button.

“ The truth.” He replies.

“ Everything? Including our kiss and hug just now?” I said jokingly.

“ Do you think I will?”

Both of us laughed. “ I doubt you will.”

The lift door open up, I turn and say goodnight to Die before entering the lift. He stood unmoved and greets me back. The door slowly close up when Die suddenly block it with his hand. “ Toshiya!” He added while the door opens up again.

“ Do you have someone you love now?” He asked.

I think for a while as the door starts to close back again. Die hesitates for a while before he let go of his hand to let the door close.

Before the door was thoroughly close up, I nod my head and Die smile.

“ You must be happy too!!” He exclaim as the door close up.

I stood in the lift, suddenly feeling my face blush. Why I think of him when Die ask this question, I wonder.

The image of Kaoru appear in my mind… should I tell Die this?

| The End |

by Tsmrhara

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