Hello and welcome to my world. I had no idea what I was getting myself into when I started this four days ago. As most of you will see, this is very typical of something I would do. I have put forth all my efforts and come up with what I feel is a nice perspective of people and animals in my life.
In about forty minutes, it with be February 9, 2001, three years to the day that I tried to commit suicide by overdose. I lay near death for three or four days. All of my memories of those days are pretty much gone. I remember my friend Cherie shaking me and I cried. I also remember the advice my sister gave me on what to do when they pulled the catheter out. Didn't get to use it that time Sis, but it came in handy this last October.
I wonder at this time how, more than anyone, my parents, Daddy & Linda, perservered through all of it. I know that my manic depression was the cause, but I also played an active role by stopping the much needed medication. I owe my life to my family, who when I was down and out, once again stood firmly by my side. They all reassured me by their presence that I was a Moore and we would make it through this together.
So many things led up to this low point in my life. The major cause being the loss of my beloved mother, Barbara. I have set a whole page aside as a tribute to her. She would have been 63 on the 23rd of this month. She has been gone almost seven years. The two things I miss about her the most are: she always had a response whether it was what you wanted to hear or not, but you knew she believed it; and her loving touch when you didn't feel well. She died from breast cancer on September 11, 1995.
I have so many close friends. I am truly fortunate in that respect. I am not a person of quantity, but quality, and the people in my life are people of the highest degrees of quality. I have to say thanks to my best friend, Jeni. She has been a true friend. Always someone who is not afraid of saying what she feels instead of what you want to hear. Also, thanks to Gary K., who has helped me level this crazy head out as well as take care of my physical body much better than I ever did. I do not have pictures of all my friends and family, but hopefully soon I will and they will be added.
I could write a novel, but this is all for the beginning of this website. I am glad to be alive and I thank you for taking the time to visit my website. Please sign the guestbook so that I will know you have visited.
Love,
Brian
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