Joann's Poetry
Welcome to my poetry! This is a chance for me to post my poetry on my site. I write about a good many things, most of which will come across as very ambiguous unless you know exactly what was going on when I wrote a specific thing. For this reason, I will not date my poetry. Feel free to interpret my work as you will.


An Unrequited Love Song

This is just another unrequited love song
Because that’s the way the story goes
A pathetic little love song
To ease the pain and calm my woes
I emptied into you
Across the distant shore
I melted into you
But to you I was just a whore
My bitterness remains
Quite firm, rigid, and fierce
My love for you disdains
Like a cold sharp evil pierce
You left me wanting more
You tried to run and hide
You plunged my heart right to the core
An ache into my side
This is my unrequited love song
A plea out to the abyss
It’s just a silly love song
And now I’m truly pissed


Behind Your Eyes

Behind your eyes
I can look inside
And see what it is
You try so hard to hide
The beauty inside
The burden you carry
Behind your eyes
Is where it lies
I want to tell you
What is behind your eyes
So that you too can share
In the wonderful mystery
That is you
But you refuse to see
What’s behind your eyes
You cover your faces
And run inside
You don’t want me to look
Into those chocolate brown eyes
Because you know I can see
What’s behind your eyes


Between The Lines

If you could read
Between my poetic lines
You embody me
If you could love me
As much as
I love you
You enthrall me
If you could watch the sunset
Or travel to the moon
I’d wait for you
If you could put away
Your books and flowers
You would be
If you would take the chance
To trust me
You would find it


Bitterness Bites

Bitterness bites
Like the cold winter wind
It consumes your soul
As it sinks through what you are
It becomes you
But it does not become you
For you are the winter wind
Blowing me away
Blowing me off
At every chance you get
Feeding back the sting of your wariness
To the one who cares
And will sit back idle
At the chill of your embrace
And harsh bitter words


Chopin

You call me in the night
Through your rich melodies
And transparent phrases
You sing me to sleep
And rock me like a baby
Your music caresses me
For I am the Queen of the Night
And your music fills me
With such indescribable passion
That overwhelms me with such love
I can hardly keep it in


Deleted

Deleted
The memories of you and I
What once was
Erased with a click
By some corporate executive
Who decided my account was worthless
My love for you now worthless
An all too powerful reminder
Of what is over
Nothing left for me of you
My cherished memories gone
The corsage still sits on my dresser
But that is all I have
And I miss you
I miss that look in your eyes
The way you told me you loved me
Without ever saying the word
And now the past is deleted
My love for you deleted
Your flannel shirt
Never to be wrapped around me again
In the chivalry of that night
Our first date
Your ball cap stays
Turned backwards
Over your now long brown hair
As a reminder to me
Of who we were together
And where we’ve come from
Even though you tossed that cap
When it was over
You wear the new one just the same
And the memory of me
Haunts you still
For you did not want to hurt me
But you did
And it’s all deleted
Both love and pain
A sigh in the past
For that brief moment
I loved you
My love for you is deleted
Now like it never happened
And I wonder now
If it’s really you I miss
Or maybe it’s just your flannel and cap


Desidero

Desidero esser con voi che
Danneggia come una lama li
Desidero che lo amereste
Ma non sarà mai me

I wish that I could be with you
It hurts me like a knife
I wish that you would love me
But it will never be me


Die Schmerz und Erleiden

Die Schmerz und Erleiden
Der Qual die meine Seele füllt
Wenn ich nicht du hast kann
Muß so ich Sterbe

Oh the pain and suffering
The agony which fills my soul
If I cannot have you
So must I die


Fantasy or Nightmare

You are a figment
Of my imagination
And I of yours
Together fitting perfectly
Yet remaining but a dream
A curse in words
A dream by night
Why is it
That the line is so vague
Between fantasy and nightmare


Forever

When a person finds
Something magical
It doesn’t matter what it is
Only that that moment lasts
For as long as it can
Because good feelings like this
Don’t last forever
And I wonder what time will tell
As I long to embrace you
And feel your arms around me
In a moment of true security
You make me want to believe in forever
But forevers prove
To come and go
But I don’t want to go
I want to be close to you
For however long
Forever proves to be


I Care Not

I care not if you hurt me
With or without spite
Your tender words desert me
And now they seem quite trite

I care not if you rip my heart
Or scatter words of stone
Your two-edged tongue has done the trick
And now I’m left alone

I care not if you toss at me
Words to scar and shame
Your weakness is within you
And I am not to blame

I care not if you can’t abide
Or even say your goodbyes
Your words can take my life from me
But will not free your lies

How much I care you’ll never know
As a tear sheds from my eye
It’s enough to never know
We’ll never say goodbye


I Haven't Felt That Way

I haven’t felt that way
Since you looked into my eyes
And made my heart stop
As I gave it over to you
Not noticing that I wasn’t getting yours
And now heartless Still heartless I try to go on
When all my love is yours
Because I couldn’t help myself
From falling for those brown eyes
And melting like a popsicle
I haven’t felt that way
Since you said yes to my love
For that brief moment
You were mine
And I thought I could make you happy
But now you’re happy
And without me
Where is my happiness
I haven’t felt that way
Since you didn’t know
And I couldn’t wait
For an answer I didn’t deserve
After having no heart
And nothing more to give
As you took it all away
Not realizing what I had given you
A piece of me
I haven’t felt that way
Since I watched my precious gift
Ripped in two
With it’s gushing blood
And the grimace on your face
As you walked away
Into the arms of another


Journey

I am light as a feather
And I float on the breeze of ecstasy
I remain with you
As two hearts are joined
Developing every day
Into something so fascinating
And I am enchanted
By the magic of your spell
That draws me into your soul
To become lost in you
I’m lost for words
As this ride continues to seize me
I choose this path
I choose to journey with you


Never Trust The Pen

Never trust the pen
It glides around
With lavish words
To draw you in
And spit you out
The pen has a one-tracked mind
It cares not who it hurts
Only that it gets what it wants
The pen deceives
And then it leaves


Our Moment

O how my heart aches for you
And longing for your presence
My heart distilled
My eyes grow pale
My skin is cold
Wanting to be in your arms
And feel your kiss
To sit in bitterness
Hoping for release
Pouring out my soul
Out of me
And into you
All around
As passion takes hold
As I search and wait
Not knowing
When our moment will come


Pense à vous

Je suis triste et pensif quand je pense à vous
O passante aux doux yeux
Pourriez vous être le rêve idéal poursuivi en vain
Serais-tu donc l’amie
Qui apporterait le bonheur au poète isolé

I am sad and thoughtful when I think of you
Oh passerby with gentle eyes
Could you be the ideal dream pursued in vain
Might you be the one to bring back happiness
To this lonely poet


Peu de mort

She stands at the edge of a cliff
Teetering on the verge
Waiting for the moment
When she can mesh with the sky
And greet the wind
With bliss on her lips
And the breeze in her hair
She will float
Peu de mort
As it takes her away
And leads her soul to heaven
Rennaisance


Self Esteem

Because I never had any
I lag behind
Finding myself worthless
At times
Never really depressed
At least not lately
And totally not suicidal
Just wanting to pack up
And head for Bermuda
Because that’s where he is
In my dreams
Because I never had any
And it came with the package
Of kisses and dates
Which I had
Only as I watched my friends
Claiming that I was waiting
For the one
Because I never had any
I still hold on to the memory of him
Something I never really had
And why I still want
Is baffling
Because junior high was 8 years ago
And he was only a few years later
The immaturity
Because I never had any
Not then
Because my attempts were drowned
And the pain fed
The people backstabbed
As I watched the little girl slip away
Scarred
So I never had any


She's A Jealous Mistress

She's a jealous mistress
Wanting every moment
You can't move past her
When something else comes along
She sucks you in
And ruthlessly spits you out
Yet in her you have strength
Without her you can't move on
You want more of her
Even as she rips you apart
She is always with you
Haunting
Judging
Thoroughly consuming
A fire in the midst of soul
Her flame burns bright
and heats from within
She speaks to you in ways
The ways in which no other can
And moves you
Swoons you
Totally overpowers you
She is the music
That your soul longs for


Silence

Silence
That’s what you deserve
Nothing
As your question comes back
And you wonder what you did
To receive my cold shoulder
Because bitter people
Love company
And I was yours
Or so you thought
But I will not dangle
On the end of your rod
I will not come out
For your amusement
So you can laugh at me
Because this is a laughing matter
It took 5 fuckin months
For me to come to my senses
And just stop
Because caring isn’t just by words
If you call “How are you?” words
And I’m tired of hoping for more
I’m tired of wanting you to be there
I’m tired of hoping that you care
Caring is something you show
And you don’t
So I won’t
And I’ll walk away
To pretend you don’t exist


The Horizon

The horizon ends
With a hint of red
Knowing that’s where you are
Under the same big sky
And over the horizon
Wanting that horizon
Not knowing what lies ahead
Terrified of that horizon
What is over the hill
May not be a joy ride
And the treasure found
May be fool’s gold
I am not a fool
And yet I’ve entered
The game of fools
Who choose to walk ahead
Blindly
Looking for that horizon
Searching for that horizon
Longing for that horizon
Where the ends meet
And the gold is discovered
For all it’s worth
Real or not


The Imposter

You wouldn’t understand
You never could
Though I thought you would
How I thought we were entangled
Like entwining branches
Meeting for the first time
On a warm summer’s day
Never to part
Oh never to part
But you were just a passerby
Masquerading to me like you cared
You impersonated him
And had me fooled
That you were a kindred
That your soul would mesh with mine
That my eyes would dance
And my heart would leap
Forever never parting
You twist the knife deeper
Again not realizing what you’re doing
Or even what you’ve done
Because I could never tell you
And you could never figure it out on your own
You’re too dense for that
So you sit there
Still indecisive
As I grow impatient
To set things right once and for all


What Dreams May Come

In sleep I see you
As you are
No more a person
But a soul
In sleep you came to me
Like a foggy mist
And translucent snow
In sleep I wait for you
In longing angst
Too close to reach for you
Too far to see
In sleep I know you
As you know me
No more awake
But only in my dreams