I do not own the song “Ticket
to Heaven” by 3 Doors Down.
WARNINGS: Mentions of Gozuboro x Seto. Character death.
Ticket to Heaven
Seto’s POV
I’m walking a wire, it feel likes a thousand ways I
could fall
To want is to buy, but to live is to die and you can’t take it all
I laid
in my bed, curled up in my sheets. I
could feel every breath becoming harder as I laid on
my sheets. Who would know that Seto
Kaiba, the most powerful man in
And everything is said and done I won’t have one thing
left
What happened to everything that I ever known
In my room alone, I can see
how my life is going to end.
I’m alone.
No one to
stand with me.
No one to
watch over me.
No one to
give a shit about me.
I can hear the priest now…’He
died as he lived his life….alone.’
No one to
mourn me.
I guess it won’t be that bad.
I don’t need Yugi or his cheerleaders behind me. Who needs them?
All he gave me was this ticket to
heaven,
that ticket to heaven, said to lie in the
bed that you make
Damn Gozuboro! I bet you he was the one who gave me this! It
wasn’t enough that Gozuboro touched Mokuba. He had to put his slimy hands on me! He had to sleep with me. Use me like his own personal pleasure toy!
Now I’m restless and I’m running from
everything,
I can’t sleep. I haven’t
slept for days. Why sleep now? It won’t be long before I’ll be sleeping for
eternity. I’ve locked myself away. Isolated myself from everyone and everything.
I’m running from everything,
It will be easier on Mokuba
if he doesn’t see how bad this virus has made me. How thin and pale I am! How
hot the fire burns in the pit of my stomach!
I’m afraid it’s a little too late
A hacking cough shook my thin
frame. I’ve come to the realization that
I’m going to die.
Fine.
It’s not like anyone will
mourn me.
The phone beside the bed
rings and it is the guard at my door.
Someone is here to see me.
Who could be here to see me?
Who cares about me? After the way I treated the people I’ve encountered, who
would care enough to come see me in my final hour of life?
“What’s his name?”
“Ryou Bakura, Mr. Kaiba.”
What the hell does he
want? I told the guard to send him up.
It’s a voices lie, innocents die
The people
in my life has always lied to me. My step-father told me that he would
never hurt me. He lied.
People die all the time.
And all your dreams, and all your money they don’t
mean a thing
Ryou Bakura walked in. His hair falling over his shoulders. He walked in timidly.
“Hello, Seto. How are you feeling?”
I tried to lift my head, but
I couldn’t. I could hardly breathe let alone lift my head.
I’m so sore.
“What are you doing here,
Ryou?”
Ryou sat on the bed beside
me. “I’m here to be with you. I heard
you were sick.”
When everything is said and done, you
won’t have one thing left
“Nobody gives a shit about
me, Ryou! Why do you care?”
Ryou leaned over to the
pitcher of water on the table by my bed.
He poured me a glass of ice water. “Are you thirsty?”
“I don’t want you to do this!
Go away!”
I curled up into a tighter
ball. When is the end going to come
already? I just want this burning in my
veins to stop. It’s been going on far too long.
Ryou sat down on the bed
again. “Is that what you really want, Seto?”
What happened to everything that I ever known
I used to do everything for
myself! I never have had to depend on anyone for what I wanted! Now here comes
this nanny! If he thinks he’s going to burp me and sing me a lullabye, he better keep dreaming!
All he gave me was this ticket to heaven,
Gozuboro deserved more than what I gave him! He should have
been pushed out of a building much higher than KaibaCorp. I should have given that bastard a taste of
his own medicine. I should have.
But, I didn’t.
That ticket to heaven said to lie in the bed that you
make
“Yes, Ryou! Now go away!”
Ryou put a soft hand on my
arm. “But, you’ll be alone. Do you
really want to die alone, Kaiba?”
I coughed hard. It’s getting harder to breathe.
Something
inside me….was afraid of dying. I’m
Seto Kaiba! I shouldn’t be afraid of anything!
Maybe it was the pain of
breathing that made me tell Ryou what I did. I don’t know.
“No, Ryou. I don’t want to be
alone.”
Now I’m restless and I’m running from everything,
“I know you haven’t been in
school for a while. I was worried about you, so I decided to come see if you
needed anything.”
My body began to shake
uncontrollably. “Pain….”
I heard Ryou grabbing my pain
medication off of the table beside the bed. He opened the bottle.
“Seto, you have to sit up to
take your medication.”
I wanted to turn my head, but
I couldn’t. “I’m going to die anyway,
Ryou! Why should I care if I choke?”
Ryou gripped my arm lightly,
but it hurt. I know he didn’t mean it.
“I only want to help you,
Seto.”
“I DON’T NEED HELP!”
I’m running from everything,
I heard Ryou sniffle behind
me. What is it this time?
“What now?”
Ryou sniffled. “Seto, I don’t want you to die.”
“Why do you care if I do?”
Ryou wiped his eyes free of
tears. “I care because you are a person like the rest of us, Seto. You always talked down to Joey. You have a
rivalry with Yugi. You separated yourself from everyone. I don’t know what you feel about me,
Seto. You don’t have to feel anything
about me if you don’t want to. You don’t
even have to tell me. But, I heard that you were sick. Very
sick. Nobody knows why.”
I sighed.
“Ryou, nobody knows why for a
reason. I didn’t want to bring shame and
disgrace on Mokuba. I didn’t want to disgrace
the Kaiba name.”
HA! The Kaiba name….
The Kaiba name gave me this disease….
Why should I protect it?
Mokuba still has the name.
Nobody can know.
I’m afraid it’s a little too late
Ryou helped me sit up. A Blue Eyes White Dragon attack would be less
painful on me than this. My muscles are
sore. The room is starting to spin as I sit up.
My bathrobe slides up as I’m
trying to sit up when Ryou gasped.
He saw my arm covered in
lesions.
When I sat up, I pulled down
my sleeve.
Ryou bit his lip and it
trembled. “Seto, you have…….AIDS?”
It’s a little too late
With a great deal of pain, I
took my pain pill. Within minutes, the
fire running through my body quelled a little.
All he gave me was this ticket to heaven,
I leaned back on the pillows
that propped me up on the bed. I let out
a sigh.
Ryou took my hand. “How? How did you get this?”
It hurt to clench my hand
into a fist, but I did it anyway. “My
step-father Gozuboro used to sexually abuse me, Ryou. I let him use me so he would keep his hands
off of Mokuba! And now…now…I’m better
off paying the price rather than my brother.
I’d rather be sick than lose my little brother.”
Ryou’s face flooded with pity.
Nobody ever pitied me before!
“Seto, it’s not your fault.”
that ticket to heaven said to lie in the bed
that you make
“It IS my fault, Ryou! It’s my fault I’m sick!”
“But, you sacrificed yourself
for your little brother.”
I sighed. “I would do it
again if I could, Ryou. If it meant that
I would keep Mokuba safe, I would do this for him again.”
Ryou looked over at my table
full of medicine. “You’re very brave,
Kaiba. You’re more brave than I had ever thought.”
Now I’m restless and I’m running from everything,
I shrugged. I may be brave,
but, look at this room.
Empty.
No one to
miss me.
No one.
I can’t have Mokuba see me
like this.
Mokuba shouldn’t see me like
this.
I’m running from everything,
“Ryou, I don’t need to hear
lies!”
Ryou shook his head. “I would
never lie to you, Kaiba. When I came in, you told me you didn’t need
anyone. You do, Kaiba. You need someone.”
I’m afraid it’s a little too late
It’s too late for me already. It’s too late for me to play brave, fearless
Kaiba. Ryou sees right through me.
“All right, Ryou. You see
past my bag of tricks. You’re right. I
do need someone. I didn’t want to be alone. There. Does that make you happy?”
All he gave me was this ticket to
heaven,
Nobody ever cared enough
about me to visit me when I was sick or care about my needs.
that ticket to heaven, said to lie in the bed
that you make
“Seto, I want to be here for
you. I cared enough about you to come check on you. I was really worried about you. The others
told me to reconsider coming to visit you.”
“What made you come to me?”
Ryou looked at me with teary
eyes. “Because I know that nobody else would.”
Now I’m restless and I’m running from everything,
I laid my head back on the
pillows, struggling to take a breath. It
hurt, but I had a feeling the pain wouldn’t last much longer.
I’m running from everything,
I’m sorry I have to leave
you, Mokuba. I love you. Never doubt that for a second. I’ve prepared for your
financial future. I have secured your place in my company. Nobody will be able
to take control over KaibaCorp because of my
Will. You’re safe.
You’re alive. Keep living, Mokuba.
Do it for me.
I’m afraid it’s a little too late
Ryou’s POV
“It’s too late for me,
Ryou. I have little time left. I need
you to promise me something, Ryou.”
Seto’s eyes closed. His
breathing became quiet. I could hardly hear him as he spoke. His body started
to twitch as his body started to die.
“Make sure…..no one knows
about my illness, Ryou. Never tell….anyone.”
I shook my head. Poor Seto. “My lips are sealed, Seto. No one will know.”
Seto started to gag a little,
his voice becoming quiet and unclear.
“And…tell Mokuba….I love him.”
Seto’s eye struggled to open.
“Thank you…for staying with me.”
I nodded. “Go to sleep, Seto.”
Kaiba’s eye closed and his
body went limp against the pillows. Kaiba breathed out his last breath.
It’s a little too late
Tears pooled in my eyes. At
least Kaiba wasn’t alone in his last moments.
I brushed Seto’s brown hair back. I stroked Seto’s cooling cheek
delicately. “Goodbye, Seto. Goodbye.”