Indifferent

Watching you stand there
Smiling and laughing
Breaks my heart over again.
To see you get on
Be perfectly happy
(or happily perfect)
Wrenches my heart
And drags me to tears.
Why won't you notice me?
See that I'm here?
I'm crying but you don't
Seem to care.
Are you too blind to see
That I put the blade
To my wrist?
Or are you just not
Considerate enough
To care?