Essence of Onyx: ::Onyx's bare arms, which looked as if they'd been cast in a mold of perfection crossed slowly, one over the other, resting across her chest. Her cigarette had long since been spent, and with a soft puff of air from her mouth, it was sent sailing end over end to stop on the ground near her feet, and she squelched the smoldering tip quickly with a toe of her boot. She realized only after she'd taken to her little show of acrobatics, that her previous "prop", that tiny jeweled rose, had been resting on her knee until she'd upset it. She found this highly odd; Onyx didn't just overlook things unless she was being very well distracted.. but what was the source of distraction in this case? Hosaka.. could it be? She fell into deeper thought then, working out the puzzle in her mind, and doing so in an overly analytical way, as was her custom. He'd happened upon her by a random stroke of luck, each probably heading in opposite directions through the secluded forest. And he took the time out of his travels to speak to her.. he hadn't stopped for any reason other than wanting to; so easily he could have continued on his way. He said he needed company, and that he was lonely, he wasn't dealing well with being alone, and asked for her thoughts on the matter without employing any means more direct than implying, that he was asking for something else at the same time. That complete crock of shit, "I have no real woman that I'm looking for right now. I'll just wait for time to show me the right girl." ..blahblahblah.. but she just didn't buy it. The way he looked at her, his gorgeous, imploring eyes almost never leaving hers, those little half smiles, which seemed all too uncharacteristic, yet she welcomed all the same, all those things hinted at what she was helpless to suspect, though the skeptic in her simultaneously demanded that it was nothing. And for how many hours now had they been talking? She'd long since stopped keeping track of the time. Was she reading too far into it perhaps..? Her mind whirled with a myriad of questions; truthfully it had been a very long time since she had felt like this, had thoughts like these, questions, wonders, worries.. just what exactly was going on anyway? She settled on waiting to see what would be rather than either dismissing it or getting her hopes up prematurely, as that was the safest, and neither too optimistic nor pessimistic route. Her eyes flit skywards for a moment, and she was somewhat startled to see that the sun had sunk low in the sky. The sentient pastel rose twins wandered their way back to Hosaka again soon afterward, and narrowed slightly, as if she was studying something, then softening back into their entirely uncharacteristic, as far as the stereotype of Onyx went, warmth, once more. She crouched and picked her prop up off of the ground where it had fallen, twirling the jeweled flower between thumb and forefinger before extending the delicate blue hand and tiny gift to Hosaka, still seated on the ground, placing it lightly on his knee nearest to her.:: Keep it, and let it help you remember what I've said. Things aren't entirely hopeless, though for the present time, the loneliness might lead you to believe that they are. Just look at me.. I've been alone for hundreds of years, easily, and not even I have given up on things completely yet. The right woman for you is out there somewhere Hosaka, and fate will lead you to her, sooner or later. It's up to you to seize the moment, when it does. ::She squeezed his hand lightly, a gesture that was as affectionate as she was going to allow herself to give. A soft demure smile graced full obsidian lips, and she released his hand, and stood up again.:: If it was meant to be, I'll see you again, someday. And if not, it truely has been a pleasure, and I don't find reason to say such things sincerely, at the meeting of strangers, usually. ::And she took small steps backwards, willing herself to turn around and away, though something inside of her had commenced to ache, at the prospect of leaving. It was odd, and ironic, to be feeling that, knowing that when he'd first appeared, her immediate reaction had been an intense need to make herself scarce. The smile wilted after she finally found the strength to pull her gaze away from him, and she sighed quietly, not really seeing any need to strive against the few stinging silvery tears that had begun spilling from her eyes, as soon as her face was turned, and her journey down the dusty path resumed, alone.::

Mun notes: When I put this little category in, when I first posted this log, I was kinda hoping for some reflections other than what it's going to end up with, but things change and so here I go anyway. I was kinda hoping that this charrie would take the place as most important, in my little list of about four that could be considered main characters. Tiphareth, is sad, and tired, and she's seen way too much shit for me to really get into playing her and be happy at the same time. I wanted to have someone else to focus on, someone fresh and new with a blank story line, so that I could have fun RPing again. But grand plans rarely ever can see eye to eye with reality, and so of course the actuality of Onyx fell short of what I'd intended for her. I can't really get into RP at all anymore, it seems like. It's not Onyx's fault, or any other mun's fault. It's just how I've digressed, I guess. There are these limits I've set as far as my own RP goes, as for who I can and can not bother myself to get IC for.. and I shouldn't have the need to do that, but I'm left with little else to do. It's sad but true that hardly a person left on AIM is worth my efforts. This log was nice before it died. I wish kinda, that it would have continued on, because RPing it was actually fun again, and that's not something that happens often by any stretch off the imagination anymore. It was left hanging forever, and so I wrote up that ending to it a couple days ago, to give it some much deserved closure, trying to leave the option open of something similar continuing on later, if the need arises. I don't know if it will or if it won't. But I couldn't totally kill it. I enjoyed it too much. I really like this character, she has potential for tremendous growth, the way I dreamed up her personality.. with just enough little quirks to keep her interesting. But I can't really, or rather, I won't allow myself to waste my time going into descriptions of character depth for just anybody, and all I ever get anymore, as far as requests for RP goes, are from just that. Some random n00b who could never mean anything significant to Onyx. I don't want to waste my story line on that shit. I'd rather just not RP her. So that's what it's come down to.