| Shadows of Yesterday |
| Where are my dreams of yesterday, are they hidden? Or buried , deep, in the sorrow of my pain. Did they lose form and sink into the distant darkness, still warm. I close my eyes and see you, still feel you, still hear you Your scent fills my room as if you were standing In my shadow. My days now spent filled with the darkness, the blackness, Of a hundred lonely nights. Peril and darkness surround me, I am lost, In the shadow of my dreams. |
| Falling Tears |
| All around me the dark memories start to gather. My dread grows as the dagger of your words, Stab deeply against my heart. They wound me, and slowly my lifes blood drips, Into my once beautiful Earth, Which I must now call prison. In pain, I cry out your name, while deaths cold shadow grabs at my hand. My cries go unanswered, because all I have left, Is only your name. Now alone, my cascade of tears falls Upon my hollow chest. What have you done? All these games, did you find them fun. Devoured by your obsessions, Your passion throbbing, strongly. For everyone but me. Dark emotions surround us, and We have forever lost our way. It hurts to be the one who still needs, Still bleeds. And these tears will not stop falling..... |
| I have traveled through many realms, But I finally found my way. Your world has been a joy for me, I have truly enjoyed my stay! So let me sprinkle my magick dust, To bring you much delight. My magick will last all of the day, Through the darkness of night. But now my friend, I must fly away, To spread some more loving glow. But just remember, you have been sprinkled By Spirit Magenta Rose!!! |
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| Friends are really Angels, who pick us up,When our wings are too tired to fly.They magickally appear when we feel alone and the moon is blue, And that Magenta Rose, is what I have found in you! |
| We dance in the love light of a benevolent Mother Goddess, We enjoy the simple things in life, My Sisters and I. We share the journey, Many Blessings, Magenta Rose. Thank You. |
| Poem for me... By Magenta Rose |
| IN MEMORY OF LOST LOVE...GOOD BYE MY SILLY RABBIT! |
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| I try so hard...to let go of the memories, this pain. The feel of your touch, the look of your face. Try to forgive you, move on, and try not to blame. The hopes and dreams I can't seem to erase But it buries itself into the deepest part of me. Denying me the luxury of forgetting, of escape. There is still so much feeling of you left inside. Broken promises, loss of love, of life, of friend. When will it go away? Will this ache ever end? Like a broken winged bird, that can no longer fly. I am stuck in our dream and wondering...Why? |
| WHO WAS HE??? |
| He was my North, my South, my East, and West. He was my working week, my Sunday rest. My noon and midnight, my talk and my song. I thought our love would last forever, so strong. But once again he came and proved me Wrong! |
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| The words he wrote, the words he spoke...vowing his undying love for her! All lies, deception, a terrible abuse of a heart. He has hurt her so badly, left her so scarred! There can never be another...that would take trust...and she does not even know...what to do, where to go, how to start! |
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| His smile, just like a childs, so lovely and fair. His eyes that capture and shimmer like angel's eyes. I hide from that reflection, afraid, but he does not care. I thought he was true love, but he was only lies. I ignored the pain he caused my heart and soul. I ignored him making my life out of control. I can't ignore the love left in my heart, For the man I thought he was, His promised forever. I can't ignore I believed he was my always, And now he is my NEVER! |
| ALL OVER |
| To live and learn what I have learned, You must open your eyes and see... That the one you think that loves you, May not be who they seem to be! I am learning to trust those that really love me... Loving ME...just for being ME..... I learned that the one that said he loved, would rather watch me BLEED! |
| I HAVE LEARNED |
| You played with my mind, and juggled my heart! Your lies, I believed...and it tears me apart. My heart is filled with a deep sorrow and sadness of misunderstanding...when my feelings were crushed by your words......your lies......your abuse..... Like the most gentle butterfly, under the mightiest stone! A tear drops because you treated me as a puppet, to bend at your will, my love so true, you intended to KILL! |
| CRUSHED |
| ONCE UPON A MAN |
| I once met a man with wandering eyes, I believed his promises, believed his lies. But, I fell in love and all was lost. I vowed to love and stay at any cost. Hours late, turned into days I tried to accept his decieving ways. Perfume scent and lipstick on his shirt Whats that honey? Oh its nothing, Someone just hugged me at work! The union we shared, when we said "I Do" Came tumbling down, before I knew. My soul was shattered and the tears started flowing, I lost "My Love" without even knowing. So I opened my eyes, and decided to leave. The words came out, and he could not believe. My heart was broken, confused, and afraid. I left my life running, but my heart wanted to stay. But with the truth of the matter, all the hurt. There was really nothing left to say. Except, GOODBYE! |
| GIVE ME A REASON |
| Give me one reason I should not hate you. I was there for you, and you used me. I gave you love, you abused it! I gave you trust, you betrayed it! My spirit broken, my heart molested! You took a part of me that can never be replaced, And shattered it into a million pieces. Then discarded it like yesterdays trash! What did I ever do to you? To deserve such pain, and WHY, Did it make you feel good,what did you gain. Because you enjoyed tormenting me? You took from my life all my LOVE JOY LAUGHTER HAPPINESS And replaced them with SHAME PAIN LONLINESS EMPTINESS How can I ever forgive you? You took something from me I can never get back. Now I am unable to experience, unable to feel... No love without fear. No trust without betrayal. No happiness without cynicism. So give me one reason...because I can't think of one! I try to hate you, I hate what you did... but my heart will not let me! It is over, all done. No going back, this I know, Too many lies, a man so cold. But sometimes, my heart just doesn't want to let go! But my brain kicks in, and says NO! NO! NO! |
| JUST A BAD DREAM |
| Days and nights I spend asking myself, How could I have fallen for his act. This play, well rehearsed, he really knows his part! I really loved him, believed in him. Deceptions, denial, betrayal will break your heart. But to lie about love, that will shatter your essence! The trust is gone, the faith disappeared. He was not the man he pretended to be, He said I was his great love, and he was, my soul mate. I keep waking up with the wish, the hope, It was all a bad dream, and I am still whole. I walk around "OUR" home in a trance like state, I forget to eat, I forget to sleep, I forget you are gone. I try to forget how to feel ...but I know this pain is real. Aching actually, the type of ache... Where every moment you think it will kill you, And every moment...you are amazed that it doesn't! But you sometimes wish that it would. I know I made the only decision that could be made, With what I discovered it was the only right thing. But it still does not make the pain go away. |
| FRAGILE THINGS |
| Blown glass, fine crystal, china plates, butterfly wings, all fragile things...and like a bull...you had to enter my shop! Like fragile things falling from a shelf, like a dream has died. A heart that has been broken, a soul that has been shattered. So be careful with each other, because you never know, Who you may destroy, by careless acts, by false emotion. Promises broken ,into a million pieces...vows broken. And every time I think I have swept them all away, Have cleared away the damage of your words spoken. I cut myself on another broken piece of discarded wife. To be truly shattered is to have nothing left but dust. Shattered in a way that no amount of time or focus... Will correct the hell I am having to survive. I am living in an animated state of half death. Where my life exists in moments of horrid pain...a life which I can share with no one...because I have lost trust! |
| A 5 YEAR COLLECTION OF POETRY INSPIRED BY A BROKEN HEART |
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| BATTLEFIELD |
| I will never forget your last hateful words to me, That this was a fight that I would never win... that I was nothing, and that you never lose! Well, I never expected our lives to become a battlefield! There can be no winner...Can't you see? This kind of fight should never be, it,s a sin. I have suffered through years of your abuse, I can see that now, have you not done enough? You can hurt me no more, I have put up a shield. I have never had to fight a fight like this before, Did not know loving you was about keeping score. If a fight is what you want...I will not run. I will put my heart on hold, learn to be tough! Is there no love left? Can we not call a truce? Because in this kind of fight, there is no real victory. Only the fact there are no winners, we both shall lose. |
| LINK TO WHY ??? |
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| I would like to see engraved inside every wedding band BE KIND TO EACH OTHER. This is the golden rule of marriage and the secret of making love last through the years. Treat your spouse with the same kindness you extend to others, the same courtesy. I can not remember one time that my husband said, Hey honey, lets both take the day off and go have some fun! It takes two, and how can love survive if you are the only one? |
| Deep within, although you deceived me, part of me will always love you...I will say goodbye to you, try to wipe away the hurt, rise above, try to keep only the happy memories that once were. Farewell, My Silly Rabbit, My Forever Love. |
| Alone, in my pain...My soul is sad. My mind, adrift...My heart gone bad. Every night, I cry...at the edge of my bed. Sadness known...of emotions...past dead! |
| ALONE |
| JUST WORDS |
| WHERE YOU ONCE LIVED |
| In our home, where you often sat, the sound of your voice, your laughter, both linger and echo still. The emptiness that you once filled, is vacant. Where you often sat, I find myself gazing, in fully - empty emotional moments. Hold on, I tell myself, he is gone, as the tears from my soul rain forth. Rivers flowing down my cheeks, mindful of millions of moments, now past. And I wrestle with the reality, the grip, the love, that held tightly to the rock that I can no longer claim. The storm is wailing, weaving, a wicked yet, wise way. To go, a path to follow, floating forever, lost in the fantasy of your company. Where you once often sat. |
| PRAYER FOR YOU |
| None of us will ever have all the answers to all the questions life presents us with. Life will never be a pain - free experience. Continue to seek what you need and want to find in life, and know that the more you can be who you really are, who you were really meant to be, the more peace and contentment you will find. To honestly enjoy life, life requires that you live it honestly from a deep-seated and heart-felt soulfully spirited self that gently opens its arms, in and through integrity and kindness...to all who cross your path. Open your soul, heart, and mind to all the riches that are buried deep within you for you to find. It is too late for us, but please stop hurting yourself and others. Healing is a life long journey, and I know you can become the man you were really meant to be! |
| Could one have seen, through your smiles gleam, a future so grim? I do not think so! |
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| WHEN DOVES CRY |
| She crys for someone who never cared enough to cry for her...She thought his love was real...hers was!!! |
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