The clothes are still sitting in the dryer,
The dishes still in the sink,
I need to stop worrying,
I need time to think.
Who was I yesterday?
Who Am I today?
What is normal?
When will this pain go away?
Someone help my misery
Someone please feel my pain
Someone hear my cry's
I can't have a day like this again.
I can't have another day of torture
I can't bear another day of "What could have been?"
"what will never be" and "What has happened to me?"
I need to wake up, I need to be pain free.
But this is my life now, this is what I am to be
I am a bereaved mother,
my baby has been taken away from me.
This is the reality, what I have to face,
I have to go on now, I know there is no time to waste,
I have to be strong now, put on a brave face.
My family is shortened
half of me has faced death,
This is what I must live with
Until I take my last breath.
Forgive me for hurting, for this is now me,
Forgive me for not being what I used to be.
Sueann Cox ~Angel Danielle's Mommy ~
Septmeber 25, 2003
I want to say I love you, But how will you hear?
I want to feel you with me, But how do I know you are near?
Please come and see me, assure me you are free..
Please give me the strength to be what I need to be.
Don't leave me wondering,
Help me to know why
Ask God to let you come to me,
Ask God Why He makes me cry..
I know it is not the fault of God that you are gone
And I know that it is not mine,
But please come to me,
Let me know that you WERE here and you were MINE!
Or is this a dream, this nightmare of my life?
Or was it real and unkind?..
That you were here with me?
And now you are in a new world, far beyond what is in my mind -
Far beyond where I imagined you being when you were given to me as MINE
Are you still mine? I can't still have you!!
Yes you are mine, but now I share you
You are still mine but I share you with the Lord,
I no longer have you with me to hold.
Be safe my sweet baby, play with the angels, but why not someday,
Someday when I am lonely, maybe even someday when I am old,
Give me a sign you are ok,
that will be more precious to me
Than Zillions in GOLD!!
Sueann Cox ~Angel Danielle's Mommy~
Septmeber 25, 2003
When God calls little children to dwell with Him above,
We mortals sometimes question The wisdom of His love.
For no heartache compares with the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world seem so wonderful and mild.
Perhaps God tires of calling the aged to His fold,
So He picks a rosebud before it can grow old.
God knows how much we need them, so He takes but few
To make the land of Heaven more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult though sometimes we must try,
The sadest word mankind knows will always be "Goodbye".
So when a little child departs, we who are left behind
Must realize God loves His children,
Angels Are Hard To Find!
"The mention of my child's name
May bring tears to my eyes,
But t never fails to bring
Music to my ears.
If you are really my friend,
Let me hear the beautiful music of her name.
It soothes my broken heart
And sings to my soul".
Author Unknown
Why must I grieve silently,
When my heart is so loudly screaming
The emptyness I feel is consuming me,
Oh God, how I wish I were dreaming.
The silence around me is deafening
For nobody knows what to say
To comfort this agony I'm feeling
Since my daughter went away.
Each day the sun continues to rise
And the earth is still turning though my world
Has come to a screaching halt
No one can ease my yeaarning.
For a part of me has vanished
And a part of my heart has died
And no one can hear my heartache
Or feel the turmol I carry inside.
And I'll go on grieving silently
And exist on a different plane
And I'll keep my love for her deep in my heart
Until we see each other again.
Sandi DeMars
Time does not fly when someone's sad
the days seem so endless now
Weeks and months just seem to drag
But we get through each day somehow.
We know God has you in His care
For this we fall on bended knees
But we would rather you be here
We cannot have just what we please
In faith we wait but waitings hard
To see you once again my love
But we believe in God and His word,
We will be together up above.
March 23, 2006