Every Day

Every day, I feel like I'm in the way
Because yesterday
Someone walked around me
To cry on someone else's shoulder
And it makes me wonder why I'm here
And why didn't I just kill myself last year
Do I wanna be someone else?
No, I just wish I could be me.

I walk next to a friend sometimes
People walk up to them and say hi
But I'm never really noticed,
I'm just there.
If I pretended I mattered once in a while
And maybe even fake a smile
And told them what I'm like
Then would they care?

-SilentSoldier 1/5/03