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There are 3 kinds of people in the world:
Those who can count....and those who can't.
. March 24, 2005 21h42
dammit. there's nowhere for my tagboard to go. remodeling is a must. poop.
♥,me
. March 23, 2005 23h29
Wow. What a trip. lol... gmama came over here to chill, then i flew back to "podunksville" with her. it was actually exciting. when we got to charlotte to get the other plane, we got to ride a little motor car thing!!! it was cool. everybody was looking at us like hey! i wanna ride too!!! it was fun. the little flight to chattanooga had like nobody on it. it was so little we had to walk outside and up some steps to get on. never done that before. did a lot of visiting w/ the fam. my cousin taught me a card trick. like 20 times. literally. if you want to see it, i'll be more than happy to show it too you. it's cool, really. i can read your mind.....ooooooo.
I got to drive my gmama's car. it's a friggin boat. and i had to drive it up a winding little mountain road. whoooo buddy. but the windshield wipers go at the rate that the rain falls. it's cool. lol. let's see....i went shopping a little at goody's...got a cuuuute pair a flats, and a couple shirts at Old Navy. i got a cool little kiddie watch at wal-mart b/c i thought it was awesome. it's from the heffalump movie, but cuter. haha the girl on the plane thought so too, so ha. it was a very good trip i suppose except for the airline lost my damn bag with all my new cool stuff in it. boooooooo. i hope it comes tomorrow. o yeah i saw ice princess and the guy was really cute. o i have another story. i visited my aunt at her work, and i guess there's this guy there that knows my whole family over there. so he comes out and he's talkin to my gmama and callin here cutie and stuff and i have to admit he has a cute son, so when they walk away gmama's like, wow. his son is cute. it was funny. aaaaaaaaaaand there are no cute teenagers in tennessee. it's official. i went like everywhere and i didn't see one!!! gracious. save that for ATHENS i guess lol!!! yeah. time for bed now. ask me ,b/c i really wanna show someone my cool new card trick. it got me the first time i saw it. its great. night buds. maybe i'll have my own toothbrash back tomorrow.......
♥, me
. March 19, 2005 22h55
Sometimes i feel like this. its almost the story of my life. close.
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
♥, me
. March 19, 2005 22h17
Someone alert the media; i have written in here 2 days in a row. what is the world coming to? ahhhh
Today was a pretty cool day. woke up at 9 something, had bacon and eggs and a honey biscuit for breakfast instead of the usual froot loops. don't get me wrong, froot loops are awesome, but change is good. i went to the mall with my mom and g-mom. i wandered around by myself most of the time, though. i went to NY & CO, but nothing i tried on fit me. it made me mad. but then i wandered some more, got an ice cream cone 
and then went to american eagle where i proceeded to find a cute skirt that my mom actually let me buy and two cute little t-shirts. i love t-shirts with cute little sayings on them. they make me smile. *smilie face here* i'm too lazy to type in the code for the picture. ahhhh but wait. there is such a thing as copy and paste!! et voila. une visage de bonheure. cool. anyone done apush hw yet? nope, didn't think so. soooo what to talk about......
and then went to american eagle where i proceeded to find a cute skirt that my mom actually let me buy and two cute little t-shirts. i love t-shirts with cute little sayings on them. they make me smile. *smilie face here* i'm too lazy to type in the code for the picture. ahhhh but wait. there is such a thing as copy and paste!! et voila. une visage de bonheure. cool. anyone done apush hw yet? nope, didn't think so. soooo what to talk about...... aha. i will tell no one about my exciting trip to the angus barn. cool. ok we went for my g-mom's bday because she's in town for a bit. soooo we drive over there and get seated and such and there's some prom people there. and i thought our prom was early!!!....... i swear the people in there have issues with water. they have a glass on the table for water with appetizers and what not. then right before you get your entree they bring you a huge glass of water, but yet they contine to fill up the little glass even when you're working on the other. crazy folks. i got a reeealllly good filet au poivre. quite tasty, but a bad choice for my sore throat 
ooo and they had grilled bread. it was crispy, but when you ate it, the middle oozed butter. it made me cough. ewww. how i dispise gourmet. i am such a bad excuse for a girl. i always heard that girls liked to have dudes buy them stuff and take them out to eat at nice places and impress with stuff like that. not me, oddly enough. we should go to sonic or something. get me a shake at cookout. not a filet. i suck at fine dining. i think i dropped a piece of steak in my lap twice. ahhhh i laugh at me ineptness. its a good thing i can laugh at myself, or i'd have serious issues. omg, they had automatic soap dispensers too. i was amazed. and i took an apple for good luck. it's supposed to give you good luck for a week. maybe i'll have good luck now. i hope. i think i'd need it more for the following week, when we're back at school, but whatever. good luck is good luck i suppose.
ooo and they had grilled bread. it was crispy, but when you ate it, the middle oozed butter. it made me cough. ewww. how i dispise gourmet. i am such a bad excuse for a girl. i always heard that girls liked to have dudes buy them stuff and take them out to eat at nice places and impress with stuff like that. not me, oddly enough. we should go to sonic or something. get me a shake at cookout. not a filet. i suck at fine dining. i think i dropped a piece of steak in my lap twice. ahhhh i laugh at me ineptness. its a good thing i can laugh at myself, or i'd have serious issues. omg, they had automatic soap dispensers too. i was amazed. and i took an apple for good luck. it's supposed to give you good luck for a week. maybe i'll have good luck now. i hope. i think i'd need it more for the following week, when we're back at school, but whatever. good luck is good luck i suppose.i'm excited about going to chattanooga this time. just me and grandmama! don't know exactly what i'm gonna do yet, but i'm gonna try and go shopping w/ Nicole, if she's not trapped in hw. then i get to fly back on my own i've never done that before! and there's a changeover too. i'm gonna freak out. maybe. anyway, time for my bedtime story before i go to beddie-bye. night tout le monde
i've never done that before! and there's a changeover too. i'm gonna freak out. maybe. anyway, time for my bedtime story before i go to beddie-bye. night tout le monde♥, me
. March 18, 2005 21h16
Wow. it's been a while, huh? well i guess a lot has happened, but i'm not gonna talk about it because it makes me stressed out and somewhat depressed. All i have to say is thank the Lord for friends like Stizzle, Jet-Li, and the one and only ass-shakin' Sara!!!
i am one crazy lucky girl. i ♥ my fabulous friends. funny funny funny. today was cool. went to health blugh and watched the rookie. fun stuff. went to apush...basically watched newsies. very cool i luv that movie cuz its a musical!!! and some guys in there are cute. yeah. k......lunch... the usual....cept i had an extra resees and no one wanted it. it won't kill you i promise. bnad was awesome cuz the power went out and we read music in the dark. and i didn't have to go to fourth period and take my vocab test. hahah. me and ashley and sara went to mickey d's after school for some healthy food, not. i went home to change and went to go play tennis. i got a story out of that!! i was sitting at a red light and there's this car with some middle/high school kiddies next to me and the kid in the back seat decides to be a jackass and makes kissy faces at me. so i look at him all odd and am tempted to flick the asshole off, but then he's like "i love you, do you love me too?" so i say, "no, sorry" because i felt like it and he give a thumbs up and drive away. odd bastard. sorry this is the place where i cuss away some feelings, so don't think i'm like this all the time, i'm not. played tennis, go home. go to mall with my bro and we went in the best store in the world, NY & Co. They got new stuff since last time i was in there and i wanted to BUY IT ALL!!!!! mwuahahaha. i wish.....when i get a job i will be able to expand my wardrobe. maybe i'll go shopping w/ Nicole when i go to TN. They would be awesome b/c i have debit card and no mother to pick out the dumbest clothes. hurrah.
i am one crazy lucky girl. i ♥ my fabulous friends. funny funny funny. today was cool. went to health blugh and watched the rookie. fun stuff. went to apush...basically watched newsies. very cool i luv that movie cuz its a musical!!! and some guys in there are cute. yeah. k......lunch... the usual....cept i had an extra resees and no one wanted it. it won't kill you i promise. bnad was awesome cuz the power went out and we read music in the dark. and i didn't have to go to fourth period and take my vocab test. hahah. me and ashley and sara went to mickey d's after school for some healthy food, not. i went home to change and went to go play tennis. i got a story out of that!! i was sitting at a red light and there's this car with some middle/high school kiddies next to me and the kid in the back seat decides to be a jackass and makes kissy faces at me. so i look at him all odd and am tempted to flick the asshole off, but then he's like "i love you, do you love me too?" so i say, "no, sorry" because i felt like it and he give a thumbs up and drive away. odd bastard. sorry this is the place where i cuss away some feelings, so don't think i'm like this all the time, i'm not. played tennis, go home. go to mall with my bro and we went in the best store in the world, NY & Co. They got new stuff since last time i was in there and i wanted to BUY IT ALL!!!!! mwuahahaha. i wish.....when i get a job i will be able to expand my wardrobe. maybe i'll go shopping w/ Nicole when i go to TN. They would be awesome b/c i have debit card and no mother to pick out the dumbest clothes. hurrah. Prom is going to kick butt. I'm rather excited at the moment that i have no date b/c then i can do whatever i want and make tons of mistakes as usual. I'm good at making mistakes to make people think i'm crazy and odd and i don't know. i have odd frantic moments when some people talk to me and i don't know what to say so that i don't sound dumb or idiotic. i probably do anyway. i care too much what other people think about me. i've had too many issues with people not really caring about me and using me and shit like that to not care. anyway, the person i would've asked if i had had more courage than i do already has a date, so that's out. o well i will see that person there. i'm sure it will be fun!!! maybe my mommy and daddy will let me do stuffs afterwards. fun. i'm really more excited than this computer shows. maybe i'm a stoic witch. no, i cry too much for that. yeah
i don't know what else to talk about except....no i have a lot to say, but i'll save it for later. when i'm on a plane or in TN bored as mess. or maybe when someone cares. k. night. if you're bored over spring break, call the cell phone. if you know the number, you're allowed to call. if you don't know the number, talk to me and i will determine if you are allowed to call. jk. ask s/o, but i doubt anyone will, but it's ok. i'm good at being independent. most of the time. goodnight everyone sleep tight!
♥, me
. February 22, 2005 17h12
Happy B-Day Catie!! wooot 13 right thurr
yes i know it has been i very very long time but somehow i doubt anyone cares. it is for my personal use only right now i suppose. anyway right now i am just disappointed in myself. i was sooooooooooooo close to getting the lead in the musical and i pooped it up because i was in a super poopy mood and i wasn't thinking too much. shit on me. oh well. i get another chance next year. how i wish i was a senior i am tired of all this shit shit and more shit. i want my own life. me me me me me. for a change. yes. i am determined. oh yeah THANKS STIZZLE!!! ok i'm done now... i'm just wasting time so i'll just go surf and maybe find something interesting to put on here next time. yeah. bubye.
ok i'm done now... i'm just wasting time so i'll just go surf and maybe find something interesting to put on here next time. yeah. bubye.. January 2, 2005 17h05
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!! well let's see what has happened.....
well let's see what has happened.....my beauty and the beast book hasn't come yet..... maybe it will come tomorrow.....i hope so...last chance! yesterday was exhausting, but funfun. laura, ross and dan the man came to my house yesterday to visit 
we went to target so laura could look for spree candy canes....odd yes i know....then we went bowling!!! everybody got a strike, but no turkeys....boo turkey....we came back and played the best game in the world.....cranium love that game! and even more fun w/ my govie buddies. i'll get laura to send me a picture to put here. it's great.
maybe it will come tomorrow.....i hope so...last chance! yesterday was exhausting, but funfun. laura, ross and dan the man came to my house yesterday to visit we went to target so laura could look for spree candy canes....odd yes i know....then we went bowling!!! everybody got a strike, but no turkeys....boo turkey....we came back and played the best game in the world.....cranium love that game! and even more fun w/ my govie buddies. i'll get laura to send me a picture to put here. it's great.today i read my ass off....i finished the joy luck club. i read like 200 pages just today. can't wait to read ethan frome tomorrow and read some for apush. fantabulous.....but i'm going to the movies tomorrow too with some hilarious jokers....hehe gotta read now....ethan here i come.....night!!
gotta read now....ethan here i come.....night!!♥, me
. December 30, 2004 17h55
damn. charlotte traffic is even worse than raleigh. but maybe that was just game traffic. there was sooo much bluuuuue. and so many freakin people. we stopped at a barbq vendor man for a sandwich and a hotdog. migh-ty fine. there was this dude from bc with a helmet and like a stadium and all this crap all over it. my daddy took a picture. i'm such a traitor. when we got to our seats they had put little pompoms in all the cup holders. free stuff! who doesn't like free stuff? too bad carolina lost..... dude, i walked around like the entire stadium and there was no ice cream to be found....there was beer every 5 steps, but no ice cream. it was a sad sad day. i think the best part was when everybody in the top level did the wave. it went all the way around like 3 times. too bad no one was watching the game right then. for halftime, the marching tar heels came out and did their cool little thing. they spelled out carolina tarheels and did the unc symbol and the outline of nc. it was pretty cool. they had these people try and throw a football 20 yards or so through a tire target to win a million dollars! too bad nobody got even close....they got a free set of tires, though....then this lady had to throw 9 consecutive footballs through a target to win a house.....she threw it maybe halfway. 9 footballs is a lot to ask for a house when you can throw one and win a million dollars.
who doesn't like free stuff? too bad carolina lost..... dude, i walked around like the entire stadium and there was no ice cream to be found....there was beer every 5 steps, but no ice cream. it was a sad sad day. i think the best part was when everybody in the top level did the wave. it went all the way around like 3 times. too bad no one was watching the game right then. for halftime, the marching tar heels came out and did their cool little thing. they spelled out carolina tarheels and did the unc symbol and the outline of nc. it was pretty cool. they had these people try and throw a football 20 yards or so through a tire target to win a million dollars! too bad nobody got even close....they got a free set of tires, though....then this lady had to throw 9 consecutive footballs through a target to win a house.....she threw it maybe halfway. 9 footballs is a lot to ask for a house when you can throw one and win a million dollars. we decided to leave early so william could get to the bball game early but.....we decided to try and take the interstate or something......bad idea.....we sat there in traffic for 45 minutes.....gahhhh......i think he made it just in time....
laura, my absolutely fantabulous roomie from governor's school, called me today! she and ross and dan the man are coming to raleigh on saturday!!!! i can't waitwhen i got my letter that laura wrote me at the end of the summer a week ago, i wanted to cry i missed everybody so bad. but i get to see her on saturday and then next year she's going to college up here!!!!!!!!!!!! woohoo!! we're going to eat cookie dough and sugar plums and make snow angels and gingerbread houses!....maybe if i was buddy....perhaps.....but i'll eat the cookie dough anyway
when i got my letter that laura wrote me at the end of the summer a week ago, i wanted to cry i missed everybody so bad. but i get to see her on saturday and then next year she's going to college up here!!!!!!!!!!!! woohoo!! we're going to eat cookie dough and sugar plums and make snow angels and gingerbread houses!....maybe if i was buddy....perhaps.....but i'll eat the cookie dough anywayi went to tripps to see nick to give him a carolina pompom and wristband thing and that really funny shirti ordered a cheesecake from him. yumyum!...make me fat
i ordered a cheesecake from him. yumyum!...make me fat
time for bed!!!! g'nitie!
♥, me
. December 29, 2004 22h40
whoo buddy.........this was a very long day. we went to concord mills on the way to charlotte. i stopped in the bass pro shops store and got nick a funny shirt. it says "not only am i a legendary hunter, but i'm also a chick magnet" hehe. i got a really cute pink sweater in the mall too. it's fuzzy i fell asleep on the 15 minute journey from the mall to the hotel.....all that shopping wore me out....sad, no? we got to the hotel and went downtown for the pep rally....lots of blue and lots of beer and smoke *cough cough* everywhere. yum.......ugh. haha ric flair was the guest speaker....the gray-haired wrestler who says "whooooo". crazy. the mb was good from both sides so i hope i get to see them tomorrow. yay!
i fell asleep on the 15 minute journey from the mall to the hotel.....all that shopping wore me out....sad, no? we got to the hotel and went downtown for the pep rally....lots of blue and lots of beer and smoke *cough cough* everywhere. yum.......ugh. haha ric flair was the guest speaker....the gray-haired wrestler who says "whooooo". crazy. the mb was good from both sides so i hope i get to see them tomorrow. yay! guess what!!! my mommy said that my beauty and the beast book got mailed yesterday!!! so....it might be at home when we get back tomorrow!!! yippee!!!!! i can't wait!
i can't wait!i've seen so much crud on tv about the tsunami....it's everywhere!!!! and now they say that stuff in the day after tomorrow might actually happen....nice.....
dang....i'm going to bed and read for english next semester.... fun stuffs.... g'nitie!!!
fun stuffs.... g'nitie!!!♥, me
. December 29, 2004 10h52
whew. today we're going to charlotte to see carolina play in the bowl yay! we get to stop at concord mills and the bass pro shop too. i hope we go to olive garden......yum! i don't know what makes it so good, but it sure is!
yay! we get to stop at concord mills and the bass pro shop too. i hope we go to olive garden......yum! i don't know what makes it so good, but it sure is!we're stopping at wal-mart now. more later
. December 27, 2004 22h21
dude this day is finally almost over!!! let's see for the rest of the day i was still trying to figure out how to make my own fool layout....i bow down to people who are really good at that....its freakin hard. seriously.
Hey!!! i ordered the beauty and the beast vocal selection book off the internet (cheaper haha!) i can't wait until it gets heeeerrrrreeee hurry up!!!!! i hope to goodness that ms minick and craw choose beauty and the beast as the musical....i'm going to say that every single day until i find out. you have no idea how fantabulous that would be! i get so excited just thinking about it. its amaaaazing. i think the real broadway show is coming to raleigh in the summer next year so maybe i'll get to go see it maybe i'm just stupid (sorry nick i had to say it) but i'm going to try out for the musical whatever it is and hope that i get a good part. hopefully i'm not stupid and i won't make a really huge fool out of myself. that would suck @$$. no doubt. woo i'm freaking myself out just thinking about singing in front of people. that's why i have to practice like mad. and hence i have ordered the songbook to help me practice. maybe i will quit being so nervous and let jolly old st. nick help me out. he is in chorus after all!.....ok now that you know the entire story.....i think i should quit rambling now. yeah.
haha!) i can't wait until it gets heeeerrrrreeee hurry up!!!!! i hope to goodness that ms minick and craw choose beauty and the beast as the musical....i'm going to say that every single day until i find out. you have no idea how fantabulous that would be! i get so excited just thinking about it. its amaaaazing. i think the real broadway show is coming to raleigh in the summer next year so maybe i'll get to go see it maybe i'm just stupid (sorry nick i had to say it) but i'm going to try out for the musical whatever it is and hope that i get a good part. hopefully i'm not stupid and i won't make a really huge fool out of myself. that would suck @$$. no doubt. woo i'm freaking myself out just thinking about singing in front of people. that's why i have to practice like mad. and hence i have ordered the songbook to help me practice. maybe i will quit being so nervous and let jolly old st. nick help me out. he is in chorus after all!.....ok now that you know the entire story.....i think i should quit rambling now. yeah.i wish the snow would hurry up and melt so that i could wear my new boots out in the snow they're cowboy boots that a certain sweet someone got for me. yes..now i have to kill him because i told him not to spent a lot of $ on me. he broke his promise. o well i forgive him. he said that shadow likes the little scarf that i knitted for her i know its corny but i thought it was cute. cutecutecute. hehehehehehehehehehehe i think its time to get my butt in the bed and read some stuff for english next semester pooooopy. good night tout le monde. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
they're cowboy boots that a certain sweet someone got for me. yes..now i have to kill him because i told him not to spent a lot of $ on me. he broke his promise. o well i forgive him. he said that shadow likes the little scarf that i knitted for her i know its corny but i thought it was cute. cutecutecute. hehehehehehehehehehehe i think its time to get my butt in the bed and read some stuff for english next semester pooooopy. good night tout le monde. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz♥, me
. December 27, 2004 18h52
aka the most boring day of my life...
today i did absolutely nothing. in fact, to make it more interesting i am boycotting capital letters. i figured if i boycotted punctuation too it would be too hard to read. yeah. so i had fun i guess other than the fact i have been cooped up here for far too long. i have been playing with the new toy i got for christmas for like 2 days straight. sad, huh? but....my new toy is a laptop! ooo yeah....all i have to say right now is.....mwahahaha i am different i do not have xanga!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so boo turkey
i went to kinko's today to drop off a package. get this, it was already prepaid so all i technically have to do is put the fool thing on the counter and walk out. there is apparently one line for kinkos crap and another for fed ex....soooo i get behind some lady at the fed ex counter. this guy in the other line starts pointing at me and crap....so when he gets to the front of the line the lady tells him to get in the fed ex line.....smartass. if he had told me he was there before me i wouldn't have moved...wasn't my fault he got in the wrong dadgum line. all i had to do was drop off my box anyway. geez. people these days. o well...
well i am pissed off at photoshop now....i can't figure out how to chop my picture into pieces... it's retarded. i could actually make my own fool layout if i had a image cutter (that i don't feel like buying) poop. well gotta go work some more to make this more interesting. yay!
♥, me
