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| Tyler July 8, 2000 Your long and tiring cryptic-coded lectures sincerely amuse me Your twisted assumptions in my so-called prophetic abilities Are somewhat mind-boggling. Words are shoved down my throat Then your guilt trip begins The sick feeling comes, And I choke on the fact that I've walked all over you I send the message but you do not recieve Instead I become a liar You give in and I am independent as always In awe of all simplicity Continuing On... October 17, 2000 If I let myself continue to be stretched My skin will tear If I continue to value solitude I will never be loved If I continue to decieve I will never be trusted If I want what is simple I will remain confused My skin will continue to be torn My heart will remain empty My friends will continue to doubt me I will remain confused I will continue to hate what I want Drifting Into Sweet Dreams August 17, 2001 Those delicate rays from a lamp on my dresser Cannot compare to the blinding sun. I'd rather lay here a ponder Why I am still awake and thinking of you. Reminiscing that tender pastry scent Brings me back into your grin. The feeling of complete ease sets in. That familiar trip-hop beat reminds me of that one night. Fingertips on my skin send a quiver through my soul And an arrrow through my heart. I am alone, But not for long. I could stare into a million delicate rays Before glancing at the blazing sun. Silently Screaming October 24, 2000 Painted vision, what lies beneath? Scarred and damaged is what it sees Branded ugly by itself And wasting time... How does it sleep with all the weakness of its keep? How can it live knowing that one day it has to give? Cold and angry on the inside Frustration is what seems to tear the flesh Cornerred every time Insignificance causes its anguish Itching, Seething, Festering, Breathing Misunderstood and alone Love as a Stale Cigarette December 08, 2001 I'd have bled for just one touch But you'll die when you're high Would you die just for me? Or is that asking too much? I gave you all a girl could give You take my tears, that's not nearly enough I kiss the amber in your blood The poison that obstructs your will to live You suck on your cigarette The love of your life Breathing less air beats breathing it in Oh how I resent it I want to say it although your body is weak That familiar medicine loiters on your breath Between the frigid sheets The words spill, I begin to speak: "I'm falling and it's going to be hard It makes me sore in every way Instead you leave me behind This feeling though, I can't discard" My blood begins to boil Your interest is the stale cigarette The tawny brew you choose to swallow The sight of it is chewing tinfoil My pledge to you went unseen It's strange the way you said it first From side to side the way you trek Please say what you really mean "I love you now, it's too soon somehow" Were the words you sang in sin Now the song's been rearranged You have my solemn vow I'll sew my lips shut for the time You'll get through this - I know it Through the smoke and empty bottles What isn't heard will now be mine The Third Triangle December 13, 2001 She's at it again That filthy whore She steals and she takes But insists on more Once I was blind I see through her now He won't understand He's broken our vow It's falling apart For the third time again She's back in my life But the first time for him The thought makes me cringe Then together, alone What we could have been Will never be known Because he chose her The sex slave she is He didn't choose me The loss here is his [Truth = File Not Found] September 20, 2001 Feelings so white and pale Emotion so raw and sore Why hadn't the little bird come to me? Was it the same reason he left as well? "I replaced love with complication for you" "I gave you my all" Was that really all it ever was? I wouldn't like to think so But it's as close to the truth I've become "Go away," tears, roll off my cheek and be gone They listened and only one was shed For Adam Secrecy September 27, 2001 Forbidden fruit Longed to be touched by some distant foe That silken whisper Tickles my eardrum And trickes down to The very tips of my toes Where it is safe and cloaked in cold darkness Nocturne August 2001 She was the colour of cocaine A wilted rose in her shadow's way Guarded from the sun Blanketed in navy velvet sky She spied a small flickering torch in the night Her star had come to glutton in her cold touch The star's gentle charm warmed her soul Her heart was no longer hard and flat As the sky began to fall, the sun began to rise She caught a glimpse of herself in a puddle The rose had bloomed into a radiant crimson flower She snatched the star before it dissapeared Into the bronze rays then kissed it goodnight And placed it in her pocket The petals curled up and hid from the sun Her beauty would only be known By her velvetty night sky Someone Else October 17, 2001 Somewhere, sometime You will think of me You will love to hate me But your thoughts are false You will convince yourself - Your other self, That I am just a bad memory A memory you will soon forget but because you're two-faced I will not forget the hate I will not forget the lies I will not forget the pain I will erase the empty apologies And I'll forget the stale love You will think of me And you'll regret your sick whispers Never telling how you felt Was all you ever cared about Untitled December 2001 You come around to pat me on the back And tell me how I've wronged You've inflicted disgust in my eyes Hiding behind something you are not Try to sell me self-pity You're cheap and superficial But I see self-doubt behind those eyes My interest is not official The First... The Last January 23, 2002 I bet you'll never know how much I never tried to love you Some people leave footprints on your heart The only time I ever changed without trying Was when you walked into my life The first person I'd have bled for Took me for a joke, a feeble mind Too many tears shed for nothing Time stood still when it was spent Looking into your eyes It was merely an empty wish To have kept you by my side Because if I could have seen This fall apart Every second was worth spending Knowing what love really was Even now I know it's over I wouldn't take those futile words away I'll keep them in my heart for always I'll think back to what I thought was real Regret won't cross my mind You'll be the one and only fond memory When I doubt love can exist |
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