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March 14, 2003

"Nobody likes you when your 23, and you still act like you're in freshman year" - Blink 182

I'm amazed at just how much you mature while in this place. There comes a point in college when stuff you did when you were younger just isn't funny anymore. Hell, things go from being interesting to just being flat out dull. Then there are those things that were good ideas at the time that you look at down the road and you go "what the hell was I thinking?" Only problem is not everyone reaches that point at the same time you do. Then you just kinda wait…paitently.

"Watch your mouth. Hold your tongue. Some things are better left unsaid." - Juliana Theory

How true. Sometimes I'm just amazed by the things people say / do. It's like they someone to yell at them. Lately I've been shrugging it off though. If I didn't I probably wouldn't have any friends, or at least lots of strained relationships. I've been trying to do a fantabulous job at biting my tongue. Most of the time, its better to just not say anything. It's just not worth the added hassle. With 18 hours, more stress is the last thing I need.

"I can play a heel just as well as I play a face." - T. Piddy

Since I've gotten a few questions about that quote, I'll clarify I little for everyone who's interested. Heel and Face are wrestling terms. They basically determine who's on what side. Faces (short for babyface) are the good guys. Heels are the bad guys. Simple enough. Next…

"…I'm interesting, the best thing since wrestling. …cause it feels so empty without me"

- Eminem

"I'm just fucking you until someone else better comes along" - Marilyn Manson

You can be replaced. No one needs your company, they just prefer it. You figure as conceited as I am, someone would be saying this to me J. Life's funny. Just remember that you treat those around you how you want to be treated. People can only put up with so much…then it gets to a point where they just don't care or people care way too much because you've been come a bother. If they stop caring, well then you're up a river without a paddle. If they care too much, they're probably gonna beat you with a paddle first before sending up the river.

"I'm never alone, I'm alone all the time." - Bush

I started off as a loner as a kid. Not because kids wouldn't play with me, but because I like(d) to think, and its kinda hard to do that with people always around you. I like to think about me, about what's going on around me, just about life in general. How can you expect other people to know you when you don't know yourself? Which is why when people stop interacting with me (well, when I stop interacting with them) I could care less. Let them find themselves. Eventually they will and they probably won't like what they see. Then they'll realize that I'm not the bad guy (Hey Yo) here.

"...In fact she'll often disagree, but at the end of it all she will understand me… I don't want to be tied to anyone's strings, I'm carefully trying to steer clear of those things." - "Somebody," Depeche Mode