May 2, 2004 RAW Choice Cut: None. Too many links (which are necessary (to me at least, but I also know where to look to make sense out of this thing) to read this time) plus the fact that Geocities can't handle the bandwidth equals no mp3 this time. Sometimes silence is better to think with anyways. If you really want a song, Jewel - "Break Me" is a great one. "When it comes to bein' true, at least true to me, one thing I found I know you'll never let me down." - Kanye West My cousin Tricia told me that the friends you make freshman year will be the ones that stick with you for the rest of your life. If that's the case, I seriously lucked out. I seriously believe I couldn't have found a better group of brothers if I tried. We've been through a lot. We've had good times with each other. We've had not so good times with each other. We've lived through random instances of great luck and we've also had to beat each other up a few times. That's how you make family. I've said my goodbyes to a few of 'em so far, but I know that shit ain't goodbye. While a little sad, I know its just an "I'll holla." "I don't care where you've been or what you've done before, cause it's a whole new game when you walk through my door." - Fagan & Clark I've lived in a lot of places before. Some for 17 years. Some for just a few days. Now to say you've lived somewhere is completely different than saying that's where you call home. I can easily call 52B home. I truly feel bad for 2 things. 1, that after two years, my stay in 52B is gonna come to an end. 2, whoever lives here next will NEVER be able to live up to the 52B legacy. With T_Piddy, Lil' Cease, JD, and that random fourth (adding Phil to the mix this year was just a bad idea) all under one roof we've been the long standing epicenter of randomness in Lightsey Bridge. From having random freshmen funnel beers to "break 'em in," to the use of the fog machine, to that stupid drunk girl taking my socks, to punching the daylights out of Kel Kel (sorry hun) life's been interesting here. I'd love to be around to explain the water spots on the floor, why the toilet never stops running, the random pieces of silly string everywhere, and the huge stain in the SW corner of the room - but that's for CU Housing to worry about. Speakin' of Piddy… "It's time to show these players how it should be done, you got Pimp Potential. You might could be one." - Lloyd Banks Alright, I've come to the conclusion that girls might be the most illogical creatures on the face of the planet. There's no trying to figure them out. I told a story a while back about a few guys who gave their best effort to make things go right. Now of course, the stories didn't end there. There was a good bit more, but I have better things to do than fill up RAW space with the story of everyone's love life. That's what the EAP is for. Anywhoo, for this many guys to honestly try and wind up failing, well something's not right here. Then to hear statements like "I'm tired of all the shitty guys" and "______ is such an asshole," followed by lines like "well nice guys are okay, but they're boring" and "you know how I fall for the assholes" really doesn't make sense. You'll never hear a guy go "nothing like a girl that treats me like shit." Maybe because we use logic. And you girls wonder why I "joke" about saying that all guys should turn heel. Apparently that's what works. "Her boyfriend, he don't know anything about her…I wish that I could make her see. She's just the flavor of the weak." - American Hi-Fi No, I'm not done with the female side of the species. I just needed a paragraph break. People like paragraphs, they make things easier to read. Observation of recent, and its been backed up by a female source. Guys want their friends. Girls try to make friends. Clarified, I'm saying that guys want to date their friends for a reason. They enjoy them so much in every way, shape, form, and fashion that the only next logical step is to try make a relationship out of it. Worse come to worse, they'll still be friends. Girls see it differently. They try to take the guy they're dating and make him into the friend they want. They want him to listen, care, be them for them, etc instead of giving the guy who a) does that willingly or b) would love to do that every day a fair shake. What happened to the line "to try and fail is better than to never tried at all?" *scratcheshead* After reading that, I don't know if that was one of those "You cut one of us, we all bleed" moments or if someone slapped him in the face. Either way, it was so much nicer and less forceful when I said something along same lines last December. Anyways… "Trust in my self righteous suicide. I cry when angels deserve to die." - System of a Down I'm a firm believer that you have to pay for your actions. In a nutshell, if you bought the mattress, assembled the bed frame, and then made the bed, well then it's yours to lay in. If you mess up somewhere along the line, it's one thing to come around looking for help. It's another to go around looking for others to feel sorry for you. Just because they sound the similar and can be used in sentences very similarly, empathy and sympathy do not mean the same thing. "Some will win. Some will lose. Some are born to sing the blues." - Journey Some times I look back on the decisions I made. Some of 'em were made very well. Completely thought out, not hasty at all. Others I probably should have waited on before making judgment. Instead of handling some things, I either ignored it or came up with some type of distraction so I wouldn't have to worry about it. I'd like to say "hey, I wish I could redo that one." But what's done is done. If something was meant to be redone, it'll find a way to fix itself… "I keep asking myself, wondering "how?" I keep closing my eyes, but I can't figure out." - t.A.T.u. Sometimes I make observations or have thoughts that make sense to me no matter how crazy and/or illogical they may be. Now when other people stumble across the same observations, I have to ask the question - who's the one who's nuts here? Me for thinking randomly in the first place or them for thinking of the same thing? "When I think about the future, I think about… success. family. happiness. hopes and dreams. love." - Vitamin C It's been an interesting time as of late. With everything winding down, I've spoken to a lot of people and noticed the same thing. We've all got the same fears. The same thoughts. It's almost as if I've had the same conversation multiple times. At my computer inside my own head. Over a tall cold one with an old friend. Standing in my doorway with George on my shoulder. Sitting on a couch w/ them lying in my lap. Driving to Seneca for no damned reason. If it's comforting to anyone other than me, just know that other people are going through the same things. We're all a little lost about what next, but I've noticed one thing from everyone. Optimism. With all the tears I've seen shed, the crackles I've heard in voices, the random sadness, there's always a thought of "well this part will be cool." That's what I'm holding on to. I'm not even too concerned about the nervousness. It'll pass. |
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