December 12, 2003
RAW Choice Cut: Andrew W.K. - "She Is Beautiful"

Man, was this a good week.  Its weeks like these you realize what the word family means.  No one said we have to like each other all the time, but we've all got each other's backs.  That's good stuff right there.  Plus, who else can we bug out with all the time?  Much love also goes out to Brit, Libby, and Mandy.  I figured you guys deserved a little more than just away messages for your oh so kind gestures.  Maybe it should be finals week more often… 

"Too real is this feeling of make believe.  Too real when I feel what my heart can conceive."  - The Platters
Question of the week  - "Does you have a record player?"  Why'd I ask this question?  Cause I'm the only retard that goes out and buys LPs knowing good and well the only record player that he knows he can use is 3hrs away.  Tis all good tho.  I love CDs, but there's this magic that you can only get with records.  Blame it on the fact that I grew up hearing my moms records or because you can buy 4 records for a $1.00 at the local music store.  Steal of the week: nabbing a Platters Greatest Hits LP for a quarter.  Damn I made out well on that one.

"You know all the right people.  You play all the right games."                                                           - Everclear
If you keep trying to be everything to everyone, its gonna catch up with you.  Then you won't know what you are to yourself.  Live for you and no one else.

"So cry just a little for me.  Could you cry a little for me?"                                                                  - Angie Aparo
I was listening to this song ("Cry" by Angie Aparo) and I was thinking, when was the last time I had a good heartfelt cry?  I'm talking straight bawling.  Its been a while, at least since freshman year.  Maybe a nice one would be good, just for peace's sake.  They taught me back in elementary school that nothing's wrong with crying.  Sister Bernadette said that crying was cleansing to the soul.  Maybe everyone would feel a lot better if they just let it all out sometimes.
(T. Piddy: Ya know, with everyone one of these RAW things he peels back more and more layers of himself.  He's really killing the whole invincible, ego-driven, no-guilt feeling image I built up nicely in the EAP.  I really can't handle this…bleh.)

"The dice was loaded from the start.  And I bet..."                                                                                - Dire Straits
Smitten?  Yeah, pretty much.  I swear I'm hopeless.

"Its funny.  Funny how time goes by, and blessings are missed in the blink of an eye."                          - R. Kelly
If you could go back and change anything, what would you change and why?  I was thinking about this the other day, and I'd have to say nothing.  There were some things in the past that I wasn't too pleased with, but I chalk them all up as learning experiences.  Without those experiences, who says I'd be the same person I am now.  And I'm happy with who I am now, past mistakes and all.  But the old saying that "hindsight is 20/20" is so true.  So very true.

"You're trying to be cool, you look like a fool to me…"                                                                   - Avril Lavigne
2 Topics, 1 Song Quote.  First up, first impressions are a big thing to people.  A lot of people go by the them.  Me, not so much.  I understand if someone comes off odd the first time I meet them, which is fair enough.  They're not on their turf, I'm new to them (and vice versa), and lots of other things that can influence how they behave.  What I care about is the eighty-first impression.  After you've met a person a few times, that's when you can tell what they're really like.  They can only put up a front for so long, and eventually their true colors will come shining through.  Second, "attention whores" - I so don't like 'em.  And an attention whore doesn't have to be a female.  Guys are guilty of it too.  Its one thing to be in the spotlight, cause everyone likes a little attention sometime.  Its another to want to own the spotlight, run it, and constantly shine it on you.  The AW may be getting a lot of joy out of it, but the people around 'em really could care less.